I finished all of the chips and beer and ordered up Chinese at about ten o’clock. Shortly after midnight, I finally caved in and went to bed.
The next morning I made a quick and terrifying calculation. It had taken me eight hours the day before to read what previously I’d read in about forty-five minutes. I then tried to recall some of it, but could only summon up fragments, generalities. Previously I’d been able to remember all of it, back to front, inside out.
The temptation at this stage to take a couple of MDT pills was very strong indeed, but I persevered. If I went back full-thrust on MDT, I would only end up having more blackouts, and where would that leave me? So the pattern remained the same over the next couple of days. I stayed at home and waded through hundreds of pages of material, only leaving the apartment to get stuff like potato chips and cheeseburgers and beer. I watched a good deal of TV, but studiously avoided newscasts and current affairs shows. I kept my phone unplugged. I suppose at some level I created the illusion for myself that I was coming to grips with the material, but as the days passed I had to admit that very little of it was sinking in.
On the Wednesday evening I detected the onset of another headache. I wasn’t sure what had caused it, maybe it was all the beer and junk food I’d been consuming, but when it hadn’t gone away by Thursday morning I decided to up the minimum dosage of MDT to one pill a day. Of course, within about twenty minutes of taking this higher dosage my headache had lifted, and – of course – I started worrying. How long would it be before I had to increase the dosage again? How long would it be before I was chugging down three or even four pills each morning just to keep the headaches at bay?
I took out Vernon’s little notebook again and examined it. I had no desire to go through the same routine as before, but I nevertheless felt that if there was any hope left in this situation it had to lie somewhere in among these numbers. I decided to call a few of the ones that had been crossed out and didn’t have replacements written in above or below them. Maybe I would discover that they belonged to people who were still alive, and weren’t even sick, people who would talk to me, ex-clients. Or maybe – more likely – I would find out that the reason they were ex-clients was because they were dead. But it was worth a try.
I called five numbers. The first three were no longer in service. The fourth number didn’t reply or have an answering machine. The fifth one picked up after two rings.
‘Yep?’
‘Hello. May I speak to Donald Geisler please?’
‘Speaking. What do you want?’
‘I was a friend of Vernon Gant’s. I don’t know if you know but he was killed a while back and I was-’
I stopped.
He’d hung up.
It was a response, though. And clearly the guy wasn’t dead. I waited ten minutes and called again.
‘Yep?’
‘Please don’t hang up. Please.’
There was a pause, during which Donald Geisler didn’t hang up. Or say anything.
‘I’m looking for some help,’ I said, ‘some information maybe. I don’t know.’
‘Where did you get this number?’
‘It was… among Vernon’s things.’
‘Shit!’
‘But there’s noth-’
‘Are you a cop? Is this an investigation of some kind?’
‘No. Vernon was an old friend of mine.’
‘I don’t like this.’
‘In fact, he was my ex-brother-in-law.’
‘That doesn’t make me feel any better.’
‘Look, this is about-’
‘Don’t say it on the phone.’
I stopped again. He knew.
‘OK, I won’t. But is there any way that I could talk to you? I need your help. I mean, you obviously know-’
‘You need my help? I don’t think so.’
‘Yes, because-’
‘Look, I’m going to hang up now. So don’t phone me back. In fact, don’t ever try to contact me again, and-’
‘Mr Geisler, I might be dying.’
‘Oh, Christ.’
‘And I need-’
‘Leave me alone, all right?’
He hung up.
My heart was thumping.
If Donald Geisler didn’t want to talk to me, there wasn’t much I could do about it. He mightn’t have been able to help in any case, but it was still frustrating to make such brief contact with someone who obviously knew what MDT was.
Not in the mood any more to go on with this, I put the black notebook away. Then, in an effort to distract myself, I returned to my desk and picked up a document that I’d printed out earlier from a financial website.
I opened it and started reading.
The document was a highly technical article about anti-trust legislation and by page three my attention had already drifted. After a while I stopped reading, put the article down and lit up a cigarette. Then I just sat there for ages, smoking, staring into space.
Later, in the afternoon, I made a trip to the bank. Gennady was coming the next morning for the second payment on the loan and I wanted to be ready for him. I withdrew over $100,000 in cash, my intention being to pay off the whole loan straightaway – the repayments, the vig, everything. That way I could get him off my back. If Gennady had taken the five MDT pills – and that was the only plausible explanation for the fact that they were missing – I certainly didn’t want him coming around to my apartment every Friday morning.
As I was waiting for them to get the cash ready, my balding and overweight bank manager, Howard Lewis, invited me into his office for a little chat. This walking heart-attack seemed to be concerned that after my initial flurry of activity with Klondike and Lafayette – resulting, admittedly, in some fairly substantial deposits – things had been, ‘… well, quiet.’
I looked across the desk at him in disbelief.
‘… and then there are these rather large cash withdrawals, Mr Spinola.’
‘What about them?’ I said, my tone adding, as if it’s any of your fucking business.
‘Nothing in themselves, Mr Spinola, of course, but… well, in the light of that piece in last Friday’s Post about-’
‘What about-?’
‘Look, it’s all very… irregular. I mean, these days you can’t be too-’
‘In the light of my time at Lafayette, Mr Lewis,’ I said, barely able to contain my irritation, ‘I am currently in negotiations for a position as a senior trader at Van Loon & Associates.’
He looked back at me, breathing out slowly through his nose, as if what I’d said confirmed his worst fears about me.
His phone rang, and he scooped it up, a muscle on his face quivering slightly by way of apology. As he dealt with the call, I glanced around. Until that point, I’d been feeling quite indignant, but this cooled somewhat when I saw my reflection in the back panel of a silver photo-frame on Lewis’s desk. It was a partially distorted image, but nothing could conceal how scruffy I looked. I hadn’t shaved that morning and I was wearing old jeans and a T-shirt – implausible for a senior trader at Van Loon & Associates, even on a day off.