He’d called Jiff earlier, pleading for another illicit rendezvous tomorrow but had had to leave a message. When Sute returned from dinner, this reply awaited on his machine:
“J.G., I’se sure ya recognize my voice. Sorry to have to tell ya this but…I just cain’t do it no more. What I mean’s I ain’t gonna do no more business with ya. It’s too much fer me, ya know? I make easier money other places. Sorry, but that’s it.”
That’s it, Sute had been repeating in his mind for hours now.
“That’s it for my life…”
His town house shook with the next eruption of thunder.
He sobbed to himself. “This is what…all love comes to.”
The room’s darkness made him feel even more worthless. Everything was for nothing. The lightning turned his tears into a sad liquid glimmer.
Sute knew he was not a strong man. He wondered how long he’d last, sitting here like this, before he killed himself. IV
“You dirty dog! Dirty, dirty dog!” A pair of wee voices impossibly disappeared around the corner. Just voices, with no children to go with them.
Giggles faded to nothingness, along with a single feisty yap, like the bark of a dog.
Mercy. It’s bad tonight.
Mrs. Butler walked slowly along the main stair hall, then went down to make a last-minute check of the kitchen. She’d always known it was the house, and she was sure her son and daughter knew, too. The acknowledgment always passed across their eyes with nary a word. The only thing she’d ever said about it to Lottie and Jiff was: “It’s just the past kind’a seepin’ through. Don’t happen much, just ever now’n then. Just you two always remember…what ya cain’t see cain’t hurt ya…”
The inn was full up; tourist season here ran nine or ten months sometimes. It was a good life. And folks rarely stayed long enough to ever notice anything funny. A couple now and then, sure—some people got it worse than others (and Mrs. Butler could never imagine why) but generally things ran well.
Mr. Collier, of course, had it bad. She could tell by his eyes. He’d heard the dog, and the girls. Perhaps she should’ve been more convincing when answering his queries about the building’s past. If I weren’t so all-fired hot for the man, maybe I’d be a better host! She often believed that something in the house made her so pent up for men, even at her age.
The kitchen was fine, everything prepped for the morning’s light breakfast. The overhead lights wavered through the next peal of thunder. Danged storm! They rarely lost power here, but when they did, her guests were none too happy. Please stay on, dang ya!
She didn’t want to have to suffer though complaints tomorrow and—her worst concern:
This ain’t the night to lose the lights in THIS house…
She left the kitchen and went back to the family wing. Lottie’d already gone to bed. Poor girl was all out’a sorts today. Mrs. Butler knew it was just the house going through one of its cycles. When she peeked into Lottie’s room, she saw her daughter tossing fitfully, bedsheets twisted into a snake that coursed her naked body. More bad dreams, Mrs. Butler realized. Lottie, though asleep, was pawing desperately at her sex.
When she peeked into Jiff’s room, she wasn’t surprised to find the bed empty. Honestly, what IS that boy into? She’d heard some things, but like many mothers, she ignored the rumors. He’s a grown man! she kept telling herself. Drinking way too much, though, but…he always did when the house was like this.
Mrs. Butler felt a hundred when she trudged into her own room. She stripped and slipped into a sheer nightgown. Jesus Lord, I am SO tired…She sat on the bed, was about to switch off the lamp, but faltered. She didn’t want to be in the dark…
Last night she’d had the most awful dream, and it was one she’d had before. She’d dreamed that she was a lissome black woman being raped one by one by a line of strong white men with big grins but eyes that looked dead. When they each had a turn, they took another turn.
Then another.
By the time they were finished, she lay ravaged, bleeding inside and out, organs ruptured. The hot room reeked so horribly of urine it could’ve been a sauna where piss had been poured over the hot stones instead of water.
Mrs. Butler knew what room it was…
In the dream, she’d died, yet her last breath had escaped with her consciousness only to rise above the horror and watch the men drag her corpse out of the house to the fields where it was minced with hewers and hoed into the soil…
When Mrs. Butler finally turned off the light, a volley of thunder ripped the air so violently she shrieked.
She shivered beneath the covers, terrified, yet impossibly moist between the legs, nipples aching to be sucked. When more lightning flashed, she shrieked again because she thought sure she could see the shapes of figures on the wall, as though someone was outside the window, looking in.
It’s just the house…It cain’t hurt me…
And she was right. The house wouldn’t hurt her. It was only going to use her for a while. V
Jiff walked home from the Spike when Buster closed. “Shit, Jiff, you shouldn’t have stayed so long—you’re drunk as a skunk!”
“Yeah, shee-it, I know.”
“Something bumming you out?”
“Naw—”
“You’re bullshitting me, Jiff, but—hell—it’s none of my business,” the big bartender said. The rain pattering the roof sounded like marbles.
“Let me call you a cab. It’s pouring.”
“Naw, I’ll walk—” Jiff pushed open the door and let himself be swamped by the rain. He walked in hitches, staggering.
Yes, he was drunk, all right.
Truth was, he hadn’t left the bar because…he was too uneasy about going back to the inn.
The rain fell in sheets but he didn’t care. He had plenty of cash for a cab but he elected not to call one because he really was in no hurry to get back.
The house was having one of its fits, and Jiff could guess what kind of dreams awaited him once he went to bed. If I’m drunk enough, I’ll pass out’n might not remember ’em…
Desperate logic.
With every whiplash of lightning, Jiff froze and grabbed a streetlamp to keep his balance. Had anyone ever been hit by lightning in this town?
With my luck, I’ll be the first.
Eventually the awnings along Number 1 Street gave him some cover, which only allowed him to focus more on his dim and seedy life. Jiff was tired of two-bit tricks in a gay bar, and buffing his mother’s floors…but he also knew he didn’t deserve much more. Why cain’t I just make some decent money like other folks? Drunk as he was, though, he had the presence of mind to step in closer to the shops. J.G. Sute’s town house was right across the street. He walked as quickly as his stumble would allow, head down. A side-glance upward showed him Sute’s bedroom window—all dark—but after another flash—
Jesus! Is that him sittin’ there?
Jiff walked faster.
When he was far enough down the street, he thought, Yeah, some hustler I am. Sute was his most regular client, with the most dependable money, yet Jiff had pulled the plug on the poor bastard. He just couldn’t hack the gross-out kinks anymore.
The poor fat slob’s probably up there cryin’.