While she slept.
While her shotgun was out of reach.
And he would not lose control this time. He would kiss her once, just to prove to himself that he could. He wouldn’t jump all over her, or get lost in that luscious body that could drive a man to insanity.
Ben felt himself get hard just remembering the feel of her beneath him.
“I’m turning in for the night, Miss Sands. I’m not used to getting up at four in the morning and then walking half the day over half the mountains in the state. Good night.”
He crawled into the sleeping bag Michael had packed him and zipped it up to his neck, hiding the evidence of his lustful thoughts.
The soft glow of the battery lantern cast Emma in a halo of deceptive warmth. Shadows danced beside her on the tarp, which was beginning to sag with the weight of wet snow. The forest had grown eerily quiet, and Ben imagined their little shelter looked like a cocoon of peace in these woods his son called home.
Through half-closed eyes, he watched the woman who had raised Michael. She sat motionless as she contemplated the snowflakes pooling at the entrance of their temporary lodge. Emma Sands also called this place home. She was as comfortable here in a crude shelter in the middle of a snowstorm as a squirrel was nestled in a tree of leaves and downy fur. This beautiful woman, with long, wavy blond hair and a face angels would envy, was the most remarkable woman Ben had ever known.
She held strong convictions toward many things. If she found men driving spikes into trees, she’d try to stop it. If she found men beating up another man, she would step in with her shotgun blazing. When she loved a boy like a son, she would do anything to protect him. And if she gave herself to a man, she would give herself fully.
Would she have let him make love to her today if he hadn’t stopped?
Maybe. But why? Because of her nephew? Because Ben held the power to take the boy away from her?
He would bet his business that Emma hadn’t been thinking of Michael when she’d exploded with a passion so strong Ben had been blinded to everything else, too.
It seemed an eternity before the cause of his lust finally crawled into her sleeping bag two feet away and turned out the lantern. Then she set her shotgun between them, rolled over, and rested one hand on the stock—not at all worried about sharing a tent with him.
Which was the first mistake he had seen Emma Sands make.
There was a very sensuous woman behind the prickly manner she showed the world. All she had to do was give a little sigh, and the throbbing ache of his groin went from fully aroused to solid stone.
It amazed Ben how erotic waiting could be. And how horny the sound of a carefully lowered sleeping bag zipper could make him. And how anticipation had turned into a whole new form of foreplay.
He had to remember he was on a mission—that what he accomplished here could mean the difference between having his son or alienating him forever.
She was an abandoned sleeper, and it made him imagine her being abandoned in other ways. Carefully, knowing the longer he kept her sleeping the more manageable she’d be, he brought her hands together and slowly lifted them over her head. She stirred, but merely mumbled in her sleep and tried to turn over.
Ben moved closer as he pinned her hands over her head and eased his leg over her thighs. She arched against him. He thought she was awake and trying to throw him off, but when he moved more fully on top of her, she mewled deep in her throat.
This isn’t smart, Sinclair.
Ben felt a moment’s hesitation as he softly touched his lips to her cheek. He’d never forced a woman in his life, but his actions were drawing close to that invisible line. What he was doing was dirty pool. It was also erotic as hell, a challenge to his ego, and a means to an end.
Emma came awake with a start just as his lips settled over her mouth.
“Easy, Em. It’s me, Ben.”
“Get … off.”
It was a weak command at best, lacking conviction because she was confused. Ben brushed the hair from her face even as he tightened his grip on her hands. “I want to show you that I’m not an animal, Em. Let me make my mistakes up to you. Come on, pretty lady. Kiss me back.”
With no light to see her face, all he could rely on was what her body told him. And when she sighed and relaxed her muscles, he knew he was nearly home free.
“This isn’t a good idea. It wasn’t smart earlier today, and it still isn’t.”
“We’re two mature adults—and I would very much like to show you how civilized I really am. Just a kiss, and then we’ll stop.” He let go of one of her hands, testing his luck.
That was a mistake.
Her free hand connected with the side of his head with enough force that he actually saw stars. Then she gave him an impressively strong shove, knocking him over and scrambling from the prison of her sleeping bag.
She snapped a light on, and Ben found himself staring down the barrel of her shotgun.
“Get dressed, Mr. Sinclair. We’re heading home.”
Ben squinted at his watch. “It’s not even five in the morning!”
“Which will put us there in time for me to take out my sports. Move.”
She lowered her shotgun to find her boots, and Ben jumped her, covering her mouth with his hand as he pinned her down.
Her eyes widened just before he turned out the lantern—although her shock might have had something to do with the Smith & Wesson revolver in his hand.
“Sshhh. Someone’s out there.”
She quieted her breathing to listen. A truck engine died, and several voices carried down the hill to their shelter.
Emma started to struggle. “That’s the loggers! I’ve got to warn them about the spikes.”
“You can’t know that. We can barely hear them, much less tell who they are.”
