He smiled. "I'm not in fact doing anything. I'm on a long vacation. Not exactly a sabbatical, just an extended break."
"Are you still a lawyer in New York?"
I am.
"Working with your uncle?"
"No. I'm the top of the heap now."
"How impressive. Go on."
"Well… I've been away about six weeks. Travelling in England, staying with various acquaintances. Somerset, Berkshire, London. Then I came north and I've been in Kelso for a few days with some distant cousins of my mother's. It's a great place. Great fishing. Left them after lunch today. Caught the train up here."
"How long are you staying in Relkirk?"
"Just tonight. Tomorrow morning I'm hiring a car, and driving on north. I have to go to a party."
"And where is the party?"
"Some place called Corriehill. But I'm staying at another house called Croy. With-"
"I know." Virginia interrupted. "Archie and Isobel Balmerino."
"How do you know?"
"Because they're our closest friends. We all live in the same village, Strathcroy. And… you know Katy Steynton?"
"I met her in London."
"You're the Sad American." Virginia said this without thinking and could at once have bitten out her tongue.
"Sorry?"
"No, Conrad. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. It's just that nobody could remember your name. That's why I didn't know it was you who was coming."
"You've lost me."
"We had lunch with the Balmerinos on Sunday. Isobel told me about you then."
Conrad shook his head. "I knew you'd married and I knew you'd married a Scotsman, but no more than that. I never imagined we'd meet up like this."
"Well, here I am, Mrs. Edmund Aird." At least I think I am. She hesitated. "Conrad, I didn't mean to say that. The Sad American bit, I mean. It's just that Isobel didn't seem to know anything about you. Except that Katy had met you in London. And that your wife had died."
Conrad was holding his whisky tumbler. He turned it in his hand, watching the amber liquid swirl. After a bit he said, "Yes. That's right."
"I am so very sorry."
He looked up at her. He said, "Yes."
"Can I ask? What happened?"
"She had leukemia. She was ill for a long time. That's why I came over. After the funeral."
"What was she called?"
"Mary."
"How long were you married?"
"Seven years."
"Do you have children?"
"A daughter. Emily. She's six. Right now she's with my mother in Southampton."
"Getting away… has that made things better for you?"
"I'll know when I get back."
"When are you going?"
"Next week sometime." He tossed back the last of his drink, got to his feet. "I'll get us the other half."
She watched him as he stood at the bar, ordering and paying for their second round of drinks, and tried to work out why he was so unmistakably American, when he didn't actually chew gum nor sport a crew cut. Perhaps it was his shape, the broad shoulders, narrow hips, long legs. Or his clothes. Polished loafers, chinos, a Brooks Brothers shirt, a blue Shetland sweater discreetly tagged with the Ralph Lauren logo.
She heard him ask the barman for some nuts. He did this quietly and politely, and the barman found a packet and emptied them into a little dish, and Virginia remembered that Conrad seldom raised his voice and was always mannerly to any person who happened to be doing a job for him. Gas-station attendants, barmen, waiters, cab drivers, doormen. The old black odd-job man who carried the trash and did all the dirty jobs down at the Leesport anchorage was much taken with Conrad, because Conrad had gone to the trouble to find out his Christian name, which was Clement, and always addressed him thus.
A kindly man. She thought about his dead wife, and was certain that the marriage must have been a happy one, and was angry for him. Why did tragedy always aim its venom at the couples who least deserved it while others were spared to make each other miserable and everybody else as well? Seven years. It wasn't very long. But at least he had his little daughter. She thought of Henry, and was glad that he had a child.
He was coming back to their table. She put a smile on her face. The whiskies looked very dark. She said, "I only meant to have one drink. I'm driving."
"How far?"
"About twenty miles."
"Do you want to call your husband?"
"He's not at home. He's in New York. He works for Sanford Cubben. I don't know if that got through to you on the grape-vine or not."
"I think I did know. How about your family?"
"If by family you mean kids, there's no family at home either. I have one child, a little boy, and I have just, this very afternoon, abandoned him to start his first term at boarding-school. That is how I have spent this gruesome day. The most ghastly day of my life. That's why I came in here. To go to the john and gather up my courage before travelling on." Even to herself, she sounded truculent.
"How old is your boy?"
"Eight."
"Oh, God!" His voice was despairing, which Virginia found comforting. Here at last was a twin soul, someone who thought the way she thought.
"He's just a baby. I never wanted him to go, and I fought every inch of the way. But his father was adamant. It's tradition. Good old British stiff-upper-lip tradition. He thinks it's the right thing to do, and he was all set to take Henry himself. But then he had to go to New York. So it had to be me. I don't know which of us was most miserable, Henry or myself. I don't know which of us I feel most sorry for."
"Was Henry okay? Being left, I mean. Saying goodbye."
"Conrad, I don't know. I honestly don't know. It was the fastest turn-round you could imagine. Split-second timing. Not a moment to stand, no time for a tear. I'd hardly stopped the car before two burly chaps were there, opening the back door and manhandling all the luggage onto trolleys. And then the Matron… quite young and quite pretty… took Henry by the hand and led him indoors. I don't think he even looked back. I was standing there with my mouth open, all set to have a scene, and suddenly the Headmaster appeared from nowhere, shook me by the hand and said, "Goodbye, Mrs. Aird." So I got back into the car and drove away. Do you know something? I felt like a dead chicken on a conveyor belt. Do you think I should have asserted myself?"
"No, I don't. I think you did the right thing."
"Nothing could have made it any better." She sighed, drank whisky, set down the glass. "At least neither of us had the chance to disgrace ourselves."
"I guess that's what it's all about." He smiled. "But you could still do with a bit of cheering. So why don't we have dinner together?"
"… I never thought I'd live in Scotland. "To me it was a place one came to at the end of the summer for a bit of jollity and the odd Hunt Ball or two; but never somewhere one would spend the rest of one's life…"
The King's Hotel was not famous for its food, but it was warm and friendly, and the darkness and the streaming rain out of doors offered no inducement to tramp the windy streets in search of someplace a little more sophisticated. They had already eaten their Scotch broth, and were now ploughing their way through steaks, onions, chips, and mixed veg. For pudding, there was a choice of trifle or various ices. The waitress had already told them that the trifle was "offly guid."
Conrad had ordered wine, which was perhaps a mistake, and Virginia was drinking it, which was a bigger one, because she didn't usually talk as much as this, and, for the life of her, she couldn't think how to stop. Even if she'd wanted to. Because Conrad was a sympathetic listener, and so far had not started to look bored. On the contrary, he seemed to be fascinated.
She had already explained about Edmund, and his first wife, and Vi and Alexa. She had told him about Henry, about Balnaid, about the almost indescribable remoteness, and yet closeness, of their existence in Strathcroy.