“Ryan...it’s...I feel embarrassed.”
I kissed the inside of her leg, inching closer up her thigh. “You have no reason to. Let your legs fall open and let me taste you.”
For a second, I didn’t think she was going to but then she moaned in surrender and spread her legs wider.
Chapter Ten
TANA
When Ryan’s tongue first touched me, I shoved back with my feet so hard I nearly tipped the chair over but he didn’t miss a beat. He reached up with one hand and held the chair in place. He sucked on the aching, needy flesh as I cupped my hands on his head, then his shoulders. I slid down in the chair, offering myself up to him. Working his tongue, he explored every inch of me and I’d never felt more exposed or worshipped.
The intense burning in my veins built into a powerful force and then exploded into release, shattering me into a million fragments, with each piece dragged out of me until it felt as if I was collapsing in on myself. My bones and muscles were liquid as I slowly came back to earth. Now I knew why everyone talked about an orgasm like it was the greatest thing in the world. It was the highest high I’d ever had.
All I could do was whimper as Ryan continued to devour me with his tongue. When he sucked on my clit, I screamed his name as I dug my fingernails into his shoulders and exploded again. I didn’t even have the energy to pull my skirt down to cover myself when Ryan finally stood. I couldn’t look away from him. That he had the power to completely unhinge me shocked me.
“I’m going to take your skirt off now. Are you okay?”
I swallowed and managed to nod.
He found the zipper at the back of my skirt and in seconds I was naked before him. He looked at me, his eyes roaming my entire body. “You’re perfect.”
With hands that still had trouble cooperating, I took the hem of his shirt and he wordlessly raised his arms, helping me take it off. I flattened my hands over his tattoos. Like him, they were complex, hinting at the darkness within him. Slowly, I trailed my fingers over his pecs to his rigid six pack before I touched his belt buckle and tugged at it. As soon as I opened it, I reached for the zipper of his jeans and worked it downward, having to press a little to get the zipper past the bulging erection.
He stepped free of his jeans and I hesitated. This was it. The final line we’d cross and there would be no going back. The thought of losing my virginity didn’t make me hesitate. Becoming Ryan’s did. Because I knew once his body was part of mine, it would be impossible to separate either one without ripping out our souls.
“If you want to stop now, we can,” he said.
I blinked and the mental image dissipated. “No...I want this.” I took the side of his underwear and pulled.
When I caught the first sight of his nakedness, it was hard not to feel a little afraid. Ryan definitely had bragging rights there. I wrapped my fingers around the thick flesh, carefully squeezing. Ryan groaned and pulled me closer, pressing his naked skin against mine. I walked backward to the bed and climbed on.
He followed, then raised himself above me, his arm muscles tense with keeping his body aloft. His gorgeous eyes filled with want and concern. “Last chance, Tana. Once it’s done, you can’t take it back.”
I pushed up high enough for my nipples to brush his chest. “You talk too much.”
He bowed his head and kissed me and I knew he was holding back trying to be careful but I wanted him inside of me. I wanted to drive him as crazy as he had me and set the wildness in him free. “Ryan...just do it,” I urged, reaching down between our bodies in an attempt to grasp his penis.
He stopped my hand. “We have to take it slow. I don’t want to hurt you.”
“I already know you won’t be able to help hurting me. The first time is always rough. So just let yourself go.”
“No. I’ll rip you apart, Tana.”
He touched the edge of himself to my entrance just enough for the tip to go in but wouldn’t go further and my body tightened around him. His penis felt thick and hot inside of me. I clenched at the invasion.
“Don’t do that. Relax your muscles or it’ll hurt worse.”
I took a breath and relaxed and he eased in a little more. It was uncomfortable, but not painful. I braced and closed my eyes.
“Open your eyes, Tana. I want you to look into my eyes the moment I’m all the way in because for that moment, you’re mine.”
I opened my eyes and he pushed slowly inside all the way, his body filling mine with his hardness. It hurt and I couldn’t help but cry out but then it was done. I was officially not a virgin. I thought that was it, that it couldn’t get better than this one on one connection with him, but then Ryan started to move and my blood began its heated boil all over again. I thrilled in the weight of him pressing me down into the mattress, in the strength of his body unyielding over mine.
I ran my hands down the smooth muscles of his back. I couldn’t get close enough to him. He eased in and out, stroking my begging flesh with his rigid erection. “Ryan...Ryan...please.”
“What do you want, baby?”
“You. Please.” He was still holding back, still not letting the beast in him free. I lifted my legs, wrapping them around the back of his thighs. He kissed me, swallowing my begging. With each thrust, my nipples slid up and down against his rock solid chest. The same peak toward an orgasm built again and when it finally dragged me over the top, Ryan drove his body into mine in a frenzy, then his orgasm spilled hot and fast into me. He groaned then caught my lips under his, taking and giving before he lifted his head and looked down at me.
His beautiful eyes were wide with an emotion I couldn’t understand. I would have been content to stay with our bodies locked, but Ryan rolled off onto his back beside me. He gave a long exhale as if he’d been holding his breath.
I choked off the words, “I love you” because I wasn’t sure if I was caught up in the moment or if it was really my heart speaking.
Besides, I knew it would be the worst thing I could possibly say to him. So I settled for moving closer to his side and throwing my arm across his chest. After a second, his arm came down around my shoulders and he pulled me into him.
*
RYAN
The text message jerked me back to reality. I’d mixed heaven with hell by taking Tana’s virginity. I’d known it the moment I’d felt the barrier give way to the head of my dick. Moving inside of her, feeling her vagina grip me had been the greatest pleasure I’d ever experienced. Not because she’d never been with anyone before. But because with Tana’s friendship, the little boy in me had found a home, a place to belong, something I’d always searched for. But in Tana’s arms, the man I was knew that for her sake, I had to leave that home.
I’d rather have one of my nuts taken off with a rusty knife than to hurt her, but that’s what I had to do. What the hell had I done? Once with her and already I’d developed an addiction. It had always been easy to give my body. I’d thought that was all it was going to be with Tana. She wasn’t supposed to be inside me, filling me with hope and possibility for being the kind of man who’d be worthy of her. I fucking knew better than that.
Unable to sleep, I’d waited until I’d seen the first peak of daylight begin to start my day because I wanted to let Tana sleep. I’d exhausted her. I could see the evidence of being with me on her skin in the faint stubble burn on her neck, on the red marks on her breasts and on the fingerprints marring her hips. I’d lost control with her and that wasn’t supposed to happen.
I was in the shower, lost in thought of what a damn fool I was when the curtain pulled back. I swung my head around and Tana looked at me. Her dark eyes were shy, uncertain. Her lips curved into a slight smile and memories flickered in her gaze as she flushed. She’d woken a couple of times during the night and I’d taken her in ways that could teach kama sutra a lesson.