"And that is all I can do. And it's pointless. He won't be seen. Those who serve the Masters come and go as they please."
"Can't somebody do something?" Narriman demanded. "How long has this been going on? How many women have had to suffer this?"
"It's gone on forever," Al Jahez said. "It went on throughout the age of Empire. It went on before the Empire was bom. It'll go on tomorrow, too."
"Why isn't it stopped?"
"Because no one can stop it. One of the Emperors tried. He sent an .army into the Jebal. Not one man returned."
She was venting frustration. She knew the futility of battling the Masters. No, this was personal. This was between herself and one shaghun. The Masters were but shadows beyond the horizon, too nebulous to factor into the emotional equation.
"That man took my son. My son. I don't recognize his claim. He did nothing but force me onto my back."
"Narriman?" Mowfik said, baffled.
"I want my son back."
"We can't do anything about that," Al Jahez said. "The shaghun is who he is, and we're who we are."
"No."
"Narriman?" Again Mowfik was puzzled.
"I thought about this all day, Father. I'm going after Misr."
Al Jahez said, "But you're a child. And a woman."
"I've grown up the past few years. I'm small, but I'm no child. As to my sex, say what you will. It won't change my mind."
"Narriman!"
"Father, will you stop saying that? You stood by me when I begged you not to. You drowned me in love I did not deserve. Stand by me now. Give me what I need to get Misr back. Teach me what I need to know."
Al Jahez shook his head. "Mowfik, you were right. She is remarkable."
"Little Fox. ... It would take so long. And I'm not rich. I can't afford weapons and mounts and. ..."
"We have a horse. We have a sword. You were a soldier. I can survive in the wilderness. I was of the al Muburak."
Mowfik sighed. "The sword is too heavy, girl."
Narriman glanced at Al Jahez. The captain tried to disappear among his cushions.
"Little Fox, I don't want to lose you too. I couldn't bear that." Mowfik's voice cracked. Narriman glimpsed a tear in the corner of one eye. This would cost him dearly from his beggared emotional purse.
He did not want to see her ride away. His heart said he would not see her again.
That dark rider had stolen her from him as surely as he had stolen Misr. She threw her arms around Mowfik. "Father, I have to do this. Wouldn't you come after me?"
"Yes. Yes, I would. I understand that."
Al Jahez said, "This isn't wise. The impossibility of dealing with the shaghun and the Jebal aside, what would happen to a young woman alone? Even honest men would consider her fair for a moment's sport. Not to mention slavers and bandits. The Disciple instituted a rule of law, little one, but the Evil One, as ever, rules most of the land."
"Those are problems to face when they arise." What he said was true. She could not deny that. Women had no legal status or protection. When the shaghun forced her onto her back he injured her father, not her. An unattached woman was not a person.
Her resolve was not shaken. Damned be the problems, and anyone who stood in her way.
X
When she wanted something badly Narriman got her yay. Mowfik surrendered in the end. Once he gave in, Al J^ihez grudgingly endorsed her training.
Narriman pursued it with a dogged determination that, in time, compelled the respect of Al Jahez's men. She arrived early and left late, and worked harder than any boy.
She was hard. She ignored bruises and aches. Her instructors called her Vixen and backed away when the deadly fire ros(e in her eyes.
One day she browbeat Mowfik into taking her to the captain. She told Al Jahez, "I'm ready. I leave tomorrow."
Al Jahez addressed her father. "Will you permit this, Mowfik? A woman under arms. It's against nature."
Mowfik shrugged.
Narriman said, "Don't stall me. Father's done that for weeks. I'll go with or without your blessing."
"Mowfik, forbid this madness."
"Captain, you heard her. Shall I put her in irons?"
Al Jahez looked at her as if he would cage her for her own protection. "Then marry her to me, Mowfik."
Though struck speechless, Narriman understood. Al Jahez wanted the legal rights of marriage. So he could forbid, she could call upon the law if she persisted. If she rebelled they could hunt her like a runaway slave.
Pure terror gripped her. She stared at her father, saw him tempted.
"Captain, heart and soul cry for me to accept. But I can't. A stronger voice bids me let her go. No matter how it hurts me."
Al Jahez sighed, defeated. "As you will. Child. Bring your father no sorrow or shame." He scowled at her expression. No sorrow or shame of your own doing. That which is done b,y a shaghun isn't of your doing. They're like the great storms in the erg. A man—or woman—can but bow his head till they pass. Come. The priests will bless your quest."
They waited in their fine ceremonial raiment. Al Jahez's eyes twinkled. "You see? Even the old captain begins to krow you."
"Perhaps." She wondered if she was too predictable.
The ceremony was less important to her than to Mowfik and Al Jahez. She endured it for their sakes. She would ride with Karkur.
"Now then," Al Jahez said. "One more thing and I'll harass you no more. Gamel. The box."
A priest presented a sandalwood box. Al Jahez opened it. Within, on white silk, lay a pendant. It was a small, pale green stone not unlike many she had seen on the ground. Al Jahez said, "Perhaps this will be gift enough to repay you, Mowfik." And to Narriman, "Child, the Disciple teaches that even the acquiescence to sorcery is a sin, but men have to be practical. The Disciple himself has shaghun advisers.
"The stone is an amulet. It will warn you if you are near one with the Power. It will begin to grow cooler when you're a mile away. When you're very near it will shed a green light. It's the best weapon I can give you."
Narriman tried to control the shakes. She failed. Tears broke loose. She hugged the captain. He was so startled he jumped away, but his face betrayed his pleasure.
"Go with the Lord, Little Fox. And Karkur if it pleases you."
"Thank you," she said. "For everything. Especially for being Father's friend."
Al Jahez snorted. "Ah, child. What are we without friends? Just severed heads rolling across the sands."
XI
Narriman looked back just before Al Jahez's fortress passed out of sight. "That's yesterday." She looked southward, toward the great erg. "There lies tomorrow. Eight hundred miles." She gripped her reins, touched the amulet between her breasts, her weapons, the bag that Mowfik had filled with war booty when he thought she was not looking. He had done everything to dissuade her, and everything to help her.
She looked back again, wondering if their concepts of manhood and womanhood would compel them to send guardians.
"Go, Faithful," she told her mare. The fortress disappeared. Her heart fluttered. She was going. Alone. A severed head, rolling across the sand, cut off from her body—with a little help from the rider.
She pictured him as he had been the day he had taken Misr. She got that warm, moist feeling, but not as powerfully. Hatred had begun to quench that fire.
She wished there was a way a woman could do to a man what he had done to her.
The wilderness was all that she had been warned. It was bitter, unforgiving, and those who dwelt there reflected its harshness. Twice she encountered men who thought her a gift from heaven.
The first time she outrode them. The second, cornered, she fought. And was surprised to find herself the victor.
Though she had told herself she was the equal of any man, she'd never believed it in her heart. Could the wisdom of centuries be wrong? She rode away more mature, more confident.