"Your brains are scrambled, Mongo, and I can understand why. But I want to find out who did this to you."
Haltingly, I told Garth what had happened, leaving out Kaznakov's name. I didn't want my brother involved with the Russian. There wasn't anything that could be done legally; Garth just wanted to look Kaznakov up personally, and if he did that he'd be dead. Kaznakov was absolutely invulnerable as long as he was attached to the Soviet U.N. Mission. Also, I wanted to keep my own options open concerning Kaznakov.
Garth shook his head. "Christ, brother, you really put your ass in a sling this time."
He had a point. Something was happening to me that I didn't understand. I was getting flashes again: memories of hanging on the pole, of having my muscles and bones pulled out of shape, not being able to breathe, the telephone ringing, electricity coursing through my body. I began to shake. Garth reached for me, but I pushed him away. In a few minutes the tremors passed. Maybe I was dead after all, the person I had been destroyed.
"I'm afraid, Garth," I said simply.
"You may be able to walk around in a few days, Mongo, but it's going to take a lot longer than that for your mind to heal. You have to expect that and accept it. You're only going to hurt yourself if you try to push things."
"What I need is work. You fall off a horse, you have to get right back on again."
"You didn't fall off any goddamn horse! You got taken apart. You don't need work, you need rest. Take it. You feel you owe somebody for this; forget it. No vendettas."
"It's more than that. They've got the Fosters in the Russian consulate."
"How's that?"
My memory seemed to be on the bum too; I couldn't remember whether or not I'd told Garth about the Fosters. I solved the problem by going through the whole case, from its inception.
If Garth had heard the story before, he didn't let on. "What do the Russians want with the Fosters?" he asked.
I told him, and asked if the police could do anything about getting them out.
Garth slowly shook his head. "There's no way, Mongo. I'll see that the State Department is notified, but from what you tell me, they probably already know. The problem is that the consulate is sovereign territory. We have no jurisdiction there, so there's no way we can get in. I'll call some people, though. Maybe we can shake things up."
"Don't," I said.
"Why not?"
"I'm not sure. It just seems that the more people who are in on this, the more people die."
Garth cocked his head to one side and stared at me. "What's the story on Rafferty? Have you found out why he's so valuable?"
"Not yet. But I have a feeling that history is repeating itself."
"Meaning what?"
"I'm convinced almost the same thing happened five years ago. The word on Rafferty-whatever that word is-got out, and people started dying. Lippitt warned me that could happen."
"You say the Englishmen didn't know why Rafferty was important. Do you think Lippitt knows?"
"He knows a lot more than he's telling me. But it still doesn't hold together. If Lippitt knew everything, then it's only logical to assume that he'd be a target. I think everybody was happy with the thought that Rafferty was dead; it's the possibility of his being alive that they can't tolerate. It's crazy. I've been a kind of Judas goat. Everybody thought that Rafferty was dead, and then I went around raising suspicions. Ever since I started making inquiries about Rafferty, I've been followed to see what I know and what I'm up to. I must have convinced a few people that Rafferty's alive; now they've gone independent. I have to get some answers fast."
"Meaning you have to find out what Rafferty knows?"
"It may not be anything he knows." Like Garth, I found myself slipping easily into the present tense when speaking of Rafferty. "It may be something that he does"
"Like what?"
"Maybe he does tricks with his head; maybe he reads other people's minds."
Garth looked at me a long time, probably to see if I was joking. When he was sure I wasn't, he said, "What the hell are you talking about?"
"Arthur Morton became very interested in parapsychology around the same time he was working on Rafferty. I think there may be a connection."
"Hell, I can round up at least a hundred 'psychics' within ten blocks of here," Garth said sarcastically. "This is the Age of Aquarius, remember? Last week I could have paid twenty-five bucks to watch some guy bend forks without touching them; the trouble is that I've got a magician friend who can do the same thing-faster. If the Russians or anybody else wanted a 'mind reader,' all they'd have to do is wait outside some television studio. It's a lot of crap, Mongo."
"Well, maybe Rafferty is the real McCoy. The Defense Department takes telepathy seriously."
"I never thought I'd see the day when you'd cite the Pentagon as a paragon of enlightenment."
There was no point in arguing. "Will you do me a favor?"
"Doubtful," Garth said. "Not unless it involves making arrangements for you to take that vacation in Mexico."
I shook my head. It hurt. What I hadn't told Garth was the most important thing: I had to find out if I could finish it, if I could still function as a human being who also happened to be a dwarf. "I want you to call the U.N. and leave a message for Ronald Tal. Tell him where I am and that I'd like to talk to him." I gave Garth the number Tal had given me. I hesitated, then added, "Please, Garth; do it for me."
Garth stared at me, his eyes moist. "Look at you, Mongo," he whispered in a voice that cracked. "Why do you need any more of this shit?"
"I have to keep going, brother. Just take my word for it."
Finally he nodded. Reluctantly. He squeezed my arm tightly, then turned and walked from the room.
The sedatives the doctors gave me didn't help. I thrashed all night, soaking my sheets with sweat, suspended in a dirty twilight between waking and sleeping. Kaznakov chased me through my nightmares, always catching me, breaking my body and my mind. I asked for a shot, and whatever they gave me seemed to work. The quality of my dreams abruptly shifted; in the moments just before waking, I had the sensation that I was a child again and my mother was close, holding back the evil. My dreams turned warm and languid, and I rested.
When I woke up I found Tal standing beside my bed.
"Good morning, Mongo," he said quietly. "I came as soon as your brother called me. I won't ask how you're feeling. I can only say that I'm sorry."
"Thanks, Tal."
"I received permission to visit you early, but your brother made it clear to me that I shouldn't stay long. May I ask what happened?"
"It's not important. I ran into a very nasty person by the name of Kaznakov. You know him?"
The muscles in Tal's jaw tightened. "I know of him. Sergei Kaznakov is a Soviet agent attached to their mission here. The rumor is that he's a specialist-what some in the community call a 'freak.' Frankly, I'm surprised you survived the encounter."
"He has a taste for torture. I suppose that was a lucky- break for me."
Tal smiled. "If you can look at it that way, you must be feeling better already."
Although I hadn't realized it until Tal said so, I was feeling better; I was no longer shaking or sweating.
An attractive nurse entered with a breakfast tray. Tal unbuttoned the jacket of his double-breasted gray suit and helped maneuver the swing-armed table next to my bed. The nurse set the tray down in front of me, waited while I took the appetizer of two pink pills in a cup, then left with a backward, inviting glance at Tal.
"I'm sure Kaznakov doesn't know you're alive," Tal said when the nurse had gone. "If he did, he'd be after you; you're a blemish on his record."
"Best news I've had all day," I said around a mouthful of sodden oatmeal that tasted better than caviar. I was ravenously hungry.