His hands find the sides of my head, and he pulls me back so that I meet his gaze. “I’ll never complain about being loved too fiercely, especially by someone as amazing as you. I’m here, baby. Whatever you need, I’m right here.”
Then, he leans down and kisses me. When he pulls away, he looks down at me and smiles before sliding his hand down and resting it on my belly. I’m only two months along. We haven’t told anyone yet, and he’s chomping at the bit to announce it to everyone.
“I did tell Blake and Grams today when I visited them this morning,” I admit.
Connor smiles softly. “Grams would have been stoked.” Meryl passed away two months after our daughter was born. We named her Eloise, Gram’s middle name, but we call her Elle. Gram’s cried like a baby when she held her for the first time. I think she knew Connor had finally found some peace and happiness in his life. That’s all Grams ever wanted for him.
“Sometimes I think I did die, that day in the ambulance, and all of this . . . is heaven,” Connor adds.
I smile as I place my hand over his where it rests on my belly. “Heaven is your psychotic wife clinging to you like a leech because she’s terrified of losing you?”
He chuckles before giving me a chaste kiss. “No,” he says, thoughtfully. “Heaven is having the love of the best person I know,” he answers. “It’s being loved so deeply I feel it in my bones. Heaven is a woman that is way out of my league choosing me to spend her life with. Not only choosing me but gifting me with children. You are heaven Demi. You’re my heaven.”
“Wow,” someone says, jerking us from an incredibly romantic moment. No surprise . . . it’s Lexi.
“You’re so getting laid tonight with lines like that Connor,” she jests as she fans herself.
I roll my eyes as Connor chuckles.
“Baby Connor is getting angry and crying for Daddy,” Lexi tells us. Lexi calls Elle, Baby Connor because the child looks as if he spit her right out of his mouth. The first time Lexi held her she said we needed a maternity test to prove I’m her mother because she looks nothing like me. Connor’s face lights up with a smile. Here he is my big, burly, mechanic man, dressed in a white button-up shirt with the sleeves rolled up exposing his tattoos, smiling like the Cheshire Cat. It’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen.
“Can’t keep our girl waiting,” he beams his beautiful grin at me.
“Daddy’s girl,” I sigh. He takes my hand and pulls me with him as we follow Lexi out.
I let out a long breath and shed some of the worries I’ve been carrying.
Right now, he’s here.
I’m here.
We’re happy.
That’s all that matters.
First and foremost, thank you to my readers. You guys are amazing, and you have no idea how much your support, kind words, reviews, and sharing mean to me. There was a time not very long ago that I was begging people to read my work. It still humbles me every time one of you post on my page or send me an email. Thank you so much for everything.
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And to the bloggers. Yes, you lovely, lovely bloggers. What would we authors do without you? People think writing the book is the hard part. Nope. Getting people to buy it is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Thank you for reading, promoting, and sharing my work. I am forever grateful.
Gracey, a.k.a, middle spawn. Little girl, you amaze me every day. I hope by sharing some of what we went through together it might help another family take a closer look at their own child and maybe catch the signs of autism early. It’s been a long road, and you’re only five right now, but we’ve got this. I will fight with you and for you every step of the way, because you, countless times, have shown me no one can set limitations on you. Autism does not define you in any way. Sometimes, I wish I could see the world through your eyes. Sometimes, you look so in awe of something, and I just want to know what you see or how you see it. I love you a million times over, Popeye. Thank you for teaching me what real determination is.
To my eldest spawn and youngest spawn, Jackson and Brey. Dudes. You’re awesome, and I’m so grateful for your love and understanding. I know it’s hard when Mommy is working, and you want to play, but you guys are champs and let me get it done. I love you both to the moon and back.
B N Toler lives in Virginia with her three rowdy children. She enjoys warm weather, beaches, reading, and music.
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The Healer Series
Healer
Hybrid
Savage
The Holly Springs Series
The Suit
The Anchor
Stand Alones
Wrecking Ball
Where One Goes
Table of Contents
Dedication
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Acknowledgements
About the Author
Connect Online
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