That had been in the morning’s cold, with the unrisen sun spinning gold filigree along the horizon, layering it on the night’s hoar frost. We had ridden out of the camp double-cloaked, with our horses’ feet bound for silence, and our spears wrapped to keep them from shining as they had when we crossed the bridge; what had been an omen yesterday was treachery in the making today.
We carried no stakes, and knives instead of shields; Horgias was slowly turning us all into barbarians. But good barbarians; we had tracked a half-century of the IVth and they never knew we were there. And now the Parthians did not know we had watched their slaughter.
‘Let’s go.’ I touched Tears on the arm, and, with Horgias at my other side, we wormed backwards down a long, shallow incline, to the river at its foot where our horses were hobbled.
They knew better than to greet us with noise, but the bay mare blew a steaming breath into the nook of my neck. She liked it, I think, when we bound her feet. Whatever thehazards of walking — and they were manifold, and worse at the canter — she enjoyed the delicacy that was asked of her.
And so, quietly, led by Horgias, we stole out of the hollow. At a safe distance, we stopped to strip the horses’ feet that we might gallop the twelve miles back across the plain to the camp where Cadus waited to greet us. He was not alone.
‘All dead?’ Paetus asked me; I had been the notional leader.
‘All,’ I said. ‘And stripped of their armour. We would have gone to their aid but-’
‘But I had ordered against it.’ Cadus stepped up to my side. ‘Without these three there to observe, the centurion and half his men would just have been lost and we would have known nothing of it.’
I said, ‘The good news is that the Parthians were not yet near the Lizard Pass. They won’t reach it until tomorrow, longer if they stay and celebrate their victory.’
‘Vologases knows we’re here,’ Horgias said. ‘He has no need to hurry.’
‘How?’ Paetus glared at us, as if all three of us had just confessed to treachery. ‘How does he know we are here?’
‘We killed one of his scouts on our way out,’ I said. ‘But where there is one, there will have been others. They couldn’t miss two legions. And the smoke of your cooking fire would tell them soon enough.’
We of the XIIth had no fires: we ate cold food night and morning. But Paetus had refused to forgo his fire, even here, with the enemy a day’s ride away; less.
The look he gave me was poisonous, but what could he do? I stared at the ground and said nothing, and in the end Paetus turned away. To Cadus, he said, ‘Have my commanders meet in my tent immediately.’ And he was gone.
We waited again, while our officers tried to talk sense into a senseless general. To pass the time I checked the bay mare’sfeet for stones, and groomed her and gave her some hard feed, for I had a feeling we might be moving fast, and while I marched she was made to run alongside the supply wagons like a cart hound.
‘Demalion?’ Lupus was grey-white, tinged red at the edges of his temples.
‘What news?’
He shook his head and strode on past. ‘Find Tears and Horgias. Bring them to the tent lines. You all need to hear it at once.’
Tears and Horgias weren’t far; each was tending to his horse. At the tents, we met the other four of our unit and the rest of our century and arranged ourselves as if on parade. Here, now, it mattered to us that we were sharp and well drilled; it gave us a sense of our own professionalism.
‘Governor Paetus…’ Lupus closed his eyes that we might not read the rage in them. ‘Governor Paetus has informed us that he will return to our camp at Rhandaea with the Fourth legion, there to build the palisades and set up defences sufficient to deter the enemy. He will take with him the Eagles, and keep them safe, so that if a legion is lost it can be re-formed, and its honour may live on.’
There was a moment’s silence as we all wrestled with the impossibility of what we had heard. The IVth leaving. And the Eagles going with them so that if a legion — our legion, there was no other one — was ‘lost’, which is to say annihilated, destroyed to the last man…
And that’s when our discipline broke apart.
‘ What? ’
‘He can’t-’
‘How can we fight without the Eagle?’
And out of the clamour, my voice, rising, ‘Lord, we can’t fight without the Eagle. It’s impossible.’
Lupus stared us down. ‘You think yourselves so weak? Soin need of aid that you cannot fight alone? I would say rather, how can we carry the Eagle to certain defeat? If it is taken to safety, then the legion still lives. Even if we all die, it will be re-formed. If, out of our own weakness, we keep it here, and it is taken by the Parthians, the Twelfth itself is lost. We will have the two companies of archers with us, which should help to hold the pass.’
‘But why are we staying? I don’t understand. What’s the point?’
Lupus held up his hand before another storm of questions could arise.
‘Paetus has had word from Corbulo that help is on its way. We have to delay the Parthians until that help can arrive. To that end, we, the Bloody Twelfth, with our cavalry and our Pannonian archers, will hold Lizard Pass for as long as we may, to buy that time. We know that the Parthians are not inclined to sit protracted sieges, that they will have poor supplies with them and no way of gaining any now that winter is at hand. We, on the other hand, have sufficient supplies at Rhandaea to feed two legions for six months.’
And only one legion left to eat its way through them, for we will be dead.
We each thought it, none of us said it; you could taste the words on the air. We will be dead. And without our Eagle.
‘Quite so.’ Lupus gave his half-smile, and today it was almost paternal. ‘But we shall fight under the standards of our own cohorts. Those no man can take from us, save by our deaths, and I promise you we shall sell our lives dearly, and with honour. Cadus asked for this, and it was granted. The Twelfth shall be known as the legion that held back the Parthian cataphracts while others marched to safety.’
‘Like Leonidas’ Spartans at Thermopylae?’ Syrion said drily. We were not Spartans, and Paetus was assuredly not a king. Laughter rose from the ranks, crisp as winter leaves, but real; after all the battles in which death was possible, but not certain, there was an odd freedom that came from the certainty of this one.
‘Exactly like.’ Lupus matched our tone. ‘You have until the next watch to prepare. Whatever you do, in the gods’ name, don’t let the priests attempt another sacrifice.’
We broke camp together and set off in our opposite directions: we of the XIIth and our allies marched east, towards the rising sun, combat and honour; the IVth went west, to the setting sun, to ignominy and a wealth of digging. We sang as we marched. They did not.
Our horses were the happier too, and their number was increased by an old war-scarred gelding that carried Paetus’ colours who broke ranks and cantered back to us, to join the fighting. We greeted him as a valued friend, and let him stay, and sent the colours back on a younger beast, though not one of my bay mare’s colts; those all stayed with us.
The men of letters in Rome who have never ventured beyond the shores of Italy nor ever held a blade in anger will tell you that this was our third bad omen; that after the failed sacrifice and the way the sun caught our spears as we followed Paetus out of the winter camp, the retreat of the colours was the seal on our doom.
But we who marched east believed that the faulty sacrifice belonged to the IVth legion, that the flashing spears were for our victory and that an old war horse choosing to join us was the best omen we had seen all day, and that was with each of us scouring the skies for crows caught in groups of auspicious number, for circling hawks, or vultures. We saw none of those, but we set the aged war horse to our fore, ridden by one of the centurions, and chose to forget that our Eagle had left us.