The bartender stomped over to my table, put his hands on his hips, and said, “If you got trade like that, what the hell you doin’ runnin’ around lookin’ like a bum?”
“None of your fucking business, friend. You take the trade or not?”
His eyes shifted to the bag on the table, and he looked almost contrite. “Sure.”
“Double whiskey, and keep ‘em coming.” I withdrew a packet from the bag and slid it across the table.
“Ain’t got no whiskey. Just grog.”
Grog was a clear liquor brewed from whatever fruit or vegetable matter a distiller could get his hands on. It tasted like turpentine and sweat, but it was strong and it got the job done.
“Fine,” I said. “But since it’s grog, that packet is worth two doubles.”
“For five more packets, you can have a whole damn bottle.”
I handed them over. “Done.”
He took the sugar, started to walk away, and then looked over his shoulder. “We got a bath in the back if you want to use it, fella. I can smell you from over here.”
“Maybe later.”
“Suit yourself.”
He returned with a bottle and a glass, his attitude toward me much improved. Leaning down, he said, “You should probably stay the night here. Some undesirables across the room are giving you the glad-eye. Probably try to rob you the minute you step out the door.”
I shrugged. “Let ‘em try.”
“You might also have noticed it’s cold outside and you ain’t got no shoes or jacket.”
“I do, actually, just not here. I’ll be fine.”
Dave the bartender shook his head and walked away. “Your funeral.”
I poured my first drink since passing out in the street and downed it gratefully. The taste was terrible, and it burned my stomach like someone had poured gasoline down my throat and lit it, but it slowed my heart rate almost immediately. I thought back to the days before the Outbreak, and how heavily bartenders could be fined for serving people under the age of 21. Now, no one seemed to care. If you could reach over the bar, you were old enough to drink.
The soldier who had helped me inside finished his mug of hot herbal tea and stopped by my table. “You going to be okay?”
I nodded. “Doing much better now, thank you. Care for a drink?”
“Can’t. I’m on duty.”
“You see any uniforms around here?”
He smiled. “How are your feet?”
Now that I had warmed up some, I could feel them again. They had not been exposed long enough for frostbite to set in, but they still ached. “Hurts, but I’ll survive. Come on, let me pour you a drink.”
He shook his head, still smiling. “I can’t stand that stuff. Grog, I mean.”
I looked down at my glass. “It’s not so bad once you get used to it.”
“I have to go back out on patrol. You have a good evening, sir.”
I watched as he walked out the door and held it open while another man walked in. The newcomer thanked the soldier politely, walked up to the bar, and ordered water and a bowl of soup.
The dining room was not large. Maybe thirty feet by twenty feet, not including the bar. From where I sat, I could see a glint of metal around the newcomer’s neck, a necklace with a gold medallion that looked familiar. I tossed my drink back, poured another one, and tried to remember where I had seen it before. With all the drinking I had been doing lately, my brain was in a constant fog. The only modes I operated in anymore were drunk, hung over, or suffering from withdrawal symptoms. Cognitive gymnastics that were once easy now took time and great effort to accomplish. So I sat, and drank, and stared, and halfway through the bottle, I remembered where I had seen the medallion.
I could not move for a while. The rage was too intense. I did not dare look in the direction of the bar lest I alert the man eating his soup. But my mind was moving, and moving quickly. I put the cork in the bottle and carried it across the room in my stocking feet.
“I think I’ve had enough for tonight,” I told Dave the bartender. “Mind keeping this behind the bar for me?”
He took it and placed it on a shelf under the bar. “Not at all. What name should I put it under?”
“Bacchus.”
He grabbed a notepad and pencil. “How do you spell that?”
I told him, then asked if the offer to utilize his bath was still valid. He said it was, and offered to have someone wash my clothes for me.
“You got a runner around here?”
“I do.”
I handed him the key to my shipping container. “Send him to get me some new clothes and a pair of boots. Shouldn’t take him more than about ten minutes. I live close by here.”
“Will do.” He shouted for someone named Nicky, and a moment later a skinny kid no older than thirteen showed up at the bar. He took the key and the instructions, and turned to leave. I grabbed him by the arm on the way by and informed him I knew exactly where everything was in my home, and if anything went missing, I knew where to find him. “I ain’t no thief,” the kid said defiantly. “I earn my way.”
“Keep that attitude and we’ll get along just fine.”
As the kid took off, I motioned the bartender to lean closer. He held his breath, but complied. “That guy at the end of the bar? Keep him here. Offer him a drink, tell him … tell him a guy was in here a little while ago, paid for the drink, then got in an argument with his woman and left before you had a chance to serve it.”
Dave’s eyes narrowed. “I ain’t lookin’ to get myself in no trouble, kid.”
“No trouble, mister. It’s just I think I know him from back before the Outbreak, and I don’t want him to see me like this. I doubt he’ll recognize me in this condition.”
The eyes stayed narrow. I reached in my money belt, took out a plastic bag full of instant coffee packets, palmed it, and slid it across the bar. “For your trouble. And there’s more where that came from.”
After a moment’s hesitation, he took the coffee and whispered, “Anything happens to that guy, and people come around askin’, I’m gonna tell ‘em the truth. You hear?”
“Understood.”
He grunted and moved away. At a signal from Dave, an older woman who had been wiping tables came over and told me to follow her. She led me into the back and set two metal buckets of water on a pot-bellied stove, then handed me a washcloth, a dry towel, a comb, and a ball of homemade soap. I sponged myself down with warm water, wet the rag and the soap, and spent the better part of ten minutes scrubbing myself from head to toe. I even managed to get all the crust out of my beard. The comb looked clean enough, but just to be sure, I cleaned it in one of the buckets before running it through my hair. I had just finished toweling off when the old woman knocked on the door.
“You decent?”
I wrapped the towel around myself. “Come on in.”
She came inside and retrieved the two buckets, the soap, the comb, and the washcloth. “What do you want me to do with your old clothes?”
“Burn them.”
A nod. “Probably for the best.”
A minute or two later, the runner boy, Nicky, knocked at the door. I let him in, and he handed me my clothes and the key to my home. His eyes widened as they roved over the scars on my torso. A few seconds passed while I waited for him to leave, but he didn’t budge. I snapped my fingers in his face. “Got a staring problem, kid?”
He flushed, said, “Sorry sir,” and ran off.
A quick peek in the mirror told me I had accomplished my goal. Anyone who saw me walk out the front door would not recognize me as the same man who went in.
I dressed hurriedly and went back into the dining room. The newcomer with the medallion was still seated at the bar nursing a glass of grog. I nodded to the bartender on the way out, walked a block down the street, and ducked into an alley.
Now it was a waiting game. If the table of men who eyed my trade so jealously were really going to rob me, they would not wait long to come out. Too much chance of losing my trail. Perhaps a minute ticked by, and sure enough, I saw all three of them emerge from the tavern.