"Of course not, but he knew we were best friends. He gave me his number and said I should ask you to call him."
Helen bolted up. "I have to go."
Evelyn put a calming hand on her chest. "Whoa there, girl. Think about this. Why don't you call and talk to him? What would a phone call hurt? I know you had a bad time with the police in college, but this is different."
"Evelyn, I just want this all to go away. I want to live my life and not have anyone bother me, you know?"
"It's too late for that," Evelyn told her. "You might be the one person who can help them catch this guy."
"All I ever wanted was to put this behind me."
"I know. Look, have some more wine, and think about it, okay? We can talk about it over dinner."
"I may not be here when you come back."
"And miss my spinach spaghetti and meatless meatballs? Bite your tongue."
"I'm scared."
"Don't be. I told you before, you're safe here. Okay? Just hang on, and I'll be back in a few minutes."
"Couldn't you skip your run tonight?" Helen asked.
"I could skip it every night, but then I'd never do it. I won't be long." She jogged over to the front door. The golden retriever was still barking outside. "Edgar! You don't even like venison! Stupid dog."
When she was gone, Helen shut the music off. She put the second glass of wine down on the edge of a bookshelf. She was keyed up, and she got out of the easy chair and paced. She used the remote control to turn on the television, and she stood with her arms folded, watching an old sitcom, before she realized she wasn't even listening to the dialogue. She shut the television off, too.
Helen thought about Eric Sorenson, the attractive man with the flowing blond hair. When he first approached her at the theater, she didn't trust him, and she didn't want to hear his story. It was only when he told her what had happened to his wife that she agreed to meet him for dinner after the show. That was a mistake. She didn't want to get involved. She had been running away from the assault in college since she was twenty years old, and the last thing she needed was this stranger bringing it all up again.
Then, three days later, it was all over the news. The man who had sat across the table from her was dead. Murdered. His wife was the suspect.
His wife, who had sent an e-mail on Helen's blog. I need your help.
Helen didn't want to help. She didn't want to be pulled into any of this. She had lived a long time on her own, keeping her world immaculate, losing herself in musicals every night. She wanted to be left alone, to be safe, to forget. But Evelyn was right. It was too late to do that. She was in the middle of everything, whether she liked it or not.
She retrieved her glass of wine and finished it. She sat back down in the easy chair, closed her eyes, and turned on the rest of the Damn Yankees soundtrack. She listened to it all the way to the end, where the devil gets outsmarted, where the good guy gets his soul back. When it was over, Helen wondered if that could happen in real life. She wondered if you could ever outrun the devil, or if he would always get you in the end.
She looked at the scrap of paper with the phone number on it.
Call the police. It sounded so simple, but Evelyn didn't know what she was asking Helen to do. And for what? She had no evidence of anything. For all she knew, Eric's wife did kill him. She had nothing to tell them, not really.
Helen picked up the phone, felt its weight in her hand, and put it down again. She was having trouble breathing. If the cop answered, she wasn't sure if she could talk. She didn't know what to say. Her mouth was dry. She walked away from the phone and stared at it from across the room. She didn't owe Eric anything. She didn't owe his wife. The only person she owed was herself.
Then do it for yourself, she thought.
Helen marched back to the phone and dialed the number before her hesitation made her freeze. She held her breath as the phone rang, and an instant later, someone picked it up.
"Hello," the voice said.
Helen was speechless with surprise. "Oh," she blurted finally. "Is this the Duluth police?"
"No, it's not."
"Well, does a policeman live there?"
"No, you've got the wrong number."
"I'm sorry," Helen said.
She hung up and repunched the buttons carefully, reciting them aloud from Evelyn's note. She waited as the phone rang.
"Hello," the same voice said.
Helen didn't say anything this time. Her brain raced. Her heart took off like a rocket.
"Who's there?" the man asked loudly. When Helen was silent, he swore and hung up on her. The dial tone buzzed in her ear.
She laid the phone gently back in its cradle. Her body went warm with sweat, and her bowels constricted. Her skin bubbled with gooseflesh.
If Evelyn were here, she'd say, Get a grip, honeybun. So I got the number wrong.
But Evelyn wouldn't make a mistake like that.
Where was she? She should be back by now. Evelyn never jogged for more than half an hour in the evenings, and when Helen checked the mantel clock, she realized that an hour had slipped by while she was listening to the music.
Get a grip, honeybun. So I'm a little late.
Maybe Evelyn had sprained an ankle. Maybe she had found an injured animal by the highway and was trying to rescue it. She was always doing that.
Maybe.
Helen backed up slowly and silently until her hand grazed the north wall of the house, and then she stood motionless, studying the shadows in the hallway that led to the bedrooms. She sucked her upper lip between her teeth and bit it hard.
The dog wasn't barking anymore. Why?
Maybe the deer was gone. Maybe Edgar was asleep.
You've been drinking, she told herself. You're paranoid.
Helen followed the wall toward the rear porch that overlooked the river. When she reached the easy chair where she had been sitting, she reached behind and shut off the lamp, bathing the house in darkness. She navigated around the wicker furniture and then put a hand on the cold glass as she stared outside through the storm door. Somewhere in the night, below the garden, behind the weeping willow that brushed the ground with its dangling branches, was the Mississippi. She couldn't see a light anywhere. It reminded her again of how much she hated darkness and open spaces, how much she preferred to be cloistered where it was bright and crowded.
You need to go. Now.
He's here.
Helen cracked open the porch door and slid outside into the bitter air. The wooden deck was glazed with ice. She nearly fell as she hurriedly took two steps down to the grass, which crackled with frost.
Her car was steps away, parked beside Evelyn's old tool shed.
All she had to do was make it from here to there.
All she had to do was get in her car and drive away. She could call Evelyn from the road. Evelyn would be safe at home by then and cross at Helen for leaving. Nothing had happened to her. Helen was imagining the fog of menace around her. The presence of the devil.
She could drive to Duluth and find Eric's wife and put an end to a lifetime of running.
Twenty yards of open space, twenty yards of night, lay between her and the car. Then she would be free.
She remembered that the soundtrack to Show Boat was in her CD player, and she smiled at the idea of listening to it as she drove. She was thinking about that black man singing "Ol' Man River" as she ran for the car. She was thinking how scared she was of dying as she felt the hands around her throat.
47
Dan Erickson had a crystal glass of gin in his hand, and he was dressed in black slacks and a dress shirt, with a loosened tie hanging around his neck. His hair was mussed. When he saw Stride in his doorway at midnight, his mouth squeezed into a frown, and his eyes betrayed his anxiety. Stride laid two hands on Dan's chest and shoved him back into the house, where he stumbled on the wood floor, his drink and ice cubes spilling, the heavy crystal rolling away and bumping on the wall.