“No.”
“That’s why you came back? To reclaim Samiel?”
“Yes.”
His gaze was quite steady. “Tiger, what’s going on?”
“I don’t have time. Truly. I have to go back to Umir’s to get Del and Sula.” I looked at the buckskin again. “Are you sure?”
“I’m sure.” He bent somewhat, untied the lead-rope with his good hand. The horse was ready to go. All the botas I’d brought with me, plus several more, all filled, hung from the saddle. “I was not effective in watching your daughter.”
“Alric! It’s not your fault!” I stepped forward, took the lead-rope from his hand. “We’ll talk about this more when I’m back. In the meantime, just rest. Heal. Do you hear?”
He took a breath, let it out. “I hear.”
“Good.” I tied the lead-rope to my pommel, climbed aboard, untied the reins that had kept them out of the horse’s legs.
“There’s food in the packet,” Alric said. “Lena insisted.”
That did not surprise me. I shook my head, smiling, raised a hand briefly to Alric, turned the buckskin, and left at a swift lope.
I would not ordinarily get to know a horse—and have him get to know me—on a mad gallop across the desert. The buckskin was a willing goer, but because he was good at heart, not because I asked it of him. We did come to an agreement. I wouldn’t use my heels, and he wouldn’t add a hitch to his gait when I least expected it.
We rode through scrub trees, cacti, shrubbery, dodged rocks large enough to catch a hoof and roll. Down into the dry riverbed, clopped across slabs of stone embedded in the sand, a gallop with footing that wouldn’t harm his hooves, shod or not shod. Then it was up and out of the riverbed, onto the track that led to Julah. But I didn’t go into town. I swung the buckskin onto the northbound track and asked—asked—for more speed.
The earth beneath had been beaten to a fine dust over the years as people went northwards across the Punja or south to Julah or Haziz. It was safe now to gallop as fast as we could, moving aside when southbound wagons came to us from the north. People in wagons often raised a hand to me or called out a greeting. Some, grinning, asked me what the hurry was. But I had no time to wave or call back. I wondered if a vastly exaggerated tale would be born out of my gallop through the desert.
I eased the buckskin to a trot, then a walk, headed him off the track. I dismounted and dug a basin, threw my burnous over it and filled the hollow with the contents of two botas. The buckskin looked at me as if I were madman, offering too little water in a too-little trough. But he didn’t scorn to drink it. I drank some as well, then threw the burnous across the saddle and climbed back up on Alric’s horse. North again.
But oh, I missed the stud. He was not far from my mind. Perhaps on the way back I could spare the time to look for him, though it was unlikely he’d be where I left him, unless he was dead. I hoped he’d had the strength to make his way to the track.
The magic once again had stripped me of pain. No cramped muscles, no fire in and over my kidney. I felt fit, almost younger. I had forgotten what it was like to have magic in my bones, keeping its host whole. Yet again, it had not removed either the cavern Del had carved against my ribs, or the sandtiger scars on my face. But all others were gone, and I had ten fingers.
On. And on. Several times I stopped to water the buckskin as well as myself, let him have a breather. I had risked the stud far more than I would this one, who was Alric’s horse. Watered him more frequently, gave him breathers. And as we went on, my mind again filled with the vision of the stud, down in the dirt. I hadn’t ridden him to death, but closer to it than I liked. My hope now was he’d been found, maybe taken up by people in one of the wagons. He’d been too exhausted to cause trouble. They’d think he was docile. Then they’d learn the truth.
We left behind the scrub desert and entered the Punja. More frequent stops allowed us to continue the ride even at night. I did not stop for sleep as I had with the stud. The pain, the sapping of strength by the sun, was not a factor; that made the difference.
Alric’s horse was a good one, but I missed the stud. He was an extension of me. Stubborn, intractable, opinionated, certain he’s right about everything, prideful, domineering, and any number of other attributes. In fact, he was too much like me. Or I too much like him.
Walk. Trot. Lope. Punja sand flew up as we loped, as we trotted. Footing was soft, but also gave from under hooves. It required more effort from the horse, tired him more quickly, but I had no choice.
With the sunrise, I said, “Bascha, I’m coming.”
For her, and for Sula.
As we neared Umir’s palace, the buckskin began to falter. His gait lost its rhythm. Breathing was loud. With grim determination, I unsheathed Samiel, used the flat of the blade, not the edge, and slapped it down on the buckskin rump. Three times. It startled the horse into greater speed again, much as I hated to demand it. Sweat foamed, ran down his body, darkened yellow-white hair into wet sheets. Black tail lashed, black mane flopped against his neck.
“Almost,” I told him.
I don’t know if he heard me. I don’t know if he cared. I was merely the demon upon his back.
White walls heaved out of glittering sand, blinding bright beneath the sun. So close now.
I used Samiel on the buckskin again. Heartlessly, I said, “You can rest when we’re there,” and hated myself for it.
Through gates into courtyard. Alric’s horse skittered across stones, too tired to fight for footing. I thought he might go down, but he stayed upright. I threw myself off, led him to the fountain. Could not, much as I wished to, allow him to drink and drink and drink. He was too weary to protest. Otherwise I’d never have won. Brief drinks only. Flesh quivered, muscles trembled. He was soaked with sweat.
I was here in the time allotted me. But Umir could wait while I tended the horse.
At last the bellows of the buckskin’s breathing eased. I let him drink more. And as he drank, I plunged my head beneath the surface, shook water out of my hair, scooped up handfuls for me to drink. The two remaining full botas were on the saddle; easier just to scoop up what was in the fountain.
I led Alric’s horse to a tree, one weighted with rich yellow blossoms. I tied him there, patted a shoulder, thanked him for his spirit and will. Then at last I turned to enter Umir’s palace, and I found a man upon the steps.
I knew him. The kid from Julah, who’d picked on Neesha. Khalid, whom I had defeated so badly before all the watchful eyes in Julah.
More of the puzzle pieces fell into place. It was Khalid’s doing, that Sula was here.
I paused, comfortable with the weight of Samiel slantwise across my back. “All this, because you lost? Because I made you angry?”
Khalid smiled. “Don’t discount the bounty. I was glad to do it, yes, but more pleased to be paid for it.”
He did not know what I was now. What I could do. To him, I was just a man. An aging sword-dancer with fading skills. Nor did he know what Samiel was. A named blade, blooding-blade; called here, jivatma.
I was dusty, sweaty, wet. But underneath it all, I was not tired to the bone. I wasn’t younger. I wasn’t better. I was me. But I was also no longer, as Wahzir had named it, an empty man.
“Let’s go,” I said. “I have business in this house.”
Khalid stared at me. “Do you really have magic now? Can you really open this book?”
I stared back at him. “Come and see.”