The dim lighting was a good thing because my head felt like someone had used it for a soccer ball. This was worse than a hangover. When I reached back and felt the spot where my skull and neck came together, the goose-egg-sized welt was wet to the touch.
I reached out and felt a cot just a few feet from where I lay on the cold floor. Using that cot like a crutch, I pulled myself up. Blood rushed to my head, so I sat and tried to get my bearings. I took a personal inventory. My name was Wayson Harris, I was a lieutenant in the Unified Authority Marines, and we were stationed on New Copenhagen where some mother-specking aliens were going to annihilate our army and bake the survivors. Good, I thought to myself, no brain damage. Would I bake in this very cell?
I did not have my helmet. The MPs must have confiscated it as they dragged me down here. I did not have a gun or a knife or even my combat boots. Had Moffat brought me down himself, he probably would have shot me. Had he come with the MPs that dropped me off, he would have left a knife or a rope, something I could use to commit suicide so that he would not need to come back and kill me himself. He sure as hell did not want me getting out of here alive. Fortunately, the MPs must have brought me down here, and they would have done everything by the book.
My brain felt like an open wound. Circles of white light popped behind my eyes as I lifted myself off the cot and stood. I listened for the sounds of battle and heard nothing. But that did not mean anything—from what I could tell, I was in the basement of the police station. A few minutes later an explosion gave the building a quick shake, and I knew the war was still on. So be it; there was nothing I could do. I climbed onto the rack and lay there. If the Avatari reached this building, they might cave it in. I’d be crushed like a bug, but that might be better than starving to death. If we lost the battle, I might just be down here as the planet fried. I should have shot Moffat—at least then I would have gone down with something to smile about.
The tremors continued. They were not constant, and I never got the feeling that the police station would come crumbling down on me, but every few minutes I felt another undeniably unnatural vibration.
I must have been down in that cell for hours, the twelve-hour muscle relaxant I took for my shoulder wore off. That gave me some perspective about how long I had been down there. It also hurt like hell. I tried to sleep but could not get over the anger. I thought about Moffat and dreamed up a hundred different ways to kill the son of bitch. I lay there in the semidarkness, staring up from my rack, when I realized that I did not care if the Avatari collapsed the building on top of me. Let them, I said to myself.
Lost in my thoughts, I did not notice when the vibrations stopped outside the station. They might have faded, or they might have stopped abruptly. At some point I realized that I had no idea when the vibrations had ceased.
No one came for me. Time ticked by slowly. At least I thought it passed slowly. Without a clock, I had no way to judge. Maybe there’s no one left to come for me, I thought. Maybe they are all dead. I liked that idea; it meant I had outlived Moffat and Glade and Newcastle and the whole clone-hating cabal. I did not mind the idea of dying in this cell. Starving to death did not sound appealing, but I did not mind the idea of dying alone.
Time continued to drag on. I fell asleep. When I woke, I searched around the cell until I found the toilet that sat in the corner. I took a piss. I found the sink while I was on the head and washed my hands. I cupped my hands and took a drink. The water tasted rusty. The sink was small and shallow, but I thought it might be big enough for me to submerge my face and drown myself. The problem was, I would never be able to kill myself. The neural programming in Liberators did not allow us to commit suicide.
Shredding the mattress and using the material to hang myself seemed like the best option as I considered ways to shorten my stay in the jailbird hotel. If I didn’t mind hanging naked, I could use the sheer material in my bodysuit to tie a noose. I could drag my rack against the bars of the cell, then tie one pant leg around my neck and the other around the bars. My neck would snap as I rolled from the rack. I knew from experience that necks snapped easily when you gave them the right sort of force. I knew I could not bring myself to do it, but it felt good to think of ways I could end this.
Feeling like I might just be able to pull it off, I slid my cot against the bars, and there I sat. This was not the first time I had contemplated suicide to avoid a slow death. The last time I found myself in a similar situation, I discovered that I could not go against the things that were hardwired in my head. So I kicked up my feet and lay back on my bed and waited to see what would happen next. Time passed, then I heard someone open a door.
I did not worry about a visit from the Avatari; they would not bother hunting stragglers. What did they care about stray humans running around the city?
It could have been Moffat, come to fix me once and for all. I hoped it was. I would try to goad him close to the cell, then I would tear out his throat. We could die down here together. I liked that idea. Then again, I was feeling drowsy and possibly a little deranged.
“Harris? You in here?” I recognized the voice. Major Terry Burton came in with an entourage of officers and MPs. The low glow of the “EXIT” signs reflected on their combat armor. They came to my cell and looked at me through the bars. “Comfortable?” Burton asked.
“I could use some chow,” I said, making no effort to get up and salute.
“Don’t mind us,” Burton said. “By all means, go back to sleep if you like.”
“Did we win?” I asked.
“That depends on your definition of winning,” Burton said. “I understand you tried to attack a fellow officer. Is there anything I need to know about before I let you out?”
Burton put on a good face, but there was something forced about his causal tone.
“Is Moffat with you?” I asked.
“No,” Burton said.
“Then I’ll behave myself.”
Burton turned toward one of his aides, and said, “Spring him.” He stepped back, and a moment later the cell door slid open.
“General Glade wants to see you. Apparently he has something he wants to discuss with you.”
“My court-martial?” I asked.
“Nope,” Burton said. “He wouldn’t have bothered sending me if he planned on throwing you right back in.”
Burton and his men cleared away from the door as I stepped out, acting as if I had a fatal disease. “Your things are in a box upstairs,” one of the junior officers said.
We took an elevator up three floors to the ground floor, and suddenly the building looked as bright as the sun. The light hurt my eyes, and I winced. “I see the ion curtain is still up,” I mumbled.
Parts of the station looked vaguely familiar. I recognized some of the maps and pictures on the walls as I walked through the building. I realized that I must have lapsed in and out of lucidity as the MPs dragged me in to my cell. Bastards, I thought. Whoever it was that had knocked me out had fetched me one hell of a blow. But I didn’t really care who dropped the hammer; he had just been doing Moffat’s bidding. The war was between me and Moffat.
One of the men in armor pointed to the box that held my holster and personal effects. I found my boots and body gear, but my helmet and weapons were gone.
“My guns?” I asked.
“We’ll hold the guns for safekeeping. You can have them back after your meeting with General Glade,” Burton said.
“And my helmet?” I asked.
“Evidence,” he said.
“I thought you said there wasn’t going to be a court-martial,” I said as I picked up my stuff.
“There’s going to be an investigation,” Burton said. “If it leads to a court-martial, I don’t think the court-martial will be yours.”