After a dozen songs, Kiki announces that she will sing one more and then be done. Moans go through the crowd. She shakes her finger in the air, non non non, and tells everyone not to be sad. Then, coming to the lip of the stage, she looks pointedly in Man’s direction and says in French, “This is a song for the great Man Ray, who is here with us tonight and gave me many years of happiness.” And she smiles sweetly while everyone claps and turns to look at him, raising their glasses to the lover of Kiki, the lover of Montparnasse.
Lee thinks she adores Kiki for a minute then. She looks so sweet, standing in the bright light on the platform, and Lee is glad Kiki found happiness with Man. Perhaps Lee will be able to as well, real happiness that lasts for years and years. It pleases her to hear Kiki praise him, pleases her more to see all the people in the bar toast him while he sits there looking neither embarrassed nor self-congratulatory. He has a small smile on his face and relaxes in his seat as if this scene is nothing out of the ordinary. And perhaps it isn’t; maybe this happened to him all the time when he was with Kiki.
Kiki begins to sing again. At first it seems fine—cats in the moonlight or something along those lines. As the song continues, though, Lee sees Man stiffen and cross his arms and look over at her worriedly. Lee smiles at him to show she is having a fine time. Man gets up and walks over to the bar, where he orders a drink and stands smoking and staring at the stage.
“One for you Two for you There is only me and you,” Kiki sings, and, leaning forward, begins to undo the buttons on her blouse. There are many buttons, and some ribbons as well, but soon enough she has it open to her midriff. Looking directly at Man where he stands next to the bar, she reaches into her shirt and pulls out one of her breasts, letting it swing exposed like an udder as onlookers rap on their tables with their knuckles and cheer. She does the same with her other breast and then squeezes them with both hands, singing, “Not for you Not for you Not since you went away.”
The reality of Kiki is much worse than Man’s photos of her. She is so much more, well, real, and Lee realizes that this has been a mistake. She can’t look at Man. She doesn’t want to see his expression. Instead, she shifts around and looks at Jean, who is not paying attention to the stage anymore and is instead jotting something down in a small notebook. He glances at Lee and says, “Shameful,” dismissing the half-nude Kiki with a shake of his head.
Lee laughs. It is nice to see a man undistracted by a pair of exposed breasts. She pulls her chair closer to him.
“Everyone seems quite taken with her,” Lee says. People are whooping and cheering, leaning forward in their chairs and rapping their knuckles on their tables even louder than before.
“Pigs. Are you here with him?” Jean gestures toward Man.
“Yes.”
Jean rolls his eyes. “I want you to come see my studio, where I am making my films.”
“Now?”
Kiki is still singing and gyrating onstage, but Lee does her best not to look at her.
“No, during the day, when the light is good. Perhaps tomorrow?” Jean says. “Would he allow it?”
“Man?” Lee straightens in her chair. “Of course—I mean, I don’t ask him what I can and cannot do.”
Jean leans forward and whispers, “He doesn’t like me.”
“He was pleasant enough when he said hello to you.”
“He thinks I am someone worth knowing. Which I am.”
While they’ve been talking, Kiki’s act has ended. Demurely, she does up her blouse and then concludes as she began, stepping slowly and exaggeratedly from the stage. Lee expects her to walk over to Man, and she steels herself for this, but instead Kiki starts wending her way through the crowd, coming closer and closer until she is standing right in front of Lee. Up close her makeup is lurid, meant for the stage and not for such close proximity.
“I know who you are,” Kiki says in stilted English, and a small piece of spittle shoots out of her mouth and lands on Lee’s cheek. Lee flinches, reaches up, and wipes it away. The people around them murmur and shift in their chairs.
“Who?” Lee says, and stands up. She is a good six inches taller than Kiki, so Kiki has to tip back her head to keep looking at her.
Man starts moving toward them, holding out his arm as if he is trying to hail a cab.
“Putain!” Kiki shouts, loud enough that dozens of people look over. Man is still halfway across the room. “You are Man’s putain. Tu es fille d’un gay et d’une pute. Je te pisse en zig-zags à la raie de cul!” She reaches up and slaps Lee across the face and is just going for a second slap when Man grabs her hand and stops her. Lee can feel heat throbbing in her cheek.
The café is quiet. Man holds the writhing Kiki and pins her arms to her sides. Jean has stood so quickly he has knocked over his chair. He comes over to Lee, dipping a napkin in a water glass. He holds the napkin to her face. Kiki starts shouting again, her eyes narrowed, her mouth a red circle of fury. “Don’t come here, don’t ever come here, you bitch, you whore, you ugly little cunt.”
Lee’s body goes cold. She cannot believe how quickly Kiki has gone from her stage persona to uncontrolled anger. It is as if her rage is another kind of performance, and perhaps it is: Lee feels every eye in the café trained on their table. She has never been slapped before. She wants Man to do something, to comfort her, to do absolutely anything besides what he is doing, which is holding Kiki and whispering to her to calm down. To someone who didn’t know what was going on it would look as though they are lovers wrapped in an embrace.
“You shouldn’t stay here,” Jean says. Without thinking much about it, Lee lets him push her through the café. Lee turns and exchanges a last look with Man, who drops his arms from around Kiki and starts to move toward her. But Lee just keeps going, letting Jean steer her toward the front door, which has a small bell over it that tinkles cheerily as they go out into the streets, still crowded with people, the night air cool on Lee’s hot face. Together they walk up Boulevard du Montparnasse and turn left on Boulevard Saint-Michel, where they head into the Jardin Marco Polo.
It is late, and unlike the sidewalks, the gravel path they walk along in the park is practically deserted.
“How is your face?” Jean asks.
“It hurts.”
“You should put meat on it. A steak.”
“A steak?” Lee thinks maybe her translation of his French is incorrect.
“Yes. It will take the bruise away.” He makes the shape of a slab of meat with his hands and then pretends to press it against his cheek.
She can feel the gravel through the bottoms of her shoes, crunching with every step. Above them, elms rustle in the breeze.
“Ah, here is what I wanted to show you,” Jean says, and points to the large fountain at the edge of the formal gardens. The base of the fountain has bronze horses leaping out of the splashing water, their bodies turned to fish tails and their eyes rolling in fear. At the top, four women hold a globe aloft and stare up at the sky.