“What do you mean?”
“You’re the one who’ll have to be the driving force in Magdalena.”
Lisa blew away a few prickly hairs that had settled under her eye.
“Never,” she said.
Mimmi laughed.
“What makes you think you’ve got a choice? I think it’s quite funny, I mean you’ve never actually been one for joining clubs and things, I bet you never thought this would happen. My God, when I heard you’d been elected chairwoman… Micke had to give me first aid.”
“I can imagine,” said Lisa dryly.
No, she thought. I never imagined this would happen. There were a lot of things I’d never have imagined I’d do.
Mimmi’s fingers moved through her hair. The sound of the scissors’ blades against each other.
That evening in early summer… thought Lisa.
She remembered sitting in the kitchen, sewing new covers for the dogs’ beds. The sound of the scissors’ blades against each other. Snip, snip, clip, clip. The television was on in the living room. Two of the dogs were lying on the sofa in there, you could almost imagine they were drowsily watching the news. Lisa was listening with half an ear as she cut the material. Then the sewing machine rattling across the fabric in straight lines, the pedal right down to the floor.
Karelin was lying in the basket in the hallway, snoring. Nothing looks more ridiculous than a sleeping, snoring dog. He was lying on his back, back legs in the air and splayed out to the sides. One ear had flopped over his eye like a pirate’s eye patch. Majken was lying on the bed in the bedroom, her paw over her nose. From time to time she made little noises in her throat and her legs twitched. The new Springer spaniel lay happily beside her.
All at once Karelin wakes up with a start. He leaps up and begins to bark like mad. The dogs in the living room jump off the sofa and join in. Majken and the spaniel puppy come racing in and almost knock Lisa over; she has got up too.
As if she might not have understood, Karelin comes into the kitchen and tells Lisa at the top of his voice that there’s somebody outside, they’ve got a visitor, somebody’s coming.
It’s Mildred Nilsson, the priest. She’s standing out there on the veranda. The evening sun behind her turns the edges of her hair into a golden crown.
The dogs are all over her. They’re ecstatic about the visit. Barking, racketing about, whining, Bruno even sings a note or two. Their tails thud against the door frame and the balustrade.
Mildred bends down to say hello to them. That’s good. She and Lisa can’t look at each other for too long. As soon as Lisa saw her out there, it felt as if they’d both waded out into a fast-flowing river. Now they’ve got a bit of time to get used to it. They glance at each other, then look away. The dogs lick Mildred’s face. Her mascara ends up just below her eyebrows, her clothes are covered in hairs.
The current is strong. It’s a question of standing firm. Lisa holds on to the door handle. She sends the dogs to their baskets. Normally she yells and shouts, that’s how she normally speaks to them and it doesn’t bother them at all. This time the command is almost a whisper.
“Go to your baskets,” she says, waving feebly in the direction of the house.
The dogs look at her in bewilderment, isn’t she going to yell at them? But they lope off anyway.
Mildred doesn’t waste any time. Lisa can see she’s angry. Lisa is a head taller than her, Mildred has to stretch her neck slightly.
“Where have you been?” says Mildred furiously.
Lisa raises her eyebrows.
“Here,” she replies.
Her eyes fasten on the marks of summer on Mildred. She’s got freckles. And the light down on her face, on her upper lip and around her jawbone, has turned blonde.
“You know what I mean,” says Mildred. “Why aren’t you coming to the Bible study group?”
“I…” begins Lisa, scrabbling around in her head for a sensible excuse.
Then she gets angry. Why should she need to explain? Isn’t she an adult? Fifty-two years old, surely at that age it’s okay to do what you want?
“I’ve had other things to do,” she says. Her tone is more abrupt than she would like.
“What other things?”
“You know perfectly well!”
They stand there like two reindeer, vying to be leader of the herd. Their rib cages heaving up and down.
“You know perfectly well why I haven’t been coming,” says Lisa in the end.
They’ve waded out up to their armpits now. The priest loses her footing in the current. Takes a step toward Lisa, amazed and angry all at the same time. And something else in her eyes too. Her mouth opens. Takes a deep breath just as you do before you disappear under the water.
The current carries Lisa along with it. She loses her grip on the door handle. Moves toward Mildred. Her hand ends up round the back of Mildred’s neck. Her hair feels like a child’s beneath Lisa’s fingers. She draws Mildred toward her.
Mildred in her arms. Her skin is so soft. They stagger into the hallway entwined around each other, the door is left open, banging against the balustrade. Two of the dogs sneak out.
The only sensible thought in Lisa’s head: They’ll stay in the yard.
They stumble over shoes and dog baskets in the hallway. Lisa is walking backwards. Her arms still around Mildred, one around her waist, one around the back of her neck. Mildred very close, pushing her into the house, her hands beneath Lisa’s sweater, fingers on Lisa’s nipples.
They stumble through the kitchen, land on the bed in the bedroom. Majken is lying there smelling of damp dog, she couldn’t resist a dip in the river earlier in the evening.
Mildred on her back. Off with their clothes. Lisa’s lips on Mildred’s face. Two fingers deep inside her.
Majken raises her head and looks at them. Settles down with a sigh, nose between her paws. She’s seen members of the congregation coupling before. There’s nothing strange about it.
Afterward they make coffee and thaw out some buns. Eat as if they were starving, one after the other. Mildred gives the dogs tidbits and laughs, until Lisa tells her off, they’ll be sick, but she’s laughing all the time she’s trying to be stern.
They sit there in the kitchen in the middle of the light summer night. Each with a sheet around them, sitting on opposite sides of the table. The dogs have picked up on the party atmosphere and are playing about.
Now and again their hands creep across the table to meet.
Mildred’s index finger asks the back of Lisa’s hand: “Are you still here?” The back of Lisa’s hand answers: “Yes!” Lisa’s index finger and middle finger ask the inside of Mildred’s wrist: “Guilt? Regret?” Mildred’s wrist replies: “No!”
And Lisa laughs.
“I’d better come back to the Bible study group, then,” she says.
Mildred bursts out laughing. A piece of half-chewed cinnamon bun falls out of her mouth and onto the table.
“I don’t know, the things you have to be prepared to do to get people to the Bible study group.”
Mimmi stood in front of Lisa and examined her work. The scissors in her hand like a drawn sword.
“There,” she said. “Now I don’t have to be ashamed of you.”
She ruffled Lisa’s hair with a quick gesture. Then she pulled the kitchen towel out of the waistband of her apron and vigorously brushed the hairs off Lisa’s neck and shoulders.
Lisa ran her hand over the stubble.
“Don’t you want to look in the mirror?” asked Mimmi.
“No, I’m sure it’s fine.”
The autumn meeting of Magdalena, the women’s group. Micke Kiviniemi had set up a little drinks table outdoors, just outside the door by the steps that led into the bar. It was dark now, almost black outside. And unusually warm for the time of year. He’d created a little pathway from the road across the graveled yard up to the steps, edged it with tea lights in glass jars. Several handmade candlesticks stood on the steps and on the drinks table.