“You know that was pulped people, right?”
Jason shrugged again and smirked. “People are tasty… I guess that’s why the croatoans came here. Root and tasty human flesh.”
“Ew, that makes us cannibals. You do realize that?”
“Yeah, Layla explained it to me. I don’t see the problem. We’re all just genetic material. No different to eating animals. But before you barf all over me, let me answer your question.” He took another sip of the coffee and casually sat on the edge of the table.
Maria leaned against the window, letting the cool glass touch her neck.
“From my short experience and the things I’ve observed since my release from the harvester, I believe there is no purpose. We’re just here through a combination of factors that none of us can truly understand. We’re all just motes of dust floating in a cloud of chaos. Only, when you gather enough dust, it forms a ball; when the ball gets big enough, the trajectory changes, it creates a path and hides chaos, creating an illusion of a route, a journey. But we’re not heading anywhere for anything other than destruction. We’re already dead. We are entropy in motion.”
“And that thought actually makes you happy? It’s sounds awful.”
“Think about it this way,” he said, placing the cup on the table. “If we are all just dust motes of chaos and cannot control or change anything, then why try? Why not just be happy for what we are and go with the motion? Be reactive instead of active. Some would say it’s giving up, but I would say it’s giving in to freedom, giving in to the way of the universe.”
Maria took in his words and thought them over.
She had to admit, he had a point.
The idea of just not worrying about anything anymore did appeal. Reacting to life as opposed to trying to direct it seemed like a logical answer to an existence where an individual had so little control.
Turning back to look at the harvester, she said in a small, resigned voice, “I miss it, you know? The schedule, the task, the certainty of it… hell, even the safety. As long as we did the procedures, we were safe. Layla said to me the harvester was like a womb—you know, where human babies come from when they’re not cloned in vats by croatoans.”
“I have no idea about that,” Jason said. “But I do understand the sentiment. I too miss life in the harvester. For me it wasn’t just the certainty of our job, it was the camaraderie. Out here, there are so many people to remember, not to mention the croatoans… it’s too busy. The chaos outside here is frankly tiring—which is why I sleep so much,” he added, his eyes creasing at the edges.
Two women in Freetown overalls crossed the square to a building that Mike and Mai had set up as their workshop. Maria could hear their faint voices carrying on the calm wind.
Behind them, the intact harvester remained in Maria’s focus. Without turning around she said, “Why don’t we just go? Take the harvester and leave this all behind?”
She heard Jason’s response between slurps from his coffee mug. “Sure, why not? Want to go now?”
And so Maria agreed without thinking about it.
Embrace the chaos, she thought.
MARIA DIDN’T FIND it difficult packing her items to leave. With everyone else preparing to depart for Unity, her activities raised no questions.
Maria met Jason at the front of the building. He was leaning against the wall outside of the glass doors; his hair tousled by the wind. He dragged on a root cigarette and breathed out a gaseous cloud of orange tint.
“You haven’t packed anything,” Maria said, noticing he didn’t carry a bag of items like she did.
“Don’t need anything else,” he said, patting his chest pocket, “when I have my rootsticks and good company.” He winked at Maria and flicked the charred end of the cigarette to the floor. A small ember fizzled on the frosted gravel.
He stepped closer and kissed Maria full on the lips, taking her utterly by surprise. Her body stiffened and for the briefest of moments she thought back to when Gregor was trying to ‘mate’ with her. But unlike Gregor, Jason didn’t disgust her and she found herself leaning into his body, relaxing her shoulders and returning the kiss.
They broke away and gasped for breath.
“Okay,” Maria said, her head dizzy. “That was unexpected.”
“Of course,” Jason replied with that charming smirk of his. “It’s all chaos, right? Shall we go before the others realize we’re not getting on the shuttle to Unity?”
Feeling better than she had at almost any other time since Charlie and Denver had taken her out of her previous life, she put her arm through Jason’s and walked with him across the square toward the harvester—toward her future: one with no purpose or reason, just a life to be lived and to do with whatever whim took her.
They reached halfway when a shadow blotted out the sun. Thinking it was just a cloud, Maria continued on her path. Something hot and wet splashed against the side of her face.
Jason suddenly became very heavy and she thought he had tripped, but when she looked round, she saw with horror that half of his head was missing, the skull smashed out toward the back.
Maria removed her arm. His body slumped to the ground. She wiped her cheek and stared at the blood smeared across her hand. The whine of croatoan engines filled the air, rapidly increasing in volume. She looked up and saw three shuttles and a dozen hover-bikes descending toward the square.
In the open door of one of the shuttles, a woman in army fatigues aimed a croatoan rifle at Jason’s limp body.
Maria dashed out of the way as a projectile struck Jason’s stomach. She screamed, dropped her bag and ran to the side, her heart kicking at her chest with every step. None of this made sense; her mind whirled with a mixture of trying to understand and getting to cover.
The two women who entered the workshop earlier came rushing out into the square toward Maria.
Before she had time to warn them, two croatoans on hover-bikes strafed a line of fire across their path, cutting them down instantly into a bloody mess. Maria skidded to a halt and changed direction, heading back for the main building, hoping to get down the side of it and get the building between her and the attackers.
She had no luck, though; the whole of Freetown seemed to have rushed out, presumably thinking the shuttles were for them.
“Get back inside,” Maria screamed, waving her hands.
Her voice wasn’t audible over the sound of gunfire and the whine of engines.
The mass of people panicked and ran in all directions. They hadn’t had time to organize themselves when the shuttles landed and hundreds of armed humans and croatoans flooded out, killing all those before them.
Maria sprinted to the corner of the building. As she slid round on the gravel, she tripped, cracking her head against the gray, alien concrete of the wall. She hit the ground hard, her head spinning with the impact.
She placed her hands over her ears, unable to stand the screams and the gunfire. Tears streaked down her face. What had happened? Why this? Why now? She was so close to leaving. Just her and Jason… but it seemed Chaos had other ideas.
A shadow appeared around the corner of the building. In amongst the din of war she made out the crunch of feet on gravel. When she looked up and wiped the tears and blood from her eyes, she saw a familiar figure that made her tremble with fear. She tried to back up, but fear paralyzed her.
“Ah, you’re the Maria, aren’t you?” Augustus said.
He adjusted an awful metal mask on his face. He wore no robe and sandals this time, preferring to wear an army uniform. A cruelly curved dagger hung on his belt. On the opposite side he wore a holster containing one of the croatoan laser pistols. He took the latter and pointed it at Maria’s forehead.