When she pulled back from me that time, I put my hands on her hips; when I looked at her in question and saw her give me a small nod that it was okay, I slowly eased them upwards so that I could cup her breasts. That was when she told me "We decided that I'd go ahead and be with you first – mostly so that I don't get any more nervous by having to wait while you're with Lis."
I smiled, and gave her a brief kiss before answering "That's fine, Gina. I know this is your first time, and I'm going to make it as easy for you as I can – and as nice as we can make it, okay?"
She managed to smile back at me as she nodded her head in understanding.
When I kissed her again, she readily returned it; as I continued exchanging kisses with her, she settled down more and more as I demonstrated that I wasn't going to do anything to make her uncomfortable – even though I was slowly including more and more of her body in my caresses. With my attention completely focused on Gina, I didn't notice when Elisse left us. It was only when Gina finally told me "If you want to go now, I'll be all right" that I realized she'd left the two of us alone.
Getting up off my lap, Gina took my hand after I was standing next to her and led the way back to their bedroom. Once there, she released my hand before telling me "If you want, I'm okay with you undressing me."
I gave her a gentle smile before answering "I'd like that."
Moving behind her, I took a moment to ease her hair to the side so that I could place a soft kiss at the juncture of her neck and shoulder; in return, she turned her head and graced me with a pleased smile. Slowly and patiently, I undid the fasteners that held the back of her dress closed until I'd gotten the last one just above the curve of her ass. Easing the edges of the material apart, I softly kissed my way up her back before slipping her dress off her shoulders. I helped as she pulled her arms out of it, and steadied her as she stepped clear of it. After carefully setting it aside, I put my hands on her shoulders, caressing them and her upper arms for a bit before sliding my hands around to her back. When I'd unfastened her bra, I slipped the straps off her shoulders and down her arms a little way before easing my hands under the cups so that I could hold her ample bust in my hands.
After giving her kiss on the shoulder, I put my mouth next to her ear and softly told her "I think you've got such lovely breasts. Not because of how big they are, but for how nicely they're shaped, and how firm and smooth. I actually envy Elisse, that she's the one you share them with."
After I'd gently caressed Gina's breasts for a little bit, she helped me get her bra the rest of the way off so that I could set it with her dress.
I wanted Gina to know that I appreciated all of her beauty, so I spent a little time letting my hands wander across more of her body before eventually slipping the ends of my fingers under the waistband of the brief and delicate panties that she had on. Kneeling as I did so, I carefully worked them past her hips, and then down her legs; she put a hand on my shoulder to steady herself as she stepped out of them.
After I'd set them aside, I leaned forward and applied a feather-light kiss to each of the delightful globes of her ass; that done, I slowly stood up again, lightly drawing my fingertips up the smooth flesh of her stocking-less legs until I could rest my hands on her hips. It took only the slightest pressure to get her to turn around and face me. When she did, I saw that the way I'd gone about undressing her had accomplished what I wanted it to: not only relax and reassure her, but begin to arouse her, too.
Looking down at her (the top of her head only came to my chin), I asked "Did you want to do me? Or would you prefer I take care of it?"
"I… I think it'd be better if you did it", she answered.
I just nodded my acceptance of what she said, and reached for the top button on my shirt. When I did, she gave a little start before quickly turning around and moving to the side of the bed. After she surprised me by setting the bedside lamp to its lowest setting, I realized that watching me undress wasn't something that she'd be interested in. With that in mind, I quickly got myself undressed as she went about getting the bed covers turned down. A few moments later, we were next to each other on the bed.
After a minute or so had passed without Gina saying or doing anything, I rolled onto my side before propping myself up on my elbow and putting my hand on her belly. When she looked up at me, I could see that she was once again apprehensive about what was going to happen – and ashamed of it. I quietly told her "It's okay, Gina. I know this isn't the way you'd choose to start a family, and probably the last thing you want to do."
I saw her eyes tear up before she told me "I'm sorry, Jim. I didn't think this was going to be easy, but I never thought that it was going to be this hard, either! I mean, you know that I wasn't anything like this when it was you and me and Elisse, before…"
"No, you weren't. But before, we were just… practicing, I guess you could say. We never actually went this far with it. Believe me, I really do know how different it is, now that it's really supposed to happen – things that I never thought I'd have a problem with… well, now they're not so easy."
"What do you mean?"
"Right up until we came in here, I really didn't understand how different it would make things, you and Elisse being lesbians. I mean, all I could ever think of you as was women; sure I 'knew' you were lesbians, but it never really hit me until a little bit ago how much difference there was between the 'girls too' of being bisexual, and the 'girls only' of being lesbian. I'm ashamed to admit this, but I kept thinking that there wasn't really all that much difference – that even a lesbian would respond at least a little bit to a guy. I really didn't comprehend that a female could be completely and totally oriented toward other women, and not find anything appealing about men. What opened my eyes was how you reacted just now, when I asked if you wanted to undress ME. I was so arrogant that I actually thought that you might like it – at least a little bit. It wasn't until you turned away from me that I finally knew I was wrong… and how, and why. Now that I do know, I'm ashamed of myself. I expect that I must have come across as some kind of arrogant self-satisfied jerk to the two of you – and I'm sorry as I can be for that. If I could, I'd go back and undo it in a heartbeat. But I can't undo it; all I can do is apologize, and hope you and Elisse can forgive me some day."
Gina considered that in silence for quite some time before telling me "No, you never came across as any kind of a jerk. Lis and I were both a little surprised at how comfortable and confident you were, but we never thought you were arrogant or self-satisfied."
Still unhappy with myself, I stayed quiet until a minute later, when Gina asked "Are… are you telling me that you… that you can't, or don't want to, go through with this?", her concern clear in her voice.
"No, I'm definitely not saying that", I told her. "I said that I was willing to help you, and I still am, because I really do like and care about both of you. What I am telling you is that I'm not going to be able to carry as much of this as I probably made you believe I would. Now, you and me, and Elisse and me… we're going to have to help each other – a lot more than I thought we would. I still wouldn't willingly do anything to hurt or rush either of you, and I'll still do anything I can to help make this as easy and agreeable for both of you as I possibly can. But now I'm going to need more direction from both of you on how I can and should do that – at least, about this final step."
Gina was visibly relieved to hear that I wasn't trying to back out on our agreement, and that I was still committed to making the experience as pleasant for them as I could. But I could also see that my admission that I needed more help from them had put her somewhat off-balance. I tried to steady her again by telling her "I'm not saying that I need you and Elisse to tell me every little thing; both of you, and I, know that I've already shown you that I can bring you pleasure. What I need from you is help getting from that to doing what's necessary to help you start your family."