And then of a sudden the bird stopped. Dropped. Hurtled out of the skies with no attempt to halt its plummet, and crashed into the body that lay sprawled atop the spire, naked of clothing, naked of consciousness; a shell of flesh and bone empty of awareness or comprehension.
The body opened, accepted the bird, closed again.
I awoke abruptly, startled out of senselessness into the awareness that I lived after all. I sat up, poised to press myself upright, saw the sky spin out from under me. I was conscious of a vast gulf of air, of a blue so brilliant as to be overwhelming, and the physical awareness of nothingness. The body understood the precariousness of its place even if the mind did not.
I rolled, flopped down upon my belly, realized an arm-span away the surface beneath me fell away utterly into sky.
Stone bit into the flesh of my face. Naked, I was not comfortable. Genitals protested until I eased them with a shift of position, though I did little more than alter the angle of one hip. I breathed heavily, puffing dust from beneath my face. I tasted it. And blood.
Beyond one outstretched hand lay the edge of the world, such as what I knew. In that moment what I knew was what I felt beneath me, what I saw. Sky and sky. Nothing more.
I lifted my head with immense care. Rotated it so that my chin touched the stone. Saw the edge of the world stretching before me, its horizon distant.
Another rotation of the skull, to the left. Again, sky; but this time land as welclass="underline" stone, and soil, and the scouring of the wind.
Even now it touched me, teased at my flesh, insinuated itself beneath the hollows of my body at ankles, knees, hips; the pockets under arms. It caught my hair, blew it into my eyes, altered vision. I saw hair and stone dust and sky.
My belly cramped. There was nothing to expel, but that wasn't the intent. From deep inside, rising from genitals, something squeezed.
I wondered briefly if it was fear.
As swiftly as it seized me, the cramp released me. Surely fear would last longer?
A tremor wracked me from skull to toes, grinding flesh into stone.
I shut my eyes, let my head drop. I lay there very still, save for in– and exhalations; was relieved to manage that much.
I knew where I was. I just didn't know why.
Meteiera.
Stone Forest.
IoSkandi.
Where madmen were sent to die, while they made an acquaintanceship with magic.
Not me.
Surely not me.
Wind crept beneath my body, insistent. It shifted the stone dust, drove it into the sweat-slicked creases of my flesh. I itched.
The tremor wracked me again.
I painted a portrait: me atop the spire. I lay at the edge; to my right, the world fell away. To my left, it stretched itself like an indolent cat, the bones beneath lean flesh hard and humped as stone.
It was stone.
This cat was neither indolent, nor stone. This cat was flesh, and afraid.
I painted a portrait. I knew where I was. Comprehended the risks, and where the dangers lay. To my right, an arm-span away. To my left, much farther.
The body gathered itself, rose onto naked buttocks, moved away from the edge of the world. It stopped when it sensed stone encompassing it: an island in the center of the sky. It sat there, arms wrapped around gathered knees, and made itself small.
Wind buffeted.
I shut my eyes against it. Hair was stripped from my face. Sweat evaporated as the wind wicked it away. Buttocks and the soles of my feet clutched at the stone.
All around me was sky, and sky, and sky.
And, according to io– and Skandic alike, gods.
It occurred to me, finally, to wonder why.
Why this?
Why not simply heave me over the edge of the caldera cliff, as they had Nihko?
Why this?
And then, belatedly, wondered how.
If there was a way up, there was also a way down.
I smiled then, into the face of the wind.
The spire's crown was not so small as I had initially believed. It was, in fact, approximately the surface area of two full circles, a good thirty paces across. This afforded me the latitude to move without fearing I'd fall off the edge: I'd spent half my life-or possibly longer-learning how to stay inside a circle, and two of them was a surfeit.
Eventually I stood up against the wind. I let it curl around me, buffet me, try to drive me down or off the edge. But I understood my place now, and how to deny the wind purchase. I used weight and awareness, and comprehension. I learned what to expect of it, to respect it, to use it. By the time I paced out the crown of stone I was no longer afraid of the wind, that it might blow me off into the sky.
By the time I had inspected every edge of the spire's crown, I knew no ropes existed.
As the sun went down, I sat atop the tower of stone and made note of the valley below, the distant glow of lanternlight, of cookfires. My spire was not the only one. I counted as many as I could see, clustered throughout the valley, suspecting there might be more beyond. No two spires were alike: some were thick, knobbed with protuberances, shelves, cave-pocked. In the dying of the day I saw light sprout atop other spires; saw the arches and angles of dwellings built there; the wooden terraces clinging to shelves and cave-mouths. As the light faded, plunging the valley into darkness, I lost definition and saw only the wavery glimmers of lanterns, the dark blocky bulwarks of stone against moon and stars.
There was no lamplight for me, no lantern, no cookfire. Only what I took for myself out of the luminance of the skies. Doubtless a priest-mage would say the moon and stars were a gift of the gods.
Before he merged with them.
I shivered. The sun took warmth with it, and I had no clothes to cut the wind. I was hungry, thirsty, and confused.
If there was a way up, there was also a way down.
Wasn't there?
Eventually I lay down atop the stone.
Eventually I slept.
In my dream Del found me. She sailed to ioSkandi, walked into the Stone Forest, came to the proper spire, found a way up and climbed over the edge to rise and stand beside me. We linked hands, stood together against the wind, and knew ourselves inviolable.
The touch of her flesh against mine granted me all the peace I knew, all the impetus for survival and triumph a man might know, were he to trust a woman the way I trusted Del. Together we stood at the edge of the crown of stone, arms outstretched, and let the wind have us. Let it tip us, take us, carry us down and down, where we walked again upon the earth as we were meant to do.
I turned to her, to embrace her, to kiss her, and felt stone against my mouth.
I sat up into wind, into light, and watched the day replace night. Dew bathed the spire, and me. Sweat joined it, welling up beneath hair to bathe my skull, my face; to sheen the fragile flesh stretched over brittle bone.
No food, no water, no way down.
Why this?
Why not a clean kill, a body tossed off the cliff?
I don't believe in gods.
I don't believe in magic.
I don't believe in the power of a man to float above a wall, to move without indication of it.
Yet I had witnessed the latter.
I had witnessed magic.
I had worked magic.
I don't believe in gods.
I believe in myself.
I put my hand upon the necklet of sandtiger claws, counted them out. None was missing. Only the silver brow ring Nihko had attached, and I had reattached when it came clear to me that no matter how much I wished to disbelieve in its efficacy against magic, it made every difference.
They had cut it from the necklet the night before.
No, the night before that.
Or the night before that ?
How many days had I been here?
Two.
That I knew about.
Two, in which I was conscious.
Before that?
Before that?
I was hungry. Thirsty. Weakening.
More days than two.
How many?
Did it matter.
If I were to find a way down, it mattered.
If there were a way down.
How had I come up? How had they brought me up?
Sahdri. Sahdri, who could float above a wall, who could move across a terrace with no indication of it.
Sahdri's voice, bidding them toss the body over.