‘I never mind seeing you, you know that.’ He didn’t ask her why she hid in the shadows or why she didn’t go to greet Minikin. Instead he reached out and took down her hood. Amazingly, she allowed this. ‘But you’re breaking your promise. You know our agreement. I don’t want you to hide yourself, not from me.’
Her burned face revealed, she did not look away. ‘I. . have missed you.’
Lukien smiled. ‘It’s good to be missed.’
‘I’m glad you’re all right,’ she added quickly. ‘When you’re gone I worry.’ The love in her voice was plain. It hurt Lukien to hear it, because he knew it was love he could never return. ‘You shouldn’t worry,’ he told her. ‘I can look after myself, and this damn amulet makes sure nothing happens to me.’ Putting his hand to his breast, he could feel the Eye of God pulsate on his skin. ‘I couldn’t hurt myself if I wanted to.’
‘You should not jest like that,’ said Meriel. ‘Even the amulet cannot protect you from everything. I think you should care more about dying, Lukien.’
‘And I think you should care more about living, Meriel.’
The words weren’t meant to hurt, but Lukien could tell he’d struck the young woman. She glanced away, turning her unmaimed side toward him. For a moment Lukien thought to apologise, but quickly changed his mind. He had always been firm with Meriel, even in his kindness. It was what she needed, he had decided, whether she loved him or not.
‘I’m looking for Thorin,’ he said. ‘Have you seen him?’
Meriel nodded. ‘He was with me before. He came to tell me you were coming home.’
‘Where is he now, do you know?’
Meriel kept her face turned away. ‘He went to his rooms, I think.’
‘Look at me,’ said Lukien. Gently he took her chin and turned her face forward. She was always sadly pliant to his touch. ‘Remember, we don’t turn away from each other.’
Meriel nodded. ‘Go and find Thorin. He left me in a foul mood. He’ll be glad to see you.’
‘We will talk tomorrow, then,’ said Lukien. ‘If you like, I will take you for a ride, just the two of us.’
The woman’s expression brightened. ‘I would like that.’
‘Then we shall do it, I promise,’ said Lukien. He felt better, though it was because he’d slaked his guilt. ‘It’s late. I need food and rest and I need them now. But first I need to find Thorin.’ He turned as he wished Meriel a restful evening. ‘I will see you in the morning.’
Leaving behind the crowded hall, the knight went in search of Baron Glass, to tell him the news of the Liirian Seekers.
Meriel watched Lukien disappear through the crowd and exit the great hall. She was oblivious to the people around her, not even aware that her cowl was down and her face on full display. Tomorrow, she would have time with Lukien alone. Her mind turned quickly to her appearance, how best to improve it by the morrow. She knew no spells to turn her ugliness to beauty, though, and this discouraged her. All that she could do was make fire with her hands and burn herself. It saddened her that she didn’t have an Akari that could change the way she looked, or even make herself invisible. The albino Ghost had such an Akari, and he was hardly as ugly as she.
‘Sarlvarian, I love you,’ she whispered.
Her Akari was silent.
‘Do not hate me for thinking such things, I beg you.’
Still Sarlvarian said nothing, not even making his presence known with the smallest tremble.
‘I would not want to lose you. You must know that.’
Finally the spirit spoke, striking deep, almost painfully in her brain. I am not an old pair of shoes, Meriel. I am not to be bartered.
Guilt overwhelmed Meriel. She wanted to say something — anything — to placate the Akari, but it would be a lie and Sarlvarian knew her thoughts anyway.
Yet she was tantalised. If there were Akari to make a man invisible, could there be those to make her beautiful? To replace her scars forever, even with a magic mask? Meriel didn’t know. But she had learned one thing during her years in Grimhold — with the Akari, anything seemed possible.
8
In Norvor, word travelled northward of King Lorn’s demise, and with it travelled Lorn himself, out of the Bleak Territories and into the Novo Valley, over the river Kryss and — at last — into Liiria. Along with his infant daughter, he had listened to the rumours following him from town to town, proclaiming his death in a great battle against Jazana Carr or his suicide in Carlion or his last, tearful words before being executed. But to Lorn’s great relief, none of the rumours had him travelling to war-torn Liiria.
It had taken weeks for Lorn and Poppy to reach Liiria. His first horse had expired in the Bleak Territories and he had been forced to walk with the infant in his arms until he was able to steal another. His money — that which he had carried out of Carlion or stolen off the Rolgans he had killed that very first day — had been very nearly exhausted by the time he and Poppy reached Liiria’s first city, Andola. By then his beard had grown back and the filth of the road had covered his face. He was no longer afraid of being recognised because he no longer looked anything like a king. On the border of Norvor and Liiria, near a tumultuous part of the river Kryss, he and Poppy rested in Andola. There he spent the last of his silver coins on a room and good food, and did not venture outside again for days. Both of them exhausted, they slept and enjoyed the roof over their heads, eating more than their fill because they were both half-starved. The innkeeper, a stout, pleasant woman named Hella, took care of Poppy and bathed her. Because the city was run by a notorious merchant-baron, a warlord who had sprung up in the chaos of the old king’s death, the innkeeper was accustomed to close-mouthed patrons and asked no questions of her guests, a trait for which Lorn was grateful.
After his spell in the city, Lorn discovered he didn’t want to leave Andola. Poppy seemed happy there, oblivious to the war raging around her, and Lorn felt safe in the chaos. Chaos was the very reason he had come to Liiria. He had known that no one would follow him here or be able to locate him among the mercenaries and their employers, all vying for little bits of the shattered kingdom. On his third night in Andola, Lorn finally left the shabby inn and walked the city streets. Once, when Akeela had been king, Andola had been a jewel on the riverbank, a hub of commerce second only to Koth, Liiria’s capital. As he walked with the moonlight on his shoulders, Lorn could see the remnants of what Andola had been, its grand old buildings now gutted by fire, its gardened avenues trampled by warhorses and siege machines. The highest building in the city — that of Ravel the Merchant-Baron — glowered over the streets like a brooding gargoyle perched on a hill. Lorn paused in the middle of a trash-strewn street to stare at it. Suddenly, he was overcome with melancholy.
‘Usurper,’ he muttered. Like Jazana Carr. Ravel and others like him picked at the bones of Liiria, fighting among themselves for scraps of flesh and gold dust. Andola was Ravel’s now, but he had designs on Koth as well. The two cities had already clashed in the year since King Akeela’s death; that news had reached Lorn all the way in Carlion. Lorn shook his head as he stared at Ravel’s impressive home. It was a mammoth place, not tall but wide, the kind of villa Norvan merchants favoured before they’d lost all their wealth in the civil war. A snaking road led up the hill to the home’s ornate gate, but beyond that much of the place was hidden behind trees and gardens. Lorn imagined the house’s owner, said to be a fat, pampered fop with too much money and too much ambition. Lorn had no use for usurpers. As he stood there, he imagined the day when Jazana Carr’s army would rumble through Andola and disembowel the merchant-baron.
But that was months off yet, certainly, and King Lorn the Wicked still had much to do. Penniless, he walked back to his little room at the inn and found Hella with Poppy, the infant asleep in a cradle the portly woman had loaned him. There was sadness in her eyes when Lorn returned; she enjoyed having a child in her house again, but knew that Poppy would soon be leaving. Lorn said nothing to her as he entered the chamber, keeping the door open behind him. It was very late and he expected Hella to go at once. When she lingered, he grew annoyed.