She turned the light back on and frantically started making a tangle of her sleeping bag. “Ohmigod. I don’t want them to find me here like this. Someone will surely tell Galen—” She snapped her mouth shut as Ben set the revolver on his sleeping bag. “Where did you get that?”
“I brought it with me.” He grinned at her astonishment. “Don’t look so shocked. I may be a city sport to you, but I’m not a defenseless one.”
“You need a permit to carry a gun.”
“I have one.”
Her eyes narrowed. “Where was it when Durham was beating you senseless?”
“In its holster, tucked deep into the back of my belt.”
“Why didn’t you use it?”
It was Ben’s turn to be astonished. “I sure as hell wasn’t going to escalate things by drawing a weapon.”
At the sound of a large diesel engine starting, she once again scrambled for her clothes.
Ben decided he’d better get dressed as well. “For the wilderness, it sure is damn busy around here.”
“You stay and pack up camp while I go tell them about the spikes.”
“I’ll come with you.”
“No! I mean, no thank you, that’s okay.”
Ben narrowed his eyes at her. “You aren’t marrying Galen Simms, Emma.”
“What?”
“Michael’s worried you’re going to marry Simms so he’ll be free to go away with me. You’re notmarrying the man.”
“You’ve got no right to tell me what I can and can’t do.”
Ben dropped his gaze to the sleeping bags and then back up to her. “Maybe not”—he moved his nose to within an inch from hers—“yet.”
She reached up and grabbed the pole holding the tarp and gave it a yank, pulling the canvas and heavy snow down on his head while she scooted out the open end. By the time Ben was able to toss the entrapping canvas aside, all he could see of Emma were puffs of steam coming out of her nostrils as she disappeared up the hill to the loggers.
Ben looked around in the dim light of the slow-breaking dawn, expecting to see scorched earth in all directions from their shelter. The heat from that woman should have melted the snow all the way to Canada.
“It’s not going to work, Mikey.”
“What won’t work?”
Emma stopped packing her gear, walked around her bed to her nephew, and touched his arm. “I know this isn’t easy for you, having your father suddenly show up out of the blue. And I also know you’ve always dreamed of this day. But he’s the proverbial rolling stone, Mikey, who never gathers moss.”
He just looked at her. Since she and Ben had returned this morning, the boy had been watching her like a hawk, silently but expectantly. Emma knew he was concocting something in that overintelligent brain of his, and was waiting to see what had come of his manipulations so far.
“Mikey. It’s very possible Benjamin Sinclair really didn’t know Kelly was pregnant. And I truly believe he didn’t have anything to do with your grandfather’s death. He wouldn’t be here now if I thought he did. But no matter how wonderful you might think he is, that doesn’t change whathe is.”
“And just what is he?”
“A rolling stone,” she repeated, continuing to pack her gear. “Think about it. The man’s thirty-four years old, he’s not married and never has been. No children other than you—that we knowof—and no commitments.”
“He’s been running Tidewater International for the last five months, Nem.”
“Well, bully for him. But he doesn’t even own a house, Mikey. He lives with his two bachelor brothers and grandfather.”
“Abram Sinclair died five months ago,” Michael told her, causing Emma to stop packing and look up again. “And his older brother, Sam Sinclair, just got married, and he’s thirty-six.” He grinned. “Ben will settle down when he finds the right woman.”
Emma gave him a good scowl. “How do you know all this?”
“It was in all the New York papers last spring, when Abram Sinclair died. My great-grandfather left his entire estate, including his shares in Tidewater International, to some woman he met on the Maine coast just six weeks before he died. She’s the woman Sam Sinclair married.”
Emma snorted. “That’s one way to get back your inheritance. Which only proves that just because biology makes Benjamin Sinclair your father, that doesn’t mean we can trust him.”
“So what are you getting at, Nem?”
Emma threw her pack on the bed and grabbed her nephew by the arms. “You’re not the only one who knows how to use the internet around here. I’ve read a few articles about the Sinclair men myself.” She sighed. “I just don’t want you concocting any dreams about the three of us, Mikey. There is our relationship, and there will be one between you and your dad, but there will never be one between the three of us. Understand?”
“You don’t like him? Not even a little bit?”
“That’s not the issue here. It doesn’t matter if I like him or not.”
Giving up any hope of making him understand, she turned and picked up her gear, then turned back to him. “You sent him after me on purpose, Mikey, hoping something would … evolve between us.” She poked him in the shoulder. “It’s not going to happen, little man.”
What she got for that declaration was a kiss on her forehead. “If anything needs to happen around here, it needs to happen to you. I love you, Nem. I want to see you happy.”
“D-don’t do this to me, Mikey,” she whispered. “Don’t make me cry. I’ve got sports to take out.” She reached up and touched his cheek. “Get to know your dad, Michael. But leave me out of it. Please.”
Before he could respond, she pulled free and ran out the door.