How long would it be before she trusted him not to revert to his old self? Or would she always be watching him, analyzing every move? God, that sounded exhausting. And dysfunctional. But how could she be sure that he wouldn’t backslide?
“I know we said that life doesn’t come with any guarantees,” he said, “but I promise you this: I’m going to do my absolute best to be a good soldier and serve my king, and if shit goes south and I wind up wearing the hunab ku, I’ll do my best to get that right, too. And no matter where I wind up in the hierarchy, you’ll be right there with me. I don’t want to lose you again, Reese, and I’ll do whatever it takes to keep that from happening.” His eyes were determined, his tone resolute, and the warmth that flared through her at his words carried a spark of lightning and a hum of magic that almost drowned out the tiny, irritating voice that warned it wouldn’t last.
Screw that, she thought, and leaned in to kiss him, pausing to whisper, “I don’t want to lose you again, either. So be warned: if I see you starting to go off the rails this time, I’m going to do my damnedest to beat some sense back into you.”
His lips curved against hers. “Deal. Though I’ll try not to make it necessary.”
“You—” Do that, she meant to say, but lost the words when he closed the final fraction of an inch and kissed her.
It hadn’t been all that long, really, since their lovemaking that morning, but so much had happened, so many emotions had wrung her out and filled her back up, that she felt like they hadn’t kissed in a year. Warmth was a sweet ache that turned to heat as she touched the back of his neck, his shoulders, and he crowded closer with a rasping groan and deepened the kiss. After not nearly enough time, though, they drew apart. Her lips felt soft and swollen, her breasts were heavy, her skin tingled all over.
She would have given anything to take the afternoon off, with him, and pretend the rest of the world didn’t exist. But it was the whole “world not existing” thing that had her climbing to her feet. “I think we need to hold that thought and head back.”
“Rain check,” he agreed, and she was struck by the strange normalcy of the exchange, like they had been lovers all along. But the heat between them was bright, fresh, and new as they headed down the pyramid.
At the bottom, he stopped and bent to pick up a small, shiny bit of metal.
“Heads or tails?” she asked, telling herself there was no reason for her mouth to go dry. The U.S. Mint didn’t imbue their coins with prescient magic.
He just shook his head and put the coin in his pocket.
Heads, she thought, grateful that at least he hadn’t lied. Besides, it didn’t matter whether she was on the fast track toward self-destruction. She had made her choice. Taking his hand, she laced their fingers together, conscious of the way their shadows merged in the slanting afternoon light, stretching larger than their true selves. “Come on,” she said, tugging him in the direction of the mansion. “Let’s go tell the others that you’re ready to take their fealty oaths. The looks on a few of their faces should be good for a laugh, at any rate.” She would take whatever jollies she could get, because the next day and a half had the potential to get seriously grim.
Virginia Beach
As the Disco churned up to its mooring, a thousand or so pint-sized whale watchers—okay, technically more like a hundred, but it had felt like there were a thousand of them—leaned over the railing, waving and hooting at nobody in particular while Cara and the school group’s chaperones made sure that was all they were doing.
“I’m pretty sure we got all the Silly String, but I don’t trust those guys when they start clumping up,” Too-tight Facelift said as she buzzed past on her way to eagle-eye the group that Cara had mentally dubbed Juvies-in-training. Meanwhile, Stern Teacher was rooting the I’m-too-sexies out of the forward ladies’ room and Nurse Nancy was keeping Pukers One through Three corralled on the lower deck, just in case. Because being barfed on from the observation platform just sucked. Been there, done that.
“Excuse me, Miss Cara?”
“Yes?” She turned to find one of the Actually-has-a-brain—this one had borderlined on Smarty Pants, but Cara had decided to give her the benefit of the doubt—standing there with two other girls behind her, all looking owlishly serious. Where most of the others had tweaked their navy sweaters, tan pants, or plaid skirts into fashion statements, this group just let their uniforms look like uniforms, as if saying “This is only temporary—why bother?”
“You can ship the sperm,” the first girl announced.
“Excuse me?”
“For the right whales. You said the populations here and off California were dying from inbreeding, but there was no way to ship whales across the country to mix things up.”
“I did,” Cara said faintly. It was part of her “how the whaling practices of the seventeen and eighteen hundreds are still screwing us up today” spiel. This was the first time it had sparked a convo about sperm, though.
“My mom raises horses, and she just has the semen shipped.” Smarty Pants—it was confirmed now—lowered her voice to a conspiratorial whisper. “Make sure you call FedEx and let them know it’s coming, though. It’s only good for a few days.”
Choking back a snort, Cara nodded. “Thanks. I’ll keep that in mind.” No way she was going into the midocean-orgy factor of whale mating behavior or the unlikelihood of getting a diver in there to collect sperm, never mind what the heck they would do with it on the other end. Nope, not going there. But she was grinning as she stood by the gangplank and said her good-byes to Stern Teacher and the rest.
“You look happy,” Cap’n Jack said from behind her as the last of the Juvies filtered through.
Cara tipped her head back and inhaled a deep lungful of air. “I am. I feel better. No. Not just better. Fabulous.” It wasn’t just that the not-flu was gone, either. Energy coursed through her, making her feel like she could take on the world.
Jack came up beside her, leaned on the gangplank railing. “Any particular reason you’re happy-dancing today?”
“It was a good day. A good group, good sightings, good energy.”
“If you say so. Seemed about average to me.”
She made a face. “Don’t poop on my party.”
“Sorry.” But he was grinning. “We still on for later?”
“Lasagna night? Wouldn’t miss it. Tell Beth I’ll be there at six, brownies in hand.” It felt good to have that connection, too. Jack and Beth made her feel like family.
“You can bring a friend if you like. There’s always plenty of food.”
She laughed. “What friend? You’re my friends.”
But he nodded down at the dock. “Looks like there’s a guy waiting on you. Thought he might have something to do with you feeling better these days.”
“A guy? No way.” She shook her head, glancing over. “There’s no—” Her mouth dried at the sight of a swimmer’s body inside painted-on denim and a tight techno-fabric jacket. Familiar blue eyes looked out from beneath familiar blond hair that was cut in an unfamiliar military brush. Her brain said it’s not him—where’s the ponytail? where’s the surfer gear and perma-tan? But in her heart she knew exactly who it was. “Oh,” she said. As in, oh, shit. As in, oh, that’s why I feel like the world has come back into focus. Damn him. Damn all of them, and the accident of birth that had thrown her in with them. “Sven,” she said, the word coming out more like a wistful breath than a name.
Jack chuckled. “Thought so. No problem if you’re a lasagna no-show—Beth’ll understand. Or like I said, feel free to bring him along. The dog can come, too. If it acts up, Pegleg will just hiss and go hide somewhere until the coast is clear.”