Raffi propped himself on one elbow. “Did it work?”
But already he knew the answer. Galen gave him a look that went right through him; the keeper’s face was drawn and exhausted.
“What does the keeper fear, Raffi?” he muttered hoarsely.
“Despair,” Raffi whispered. “But Galen . . .”
“I know despair,” the keeper said. “Despair and I are old friends.”
“It’s not your fault!”
“It must be. I have failed in some way. I have to pay and this is the way God chooses.”
Raffi shook his head hopelessly. He felt like crying. “We’ll find the Crow. The Crow will cure you.”
Galen didn’t answer. He sat in the chair, knees huddled up, staring into the flames. When Raffi went back to sleep, he was still there.
Journal of Carys Arryn Date unknown
What’s happening to me?
First I feel sorry for Galen, and now the old man’s got me feeling guilty. This place doesn’t help. It must be one of the last strongholds of the Order anywhere, and I should be glad that I’ve found it, but the whole thing seems . . .
CARYS STOPPED. Then she crossed out everything furiously and started again.
They have a Relic-chapel here. I saw it this morning, though Galen spent most of the night in there. It is really very beautiful; Raffi was almost moved to tears. There are superb statues, so real they might almost be Flain and Tamar and the others. Candles burn before them. Relics are kept in boxes of gold—the Sekoi was squirming with jealousy. The windows are pieced together from broken fragments. Seeing it was strange. Old Jellie would have hated it, and so should I. It’s just . . . the statues looked too real. I almost thought Flain was looking at me.
Superstition is easy to catch.
Now we’re waiting for Shean. I think he has some idea where the Crow may be. If there is such a man.
SHE CLOSED THE BOOK and stuffed it away quickly as the old man shuffled in with Galen. They sat down. All at once it felt like a council of war, and Raffi’s nerves tightened as the tension gripped him.
Shean began. He laid the small glass globe carefully on the table, his hand trembling slightly. “Galen has explained how you came to find this. I’m not sure, but I think I know what it is. I have spoken to him about it; that knowledge lies only between us, for now. It is a great relic, and if it is what I think, then it will lead you to the Crow.” He looked uneasy. “If that is where you still wish to go.”
Galen looked up, astonished. “Of course it is.”
The old man paused, moistening his dry lips. “The House of Trees, keeper, if anything remains of it, is under the darkest, most dangerous part of the city. Those who have gone there have not returned.”
“So you know where it is?” the Sekoi asked drily.
“We have . . . some idea. There is an ancient list of ways—a list of streets. It dates almost certainly from before the fall of the city. Others have copied it and, I presume, followed it. As I say, none have come back.”
“You haven’t tried?” Carys was surprised.
The old man’s gloved fingers twisted together. “No. I feel it’s important I am here. We must gather, find our scattered brothers, rebuild the Order. This will be our center—the heart of the network. We need you here, Galen. Stay with us.”
Galen stared at him. “What about me? I need the Crow!”
“My son,” the old man said softly. “Have you ever thought that there may be no Crow?”
“NO!” Galen leaped up, his face dark and wrathful. “Never! And how can you say that! Even think it! What has happened to your faith, old man? Has this city of horrors smothered it?”
Shean sat silent. Finally he said, “You may be right to rebuke me. I’ve lived here too long in the dark, Galen; seen too many martyrs, too many children dragged away. Under this room so many of their bodies lie, bought from the Watch, secretly buried. And maybe I’ve become weak. Maybe I’ve thought, if the Crow was here, would he not have saved us from this? Would he not have risen up and saved the city?”
“You sound like a Watchman!” Galen prowled in disgust, then turned swiftly. “Even in darkness, we have to believe! I’ve learned that. It’s we who have to rise up, Shean, us, the remains of the Order! The Makers left the world to us, and if it’s lost, then we are the ones who lost it! We have the power! We still have it! And he’s waiting for us to find him, to come to him!”
In the silence that followed, the Sekoi said quietly, “Indeed, many of our stories say the same.”
Shean shrugged. “Then I hope you find what you want. Because it tears at you so much I won’t hold you back. I can give you the List of Ways, though you must swear not to let it fall into the enemy’s hands. But think hard, keeper.” He stood up and gazed across the room at Galen’s grim face. “Are you doing this to save the Order? Or to heal your own loss? Would you be so eager to face death if you didn’t think the Crow could cure you?”
Galen glared at him bitterly. “I hope so,” he breathed.
“Of course he would,” Carys snapped. They all looked at her in surprise; she felt a bit surprised herself, but she folded her arms and looked Shean in the eye. “He hasn’t come all this way for himself. I’ve seen that. Nor has Raffi. They believe in this Crow, and if you’d had their faith you’d have gone to find him yourself, years ago. Keep the questions for yourself, keeper. Mightn’t it be that you hide in here because you’re too scared to go out?”
Raffi was grinning; the Sekoi smiled slyly. Galen’s look was hard and strange.
Shean nodded slowly. “The Litany says the keeper is wise who knows the voice of truth. Maybe what you say is so.” He sat down again, looking suddenly tired and older. His black fingers caressed the glass globe. “You go with him then, girl?”
“I’ve come this far.”
“But you don’t believe in the Crow?”
She hesitated, uneasy. “Maybe. I don’t know. I’d like to find out.”
The Sekoi nodded. “And so would I.” It rubbed the fur on its face with one sharp finger. “It would interest us. We have our own ideas about the Makers.”
“And heresy, most of them are,” Galen growled. He came over to the table. “Let me have a copy of this list,” he said quietly. “My friends and I will leave tonight.” He paused, and the black and green beads glinted at his neck. “With your blessing, keeper.”
Shean stood. “You have it, keeper. And maybe you will be the one the prophecy speaks of. The one who will come back.”
THEY LEFT AT NIGHTFALL, though in Tasceron night was eternal. Now they traveled light. Galen had left all the relics in the safety of the chapel; he took only the glass globe and the chart. They each carried a little food; Carys had her bow. The Sekoi went empty-handed, as before. It seemed able to go for a long time without eating; when Raffi asked how it would manage it just purred at him, “I could eat you, small keeper.”
Raffi laughed, but uneasily. There were some nursery rhymes he’d heard from his mother . . . As if it knew, the Sekoi laughed too, a small, mocking, barking sound.
Shean’s men went with them as far as a corner of a terrace, where a great set of wide steps led up into the dark. There one of them said, “This is as far as we go. Good luck, keepers.”
Galen gave them the blessing; they melted into the shadows expertly. Watching them go, Raffi said, “Now we’re on our own again.”
“We’re never on our own!” Galen glared at him. “You’ve been neglecting your lessons, boy. While we go you’ll repeat the whole Book to yourself, from the beginning to the death of Flain. Every verse, every prophecy.”