"What do we have to do?"
"You don't have to do anything", I said. "What I hope you'll do is correct me when – not 'if', I think – I start doing something wrong, and giving me more guidance about what you'd like me to do, and letting me know how I can make things better for you. Gina, I know I can't make this easy for either of you; but what I'd like to try to do is minimize how hard it is. Some of that I can do just by keeping my promises not to rush either of you, and so on. But the only way for me to do the rest of it is if you and Lis are able and willing to help me."
She looked up at me in silence for several seconds before asking "You really do want to try and make this easier for us, don't you?"
"If I can, yeah. Like I said, I can't do it by myself, though. If you or Elisse can't or don't want to help me, then I'll still try to help you start a family – but I don't think that any of us would be happy with how we got there when we were done, even though we got the results you wanted."
I waited patiently as she thought about what I'd said. I felt like a complete jackass for all the mistakes that I'd made up to that point, but I was determined that MY screw-ups would hurt them as little as possible; I really had come to like both of them.
I wasn't surprised when a few minutes went by before Gina's attention returned to me. Frankly, I half-expected that the first things she'd say to me would be to tell me what a jerk I was – and I was fully prepared to accept whatever she had to say about me (and whatever names she wanted to call me) as being what I deserved, if it meant that she and Elisse would be able to help me get my act together for them.
Instead, what Gina had to say to me was "I know that it couldn't have been easy for you to admit all that, Jim, and I can appreciate how tough it must have been to come out and tell it to me. But you did it anyway, and I'm grateful. I've been thinking about what kind of person you've shown me you are… everything that you've said and done to try and help me and Elisse get comfortable with you, and show us that we didn't have to be afraid or embarrassed about being with each other, or with you. From what you said to me, and how you said it… it told me how much you regret the mistakes you made, and how serious and sincere you are about trying to do right by us."
I nodded my head, and she went on "I've also thought about me, and Lis, and how we've been with you, too. We haven't lied to you, or deceived you; but I think maybe we could have been a little more open and honest. As we got closer and closer to tonight, I've been having more and more second thoughts about actually being with you, for example, even though I haven't said anything – either to you OR Elisse. But tonight, after we got in here, and you asked me if I wanted to undress you… I had to face the fact that the last thing I wanted in my life is to have a man inside me. If you hadn't started talking to me, and telling me what was going on with you, there's a pretty damn good chance that I'd have told you that I just couldn't do it – have sex with you, I mean. But you did start talking to me, and telling me what was going on with you, and all that. Listening to you has gotten me to think about what was going on with me, and made me think about what I wanted, and why, and all that. I've realized how much I love Elisse, and how much I want to have and raise a family with her. Because those things are so much bigger inside me than my dislike at the idea of having sex with a man, I've found that I can do this with you. I'm not going to bullshit you about it, though – the chances of me enjoying it are probably about the same as you enjoying sex with another guy. But what I know about you tells me that it isn't going to be as bad as it could have been. I don't doubt that you're going to be able to make parts of it actually pleasant for me; after hearing what you said, I even believe that you're going to try to make the rest of it as easy for me as you can… and I can live with that, if it means a family for me and Elisse."
I expressed my understanding and acceptance, and she finished by telling me "I'm not under any illusions that just laying there will work – I expect that would just make it take longer for you to finish. So I'll do what I have to to please you if only so that it's over as soon as possible. But this is not the time and place to be asking someone to help you live out whatever fantasies you may have, okay?"
"Of course not, Gina", I assured her.
"It might be different when you're with Lis, since she was married and has been with a man before; for me, you don't have to try to make me have an orgasm, like you would with another woman – I think you know that just isn't going to happen. The one and only thing you can do to make this as agreeable for me as you can is to let yourself climax as quickly as you could. I'll be glad to snuggle with you afterwards, if you like, if we can get that part of it over with as soon as possible."
"I told you and Lis that I wouldn't try to draw things out, and I won't – on that you have my promise", I assured her. "In return, I'll trust that you'll remember that each time I have sex, it takes longer before I can finish the next time."
"I haven't forgotten", she told me. "I'm not looking forward to it, but I remember."
After all of that, it shouldn't come as a surprise that neither of us was particularly "in the mood"… least of all Gina, of course. But the whole point of my being there was to try and help them start a family. And to do that, I had to try and impregnate both of them – the old-fashioned way, as Gina herself had expressed it. I suppose I could have simply tried to wait until Gina was in a little better frame of mind, but that seemed like it would be wasting their time, as well as mine. I really did want to try and bring them whatever pleasure I could (outside of the act itself, of course), so that they would be reasonably happy with the way things had gone when we were done. That pretty much meant that it was up to me to try and start edging Gina out of the mood she was (understandably) in then, so that I could help her find at least some pleasure while the two of us were together.
After a little time had gone by, I looked into Gina's eyes and told her "I really do like you, you know. Even more than I did before, after spending all the time together that we have. I've gotten to know you more, and I like the person you are, on the inside. What you and Elisse do to and with each other… that doesn't matter to me, except to tell me that you really do care for, and love, each other. The first time I came into your place for lunch, the first thing I noticed was how pretty and sexy both of you are; I mean, that's just how us guys are. But I could also see that there was some kind of bond between you, too; I'm not someone that can ignore something like that just because of how attractive I thought you were, or in the hope of getting intimate with one of you. Then, as I kept coming back, I grew to understand just how deep that bond between you was – and that made me respect you even more. Once I found out you were a lesbian couple, I gave up any thoughts of intimacy with either of you; but that didn't mean that I had to stop appreciating how you looked. You know that the first thing most people notice about you is your breasts – I'm sure you know that folks just can't help it. But it wasn't their size that pleased me as it was their shape – I kind of figured out what they were like from some of the blouses and things you wore, and it was that they were so nicely rounded that I liked, not that they're as large as they are. I could also tell that they were a lot firmer than most that size; they didn't sway around like a couple of balloons full of water like a lot of large breasts do. And it wasn't just your breasts that pleased me, either. You have such a lovely face – those beautiful blue eyes, soft lips, and clear complexion. The way you wear your hair… I know you keep it short because of working around food and all that, but it's still styled very nicely, and compliments your face so well. I can see a resemblance to Meg Ryan, and I'll hope you'll take that as the compliment as it's meant to be."