“You thought you were somewhere else?” asked Ella.
“That’s right. I thought I was back at Star Yard. The place where Julia was supposed to meet the man from Wheatstone Electrics.”
“I was there too,” said Nancy. “It was so clear… I believed I was really there.”
“Didn’t you see it?” Josh asked Ella.
“No … I stayed here to make sure that you both came back. You have to be careful, when you start messing around with potions like that.”
“I went to Star Yard and then I went through a kind of a narrow alleyway and found myself someplace else.”
“You actually went through the alleyway?” said Nancy. “I didn’t. I just stayed in Star Yard. I guess I was too frightened to go any further.”
“So what does it all mean?” Josh wanted to know. “I went through the alleyway and met some guy with a hood over his face … just like the Hooded Men in the nursery-rhyme picture.”
“Do you know what you were seeing?” said Ella. “You had Julia’s ectoplasm flowing through your bloodstream, and what you were seeing was what Julia wanted you to see. She was showing you the way to discover how she died. She was showing you the way through.”
“So that alleyway in Star Yard … that’s one of the ‘six doors’?”
“Perhaps. It’s certainly the way through to somewhere.”
“But we checked it out. It’s nothing but a blank wall.”
“You need a ritual. You need some way to get through. Jack be nimble. Jack be quick. Perhaps you don’t need to do anything more than light a candle.”
“Supposing that’s nothing but a children’s song? Suppose that alleyway doesn’t lead to anyplace at all?”
“Then I don’t know, Josh. I’ve done my best for you. When it comes to the spirit world, there aren’t any tour guides. The Hereafter on Five Dollars a Day. You have to find your own way.”
Another extravagant burst of thunder made the lamp shake and the ornaments rattle. There was a few seconds’ pause, and then the rain began to beat so furiously on the roof outside the window that spray came through the open window and sparkled on Ella’s geranium plants.
Josh said, “You’re right. You’ve been a great help, Ella. But I guess we’re on our own, from here on in.” He took his billfold out of his back jeans pocket and took out a twenty pound note. “Listen … we have to give you something for doing this. You don’t normally hold séances free of charge, do you?”
“I can’t take your money, Josh. I did this for Julia.”
“Come on. Buy something for Abraxas if you won’t take it for yourself. I’m sure Julia would have wanted you to have it.”
“You don’t know yet, what Julia wants. When you find out, come back to me.”
“You’re sure?” said Josh, offering her the note again.
“If you’ve really discovered one of the six doors, there’s a chance that I won’t ever see you again, not in this life. So try to remember that you owe me twenty pounds. It’ll give you one more reason for coming back.”
Nancy came up and took hold of Josh’s arm. “Josh …it’s getting late. I think it’s time we left.”
“Yes, you go on and catch up on some sleep,” said Ella, kissing Josh on the cheek.
“I’m sorry I made such a mess. Puking and all.”
“That wasn’t your fault. Anyway, puke is easier to clean up than ectoplasm.”
It was still raining hard so Ella lent them a large yellow umbrella. She took them down to the front door, and kissed both of them again.
Josh said, “What happened up there, that was real, wasn’t it? I didn’t dream it?”
Ella’s eyes shone white in the gloom of the porch. “What happened up there, Josh, was the realest thing that you’ve ever experienced in the whole of your life. I swear to you.”
Josh’s throat was sore and swollen, and even though he gargled with dispersible aspirin before he went to bed, he hardly slept.
When he did manage to doze off, he had endless unraveling dreams about walking down narrow London alleyways, left and then right and then left and then right and never reaching the end. In his dreams it was raining hard and he was forced to wade knee-deep through wet leaves and trash. He saw something that looked like a note or a letter, and he bent over to pick it up. It turned out to be a cream-colored cigarette packet called Player’s Weights. Josh briefly wondered what kind of cigarettes would be referred to as “weights”; he dropped the packet and carried on wading through the rubbish.
A nagging voice kept saying, “You lost something, mate? You lost something, mate? You want to watch yourself, mate. You’re looking for trouble, you are. You want to watch yourself.”
He tried to reply but his lips felt as if they had been anesthetized.
“You want to watch yourself, mate,” the voice persisted.
“You’re going to get yourself in shtoock, you are. You’re going to end up brown bread.”
Nancy slept soundly and silently as she always did. Just after seven o’clock, a warm sun began to shine through the open-weave drapes, and Josh drew them back to look out over a bright cloudless morning in West London, with the sparrows chirruping and the traffic already busy. Down in one of the gardens below, a man in a grubby undershirt and gray pants was admiring a row of beans and smoking a cigarette. Josh sat down on the bed next to Nancy and stroked her tangled shiny hair. Eventually he bent over and kissed her on the forehead and the tip of the nose and she opened her eyes.
“Wake up,” he told her. “It’s a beautiful day.”
She turned over and smiled at him. “I was having such an amazing dream. I was back home, in my mother’s house, and all of my relations were there. My grandfather and my grandmother, my aunts and my uncles, my nieces and nephews, everybody.”
“It’s good to have your family reunions in dreams. It sure saves on air fares.”
“I could never have had this reunion anyplace else. My grandparents are dead, remember? So are three of my uncles.”
“So what was the occasion?”
“I’m not really sure. It was kind of a farewell party.”
“A farewell party? For who?”
“For me, I guess. Everybody came up one by one and kissed me on the cheeks and gave me a little gift.”
Josh couldn’t fully understand why, but Nancy’s dream made him feel worried. He switched on the television news while he showered and dressed. A car bomb in Ulster had killed a well-known woman lawyer. The European Commission had imposed a ban on British-cured prosciutto. American warplanes had attacked Iraq and accidentally blown up a school, killing twenty-three children.
He put on a plain blue shirt and a pair of blue jeans. Nancy wore a simple maroon dress with a matching headscarf and all of her Modoc jewelry, silver and turquoise and red enamel. They went down to the hotel restaurant. The rosy-cheeked girl behind the counter asked Josh if he wanted his “full English” again, but he contented himself with a peach yogurt. He still felt sick at the thought of bringing up Julia’s lung.
“You’re quiet,” said Nancy during breakfast, laying her hand on top of his.
“I was thinking about that old woman in the hospital. I mean, do you think that was a coincidence, her telling me that rhyme about the six doors? It’s almost as if she was planted there.”
“Planted? An old woman like that? Who would do that? And why?”
“We never would have known about the six doors otherwise, would we? It’s like that movie about the Twelve Monkeys. I just get the feeling that somebody wanted us to find out about them.”
“Then they would have called us up or left us a note, wouldn’t they? Not sent a hundred-year-old woman to tell us a Mother Goose rhyme.”