She walked back to the ironing board and slipped a thumbnail under the flap of the envelope.
Dear Mrs Noone,
I hope this letter reaches you. It is about your son, Frederick. I am very sorry to inform you that Frederick has passed away. I don’t know if you will have been told, but I know that waiting is difficult and I wanted to make sure that somebody informed you.
I am sorry I cannot come to tell you in person, Mrs Noone, but my situation is very difficult at the moment and I am not at liberty to travel. I hope to visit you with my condolences at my earliest convenience.
I served with Frederick in the Parachute Regiment, perhaps he mentioned me? My name is Edward Otis, but in the regiment I was always called ‘Sherman’ just like he was known as ‘Davidoff’. Perhaps you knew that?
I wanted to say to you that he was a good mate and a brave soldier. Without him I would probably not be here now, and I know he died doing what he loved.
He always talked about you. I wanted you to know, he wasn’t alone when he died.
The letter was signed ‘Sherman’. There was no return address.
Mrs Bannister, who had bought the house after Mrs Noone’s death the previous summer, felt a moment of abstract sorrow, then put the letter to one side and got on with her ironing.
In the desert between Indian Springs and Desert Rock, the heat haze cleared to glass as evening arrived. An old man shuffled along the side of the road. He was bare-chested and smeared with dirt. A shapeless grey felt hat kept the sun from his eyes. His shoulders were tanned to leather by the sun. He was muttering to himself.
You couldn’t see where he had come from. He was not here, and then he was here. He scanned the horizon, raised one hand to scratch the side of his face. He had the sense of having been followed, but when he looked around him he could see nothing.
‘Waiting for me,’ he said. ‘Just the other side in the churn. Damn liberals.’
There was something sad about the look of this old man – something in the set of his shoulders that suggested long searching, a habit of disappointment. He shuffled on. His legs were tired, and his worn old toenails chafed through the leather of his shoes.
He walked out from the road into the scrub desert, then bent down, from the waist. His knees bowed out a little and he emitted a grunt. He picked something up off the ground and straightened up. He raised it to his lips, and blew across it.
‘Hmm,’ he said. He polished it with his thumb and held it up to the light. It winked. He put it in one of his pockets and walked on.
The sky was blank as bone. A few fat drops of rain slapped the faded tarmac. The dust began to rise.
Extras
My book doesn’t have a soundtrack, but if it did these songs would probably be on it. A few appear in the book (one of them over and over again), but each one captures either musically or lyrically something that seems to me to be present in one part of the book or another.
I don’t listen to music when I write, but sometimes it’s in the back of my mind. I like the spareness of songs. The best of them don’t strive to make sense, or give a complete picture. That suggestiveness was helpful to me.
1) ‘Road to Nowhere’ by Talking Heads
Alex is listening to the Talking Heads as he sets out on his trip across America. The song has a winning feeling of chipmunk-like cheerfulness in the face of futility and certain doom. Just the attitude we should all be adopting.
2) ‘Sanctus’, from Requiem Op 48 by Gabriel Fauré
Fauré’s ‘Sanctus’ knocks me clean out of my socks every time I hear it. The circling motif underneath it, doodling its way mournfully up to the sudden dazzling whoomph near the end, brass coming out over the top like light exploding out of all the windows of a building all at once. In an ideal world, this is the noise the Coincidence Engine would make when it’s building planes or bringing about the end of the multiverse.
3) ‘Mote’ by Sonic Youth
Like many Sonic Youth tunes, this song creates a complete world if its own, and the first two lines have always haunted me: sparrow through the meadhall with a scouring rock soundtrack. He’s more melancholy, but lyrically this is surely Banacharski’s signature tune.
4) ‘Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)’ by the Eurythmics
A song from Alex’s childhood. I love the chilly grandeur of the Eurythmics: the sense that Annie Lennox is telling you about something fascinating and seductive and sophisticated that doesn’t give a damn about your happiness.
5) ‘Mad World’ by Michael Andrews and Gary Jules
Funny/sad. And those dreams. Bree can empathise. Bree has those dreams too. And where ever would she be without her sense of humour?
6) ‘Nowhere Man’ by the Beatles
More than just a riddle song, ‘Nowhere Man’ fleshes out the whole business of nonexistence. The Coincidence Engine is full of nowhere men – and an infinite number more are pressing to be admitted. ‘He wasn’t there again today. I wish I wish he’d go away.’
7) ‘Ballad of a Thin Man’ by Bob Dylan
I can’t very well leave Dylan’s sinister, angular story-song out of the list, can I? My Mister Jones is less likely to have a pencil in his hand, though, than a cigarette.
8) ‘Minor Place’ by Bonnie ‘Prince’ Billy
I love this mysterious, sour-sweet song: half elegy and half lullaby. If ‘minor’ means a chord, as I think – among other things – it does, the place is as much a mood as a location. I think Nicolas, one way and another, is constantly travelling to his minor place.
9) ‘Hurt’ by Johnny Cash
Trent Reznor’s song was just waiting for Johnny Cash – who by then sounded about five thousand years old, and like he’d been through the mill a bit to boot – to sing it. Sunt lacrimae rerum, pals.
10) ‘Johnny Barleycorn’ by Frank Black
Cheer up: here comes the certain hope of resurrection… sounding like the hoedown at the end of the universe. ‘John Barleycorn’ is an allusion to whisky, which has a part to play in this story, and a folk image of the chthonic gods of death and resurrection. (He also plays a part in Jeff Noon’s Vurt mythos.) What goes around, this song tells us, comes around.
11) ‘Like A Hurricane’ by Neil Young
This song ends up being the device’s theme-tune. Not exactly sure why, except that I like it, and that it’s a love song and it involves (ha ha) a hurricane carrying a bit much metaphorical weight. The sense of a human relationship set in a cosmic scale, and of an identity being effaced ‘I’m getting blown away’ is in there too. Plus I’m a sucker for the way Neil Young’s voice struggles through that feedbacky guitar line.
12) ‘Bird Dream of the Olympus Mons’ by Pixies
Another song that creates its own world – a phantasmagoria somewhere between the Mojave and Mars. Years ago I drove through the desert playing Trompe le Monde over and over again. There’s no better driving music for the middle of nowhere. It makes you feel like you could have left Earth and not even know it had happened. And that would be the best thing ever.
Nobody's Home
At the very centre of E. M. Forster's A Passage to India there is a famous encounter with an echo in the Marabar Caves. 'Ou-boum,' says the echo – and to the listener in whom it strikes a strange sort of existential dread, it seems to be saying: 'Everything exists, nothing has value.'
It has always seemed to me that it's the first of these two propositions that's the really interesting one. What if everything really did exist? Somewhere among the ideas that are rattling round in the sub-basement of The Coincidence Engine is that one, tangled up with thoughts about an infinity of parallel universes, half-remembered bits of literary theory, philosophically negligible language-games, and the question 'What is a metre?' – to which nobody knows the answer.
Nobody knows everything, you see. Good old nobody. Quite the smart-aleck.