I just made a face, and said, "I'm sure you had much better things to do in London. I was mostly holed up in the archive all weekend, anyway."
"Colin felt awful about having to run off like that."
I shrugged. "Not a biggie. It was very nice of him to let me come at such short notice in the first place."
"And, of course, he had excellent reason for leaving," put in Mrs. Harrington.
Did he? I looked at her in surprise. What was I missing?
"I hope your mother is mending nicely," she said to Serena. "I was so concerned."
Mending? Concerned?
Serena nodded earnestly. "Thank you. It was very kind of you to send flowers."
"It was the least I could do."
Like a gallumping lummox, I barged into the conversation. "Has your mother been ill?"
"Didn't Colin tell you?" Serena looked genuinely surprised. "I had thought, when he left…"
I shook my head in negation and tried to arrange my features into a proper expression of polite concern. I was beginning to wish I had held on to that vodka. Tendrils of apprehension unfolded in my stomach like the vines of a killer jungle plant.
"Serena's mother was in an auto accident," Mrs. Harrington filled in for her. "In Venice, wasn't it?"
"Siena."
"Oh, dear," I said. Anything else seemed entirely inadequate. "I'm so sorry."
"It was just bruises," Serena hastened to assure me. "And a broken rib."
"Oh, dear," I repeated numbly. "How awful."
"Those are the sorts of phone calls," said Mrs. Harrington, her eyes going automatically to Pammy, entertaining a crowd of coworkers across the room, "that one never wants to get."
"I can't even begin to imagine," I said.
Only I could.
We had just come in from that crazy drinks party at Donwell Abbey when Colin's mobile had rung. I remembered the moment distinctly. He had taken one look at the number, wished me an abrupt good-night, and hared off. At the time I had assumed it was simply because he didn't want anything more to do with me.
"I couldn't go, but Colin caught the first flight he could find. He stayed the week with her." Serena fingered the fringe of her pashmina, her bowed head an eloquent expression of guilt.
She wasn't the only one feeling guilty.
It must have been about six hours after the phone call that Colin had found me in the library and asked if I could be ready to leave in fifteen minutes. That intervening time took new shape in my imagination. I could picture Colin hunched over the computer, cell phone crammed against one ear, veering back and forth between making travel plans, keeping tabs on events in the hospital, and updating an anxious Serena. All alone in the middle of the night, with his mother lying injured in a foreign country and the minutes ticking inexorably away, while he was stuck in Sussex with a snippy houseguest.
I felt like pond scum.
"I'm sure your mother must have understood." I patted her shoulder clumsily. "That must have given you great peace of mind, to know that Colin was there with her."
I was the bacteria that lurked beneath pond scum. No self-respecting pond scum would have anything to do with me.
I'd been so wrapped in my own self-centered mantle of wounded ego that it had never occurred to me that something might be genuinely wrong. Something real, and life-threatening, and frightening. Something that had nothing to do with me, or aborted flirtations, or silly crushes.
I tried to imagine how I would react if I heard that my mother was injured—possibly badly—in a foreign country. Even the thought of it made me jittery.
"But she's better now?" I pressed.
"Much," said Serena resolutely. "And her husband is there with her."
Not "my father." Just "her husband." It had never occurred to me to ask about Colin's family situation. I suppose if I had thought about it at all, I would have just assumed that he had sprung fully formed out of Selwick Hall, like Minerva from Jove's head.
"Where is Colin?" I asked, craning my neck toward the bar.
I had a vague notion of…I don't know. Expressing my sympathies? Apologizing? It was nothing that coherent, more a generalized sense of wanting to make amends, although for precisely what, I couldn't say. After all, I couldn't very well apologize to Colin for being pissy with him because I thought he had snubbed me if a) he hadn't realized that I was being pissy, and b) he had no idea that I'd thought he had snubbed me. It was all a huge muddle.
He wasn't at the bar anymore, and I didn't see him in any of the small knots of people clustered around the front room. It didn't matter; I would have plenty of time over the multicourse Thanksgiving dinner to make up for past behavior by being punctiliously pleasant. I would be a model of grace and charm. Well, charm at least.
"There he is!" Serena, who had been scanning the room, looking for her brother, nodded toward the arched doorway that led into the front hall. As I watched, Colin's broad back disappeared into the hallway that had been conscripted as a cloakroom. "He's just leaving."
Chapter Twenty-four
Come home with me.
Geoff's words hung suspended in the air between them, as real a presence as the pattern of green vines twining beneath their feet, and just as knotty. Letty would have liked to know just what he meant by "with." Such a simple little preposition, and yet so fraught with possible meaning. At least, it might be fraught. Or it might not. And there was the problem in a nutshell. They were friends again, certainly, after their little spat a mere two hours before. But whether they were anything more…
"I don't even know where home is. Your home, I mean."
Geoff's long fingers rested comfortably against the edge of the dresser, but his eyes were fixed quite steadily on her. Unreadable, as always. There were distinct disadvantages to being married to a master spy.
"At present, a place on loan from a chap who's in London for the Season. You'll be quite safe there."
"But what about Lord Vaughn? If he knows we're married…"
Geoff's cheeks creased with sudden amusement. "All the more reason that he wouldn't look for you there."
"True."
"Then we're agreed?"
She hadn't moved and Geoff's hand still rested casually against the dresser, but the space between them suddenly felt a great deal smaller.
"Geoffrey?" Jane's curls poked around the edge of the door, hovering about five and a half feet up the doorjamb, as though the door had suddenly sprouted a beard. The rest of Jane followed more slowly.
"The carriage is waiting downstairs," she said, standing just within the doorway. "Letty, you do know that you are welcome to stay here?"
"That's quite all right." Letty kept her voice carefully neutral, and didn't look at Geoff. "I've made other arrangements."
Jane's eyes crinkled. "I rather thought you might." Gesturing them to the stairs with the poise of a well-practiced hostess, she added, "I will expect you here tomorrow at half-three. We can discuss costuming then."
"Costuming?" Letty couldn't quite keep the trepidation out of her voice.
"We can't very well call on Lord Vaughn as ourselves," Jane said matter-of-factly. "People might talk."
"Which selves?" asked Letty.
"Either," replied Geoff. His hand lingered on the small of her back as he helped her into the carriage, burning into her back like a brand. His voice was warm and amused beside her ear. "Unless you've developed some others recently you haven't mentioned yet?"
"I'm considering it," Letty said, and felt, more than heard, his faint chuckle as he boosted her into her seat.
"Tomorrow," said Jane cheerfully, retreating to the front steps and waving as the carriage door clicked closed.
Settling down into the seat next to her, Geoff spread out across it with the ineffable ability of the male to occupy as much space as possible, legs stretched out in front of him and one arm spanning the back of the seat.