So no man on that hillside joked now about riding out of here. There was no one laughing anymore.
Tom had about had it from the drag uphill. He stopped to rest and catch his breath, yanking at the big blue bandanna knotted round his neck. Already sopping wet. Still he used it to wipe his brow while he dropped to the dust and grass beside his brother. He had watched that horrifying whirlwind of frightened horses, panicked men, and finally the suicides sweeping west along the ridge. He had seen it nibble away at the will to live … the will to try.
How long ago?
How long had it been since Smith had led them down? How long since the lieutenant had been cut off on his retreat uphill?
Poor, sad, Fresh Smith, Tom thought dryly, running his gummy tongue around the inside of his mouth, sour with the taste of old whiskey.
With the scars of a horrendous wound suffered in the Civil War, Smith couldn’t raise his left arm above his shoulder, couldn’t even put on his tunic without a struggle. So when his right arm was mangled by a Cheyenne bullet as he crawled away from the suicides in the ravine, Smith found himself fair game for any glory-seeking young warrior.
A Cheyenne Crazy Dog had stood over him seconds later, reveling in his triumph. Poor Smith, hampered now by two useless arms, spread-eagled on the hillside while the warrior carved his scalp off. Still alive.
The scream …
Tom would always remember that paralyzing sound. A friend, this Lieutenant Algernon E. Smith. Yes, Fresh was one to always do his best. But he just couldn’t make it back up the hill as his men slaughtered themselves in that ravine below. His scream …
So as the warrior did his gruesome work on Smith’s scalp, Tom Custer ground his teeth, swiped the hot tears from his eyes, and sat down calmly, bracing Autie’s hunting rifle over the bloated ribs of a dead horse. He drew and held his breath. Let half of it go.
When he had the side of Smith’s head in his sights, he closed his eyes to the stinging tears and squeezed on the Remington’s trigger.
Reluctantly he had opened his eyes to the bright, white-hot sunlight once more. The Cheyenne warrior was standing every bit as tall, flinging his anger up the side of the hill at the man above who had killed the helpless soldier, robbing him of pleasure in slowly butchering the wasichu trooper wearing metal bars on his shoulders.
“Goodbye, Lieutenant Smith,” Tom had whispered, choking on gall, pulling the Remington back. Then he slumped behind the horse carcass until Autie moaned.
How long ago now?
Now nearing the top of the hill, dragging his brother, the sun seemed brighter.
All of the civilians gone now.… Had no damned business coming along, Tom brooded.
Kellogg was somewhere down by the river. He had never made it very far out of the Medicine Tail at all. Riding that poor slow mule he loved and coaxed all the way from Lincoln. The mule had cost the reporter his life as those five companies made their last mad dash up the slope out of the slopes and away from the river.
Boston and young Autie.
Harry. Just should’ve called you Harry. Not named you after your famous uncle. Maybe you’d still be back in Monroe right now if they’d let you be just plain Harry. You’d be flirting with girls down at the mercantile … or sneaking in for a swim up to Hansford’s place … swinging on that rope and dropping into the cool, rippling water. Instead, you’re lying dead, baking on the hot sand of a nameless Montana hillside.
Tom eventually gazed down at Autie. Custer was still breathing, but his eyes were half closed, as if he were asleep. Only the whites of his eyes showing. Sleeping through these last few minutes. Quickly Tom pulled all three pistols from his belt and checked them for live rounds. Replacing some spent cartridges, young Tom put one back in the holster, one in his belt, and the third he clutched in his sweaty hand.
Lord, the soft, pliant breasts I’ve held with this hand, he thought, staring down at it dirty, bloody now. What pleasure you gave the girls, Tommy lad. No more of that now.
Certain as the sun baked the back of his neck, Tom would see that the last two bullets weren’t used on the Indians. He’d learned enough from Indian warfare to know that. Two bullets. One for Autie, one for himself.
Lord, am I crying? Shit! I’ve never cried. Not even at Saylor’s Creek when half my face was blown off in that charge for the flag. I had to do it, goddammit! That artillery position was chewing Autie’s cavalry to pieces. Crying?
He sighed and fought for control. He didn’t want to cry in front of the men. Not now. Jesus, is it noisy here! Just listening to the sound of these few men on the hill. To the south Keogh was down to—
Hell, Myles has four men left.
Cooke was firing off into a pocket of some snipers to the west and still doing some damage. Christ, Billy had only two others still with him now.
Down the west slope in front of Tom sat perhaps a dozen more of his men nestled behind the bodies of comrades or horse carcasses. Up here he felt so alone … so goddamned alone. Then he looked down at Autie’s unruly straw mustache and sunburned freckled cheeks. And suddenly he didn’t feel so alone anymore.
Up here right near the top of Autie’s goddamned hill.
He tried to spit. Nothing but cotton balls in his mouth now.
Shit! Can I make it to the top? Can I?
Custer wanted Tom to drag him to the top. He had always done what Autie wanted him to do. From their earliest days as kids in Ohio right up to courting the proper girl—that Agnes Bates from Monroe last summer at Lincoln. He had always done just what Autie wanted, and he always would.
Autie … oh, Autie! You were always the fair-haired boy in town, the hero—even as kids. The one we were told to be like. And I was always the younger brother—trying to live at the edge of your bright light. It wasn’t fair, Autie!
I was every bit as good as you. But the only way anyone would ever pay attention to me was for me to chew tobacco in school, get in trouble in town—stealing, drinking whiskey with the older boys, raising hell. But you—no, you never raised hell. I had to, just to get someone to pay attention to me.
That’s why I did those reckless, stupid things for you in the war, Autie. You understand now, don’t you? Two goddamned Medals of Honor for heroism. That’s why I charged alone while the other men around me were cut down or turned back. Simply because I wanted everyone else to know I was every bit as good as you. But look at us! We’re both waiting to die on some dirty little hillside on some dirty little nameless goddamned river in Montana Territory.
And no one is going to know I saved you as long as I could … down to the last war cry on this hill … and then put an army bullet in your brain.
CHAPTER 27
NO one would ever know.
How could they? He had never calked about it with any Sioux or Cheyenne friends. And the only white men who had laid eyes on him were dead now.
He was Crazy Horse. No one would ever know what he kept buried inside.
What it was had left a searing impression that had burned inside the pit of him up to this very day as he sat atop his war pony, staring up the north side of this grass hill where the last ragtag squad of pony soldiers had themselves dug in, soldiers who fired a shot now and then from behind other dead wasichu soldiers and horse carcasses.