Julitta sniffed loudly, and sitting up, dried her face on the kerchief that Ailith gave her. 'What's a whore?' she asked.
Ailith's blood turned to ice. 'Who told you that word?'
'Is it a bad one?'
'Who told you, was it Hamo?'
Julitta swallowed. 'He said that I would never make a good marriage because you were nought but Papa's stupid English whore and that Papa had another proper wife and little girl somewhere else.' Julitta twisted the kerchief viciously in her fingers. 'He said that Benedict was betrothed to her. I didn't believe him. Mama, what's a whore?'
'Merciful God,' Ailith whispered and turned her head aside, her lips pressed tightly together and her eyes closed. Was this what it had come to? Rolf had been more cruel than he had known that frosty morning in the forge when he had prevented her from cutting her own wrists.
'A whore is a woman who lends herself to a man for money,' she said, forcing herself to speak for the sake of the bewildered child. 'I gave your father everything for love, and we made a pledge to each other.'
'But does he have another, proper wife and a little girl somewhere else?'
How did you explain such things to a precocious six-year-old, Ailith wondered, when you could not explain the wherefores and whys to yourself? The bedchamber walls seemed to be hemming her in, stifling her. With sudden decision, she stood up, tugging Julitta by the hand. 'Come,' she said, 'we're going out for a ride. Elfa needs the exercise, and the fresh air will make us both feel better.'
'But, Mama…'
'You can ask me things as we ride along, and I will do my best to tell you.'
In the hall there was no sign of Hamo, or his mother. Ailith wondered where the boy had picked up his notions and prejudices. Did the other Normans at Ulverton look upon her with resentment as Rolf's 'stupid English whore'? Surely she would have felt such hostility.
Someone had pulled the battle axe out of the trestle and laid it to one side. Ailith gave it a wide berth, issued brief instructions to the servants to continue the spring cleaning, and went outside. But despite the soft spring warmth, she was cold.
'Yes, your papa does have a wife,' she told Julitta as they rode their mounts down the coast path and came to the long expanse of shoreline, bordered by the hissing suck and murmur of the sea. 'But she lives in Normandy and he does not see her often.'
Julitta stared over the glittering plumes of spray to the line where the blue of sea merged hazily with the blue of sky. 'Does he love her?'
'I do not know. It was a marriage arranged by their parents when they were both very young.'
'Like Ben's, you mean?' Julitta looked at her mother, the sea-sparkle reflecting in her blue-green eyes.
Ailith saw the trap waiting to swallow her. If she said yes, then she was condoning the breaking of marital law. If she said no, she was a hypocrite. 'Every arrangement is different,' she fenced. 'If my husband had not died, or your tiny half-brother, I would never have given myself to your father. So much depends on chance.'
As they rode along the beach, Julitta held herself to a listening silence that was unusual for her bright, impatient nature, and Ailith found herself talking to the child as if she were an adult.
She told her about the past, about Goldwin and the forge for which he had nurtured such plans; about Aldred and Lyulph, Julitta's dead uncles, their stature and prowess. About the baby she had lost, and her eyes filled with tears.
Julitta was only just six years old and did not understand all that Ailith told her, but she sensed that her mother had suffered greatly, and that the thin, often broken thread-of-gold which her father had woven into her mother's life had been the reason for her survival. She still did not really understand what a whore was, nor why her beloved papa should go and betroth Benedict to his other little girl. Perhaps he loved the other one more. The thought frightened her, and suddenly Julitta did not want to understand. She kicked her heels against her pony's sides, making him canter, and then gallop, as if she could outrun her fears.
Mother and daughter returned by way of the village, where they were greeted cheerfully by those folk not absent in the fields. The carpenter's wife gave Julitta a drink of milk fresh from the cow and a piece of bread smeared with honey from her own hives.
At the end of the village they came to Inga's house. It stood a little apart from the other dwellings and was surrounded by a palisade of stakes to contain her flock of geese when they were not out grazing on the common. Julitta craned her neck nervously, but there was not a single goose, gosling or gander to be seen. Inga's door was open, and as Ailith and Julitta rode past, the little brown terrier came hurtling out to bark at them, its stumpy little legs almost leaving the ground with the force of the noise.
Elfa flickered her ears and sidled. The dog made several dashes as if to attack the horses, but stopped short each time, barking ever more frantically.
Then, faintly, Ailith heard a woman's voice calling for help. For a single, appalling moment, she was tempted to ignore the voice and ride on. So strong was the urge that she actually heeled Elfa's flanks, although her hands remained firm on the reins. The confused mare snorted and turned in a circle.
Julitta watched her mother with wide eyes. After last autumn's incident with that horrible gander, she had privately christened Inga the 'goose witch' and would lief as not go anywhere near the cottage — although sometimes she dared herself just to prove that she wasn't really afraid. The cry came again, thin with pain and terror.
'Stay here,' Ailith commanded, and rode Elfa towards the stockade. Still yapping, the terrier ran ahead of the mare. Julitta deliberated between being adventurous and remaining obedient, and, after a moment, inevitably chose the former.
Ailith dismounted at the door of Inga's cottage and went inside. It was dim within for all the shutters were barred. The hearth in the centre of the room was cold and the sweet reek of blood filled her nostrils. Inga lay on her bed of skins against the side of the room. She was wearing nothing but her shift and this was bunched up around her waist. Her thighs and belly were smeared with blood and there was a glistening red puddle on the beaten earth floor. In her arms she held a tiny baby, and in her eyes there was the terror of a stricken animal. 'Help me,' she croaked.
'Merciful God!' Ailith gasped. Her legs threatened to give way and her stomach heaved. The baby was dead; she could see that it had been born with the cord wrapped tightly around its neck. Its head lolled, its eyes half-open. Its scalp was covered by a fuzz of dark red hair. Between Inga's thighs, she saw the cord of the afterbirth quivering like a bluish-white tail. 'Where's the midwife?'
'No-one knew I was with child. None of their meddling business.' Another spurt of blood reddened Inga's thighs and spilled down the sheepskins to increase the puddle on the floor. 'The afterbirth's stuck.'
Ailith heard a muffled cry from the door and whirling, saw Julitta standing there, her eyes as huge as moons. 'I told you to wait outside!' she shouted at her daughter and moved rapidly to blot the scene from the child's sight. 'Go back into the village. Fetch Father Godfrid and tell him that it is urgent. Hurry now!' She gave Julitta a sharp push. White-faced with shock, Julitta scrambled to untether her pony.
Ailith found a jug and went outside to fill it with water from the well. She poured a beaker for Inga and helped her sit up to drink it. And all the time the blood dripped from between the woman's legs. Ailith pulled the blood-soaked shift down over Inga's belly and took the baby from her to wrap it in a shawl. Images of her own son flashed through her mind, and then, more disturbingly, images of Julitta.
Inga watched her from the bed. The woman's breathing was rapid and shallow, her skin beaded with cold sweat. 'Are you not going to ask me who fathered him?'