Isaac’s voice startled him. ‘Looks like you’ve stumbled on Maimonides. I never could get through all of it.’
‘It’s interesting.’
‘Do you want it?’
‘No.’ He slid the book back. ‘I’ve read enough. How about my effort, though?’
‘Well, it’s not a bad read. You ought to think about getting it to a publisher.’
‘It doesn’t need redoing?’
‘Not as far as I can tell, though there’s no reason why you shouldn’t think so. It reads as good as any novel I’ve taken out of the library lately. Go over it once more, then send it to London. With a bit of luck you may shake ’em rigid!’
A pale evening sun made the walls of the newspaper offices glow red, the muted noise of machinery sounding from inside. He was glad to get out of the airless library, after copying publishers’ addresses into his notebook. His aim was to go through Slab Square and back to his digs, but by the Peach Tree he bumped into Archie, eyes seeming closer together than usual, indicating anger for some reason or another. ‘Yer look pale,’ Bert said. ‘Did another ’usband put the shits up yer?’
His laugh was that of an unhappy man as he gripped Herbert’s arm and drew him towards the pub door. ‘Not likely. Come in for a drink, and I’ll tell yer.’
Hunger for his tea was made up for by the comforting smell of ale. ‘What’s it all about, then?’
‘You know this fucking trouble wi’ Egypt?’ Archie said, when two cold pints were on the table.
Hard not to. A real killpig. They’d grabbed the Suez canal, and Israel had kicked their arses all the way across the desert. It was in every newspaper, but he wondered what world affairs had to do with Archie.
‘Well, I might get called up.’ His face was crimson at such injustice, as if only he had been singled out. ‘They’ve put me on standby.’ He showed the envelope. ‘But I’m not going this time.’
‘I ain’t got mine,’ Bert said, ’and I’m on the reserves as well. Maybe there’s some mistake.’
Archie laughed. ‘You’re later in the alphabet than me. Anyway, I heard on the wireless they’d be wanting some of us back. Not me, though. I don’t have a uniform any more. I was looking for it yesterday, and Mam towd me she’d gen it to the ragman. So I can’t go, can I?’
‘I don’t suppose I’ll mind all that much.’
‘You wouldn’t, you daft bastard. You’re a gentleman-wanker who’s got no fucking sense at all.’
‘Well, don’t despair, Archie, my owd.’
He guzzled, and took out a handkerchief to wipe his mouth. ‘Despair? Not me. Despair’s stupid, and I’m not fucking stupid. All the same, just think of it. It’ll be jump to attention again, and polish yer boots, stand by your beds, and all that bull. They’re either a bunch of fucking Hitlers, or a pack of useless shitbags. It’s all right for you, Bert. You was made for it, though I’ll never know why.’
Herbert, as if Archie was looking over his shoulder, was almost ashamed at the pleasure of being wanted for service again. Even Mrs Denman said: ‘Good news, Bert?’ when he opened the little brown envelope.
He wondered what use he would be. ‘I’ve been called up. It’s that Suez thing.’
A new television set had been pushed under the table until Frank came in after work to do the installation. She stroked it, could hardly wait to see the pictures. ‘What a shame. It ain’t right, is it, that young chaps like you have to go.’
Archie walked to the station to see him off, helping to carry his suitcase and kit bag. Half an hour to go, they sat in the refreshment room of pillars and plantpots, one of the more elegant places in the middle of Nottingham. Tea and Mars bars were set on the table. ‘I think they forgot about me.’
Bert slipped his folded beret under a shoulder strap. ‘They’ll get you, don’t worry.’
‘No, they wain’t. Maybe they don’t want any electricians, only infantry. If they do want me, though, it’ll tek a long time for the redcaps to find me. As for yo’, Bert, you could have swung the lead, and towd ’em yer can’t walk because of the smash-up in Cyprus.’
He could, but wouldn’t. The injuries, such as they were, had never relegated him into the ranks of the unfit. Pain in arms and legs had long since gone, which pleased him, because he thought it the lowest form of life to be useless either as a workman or a soldier. When he mentioned the breakages on getting to the depot the MO merely asked if they still bothered him.
‘No, sir.’
‘It wouldn’t have made any difference,’ the sergeant said outside. ‘You’re for the Canal, like the rest of us.’
Few cared for a soldier’s lot; it was so long since the war. The blokes were more bollocky than before, and who could blame them? It was Archie’s good luck not to be called, but Herbert was exhilarated at being in khaki again, and hoped the war in Egypt wouldn’t pack in before he could add the experience of battle to his life — as he put it in a letter to his parents. His affinity with the ways of soldiering was proof, if it were needed, that he wasn’t as cut off from his old school self and the notions of his father as he had imagined. Heredity never relaxed its power, and within a week he felt he could stay in the army forever.
The men of his platoon were disgruntled rather than grumbling, near mutinous at times, though Herbert assumed that even the married ones would be all too ready to take such resentment out on the Egyptians. Getting the lads to let go on the range with the Bren was a fiasco at first, half of them not on the list till he noticed and made it right.
Rain splashed down as they marched across the airfield for embarkation, visibility almost nil. Basic kit was already on board, and transport planes waited to fly them to a staging post in Cyprus. He wondered would he see that beautiful woman who had worked in the vineyards — or her younger sister by now? Best to hope not, and to avoid her vision even in daydreams, because maybe she had been Lady Death, hiding behind a rock and luring him and Pemberton into the lorry crash. It was easy to cut her out. He was more powerfully himself than in those days. The copy of Our Mutual Friend, bookmarked halfway through, jutted from his trouser pocket, and he only wanted to get on board the plane and carry on reading.
A headlit jeep swung into the dispersal point, and the RSM climbed down with a signal to say it was no go. Lorries would take them back to barracks. Everything was at full stop, just as they were about to go out and clear the mess up forever. A cheer spread along the lines, but the ground missed a beat under Herbert’s boots at being robbed of a chance to blend the disparate sides of himself in the most perfect way. The meat-skewer bayonet would never come out of its scabbard. No use spitting tacks, or even cursing. Despair, as Archie said, was a sign of stupidity. Maybe he had wanted to be killed in a blinding whirl of heroics before lights-out, so that only in death would his two selves be united.
He gobbed into the sud pan, pressed the button, and adjusted the machine to the job in question. Gratitude would have been the order of the day, at being so valued by the firm that his place had been kept open which, at fifteen quid a week, was worth having.
His hands had become soft while he was in the army. Amazing how little time was needed. They blistered from pressure and repetition. The skin grazed too easily and was prone to splinters. Brass was the worst, bits that festered like mad till he got them out. Archie said steel was his curse, and Herbert supposed it depended on the preference of your flesh, or even some temperamental make-up that couldn’t be analysed.