They talked about old times. Past facts were much easier, it seemed, than the ambiguities of the present. The past, it was so distant, they’d been different people then, they could point at themselves in astonishment, disbelief almost, they could view it all without becoming too involved, like some TV drama. It was clear that Maria knew next to nothing about Vasco’s activities. Nor had she any desire to know. So long as the money came in, she was happy. As to where that money came from, it was neither here nor there, it was geography, and geography, that was such a boring subject.
‘He was so bad in those days,’ she said at one point, lovingly, ‘so bad, weren’t you?’ her hand sliding across the lace tablecloth, covering his.
‘The things I did,’ and Vasco shook his head. ‘Jed too.’
‘Yeah,’ and Jed, too, shook his head.
After dinner Maria left them alone. Vasco moved to the drinks cabinet and poured himself a tumbler of brandy. He swallowed half of it standing up. Then he sat down in a maroon velvet armchair and began to chew his big square fingernails. He’d been drinking steadily throughout the meal, but he now seemed tenser than ever. Jed waited for Vasco to break out of his silence. He watched as Vasco’s rings threw splinters of rich light against the wall.
‘You wanted to talk to me,’ he said finally.
Vasco almost jumped at the sound of Jed’s voice. ‘Yeah,’ he said. ‘Yeah.’
Jed waited.
‘It’s about the job I got you,’ Vasco said. ‘I’ve been thinking. Maybe I shouldn’t have done it.’
‘I’m glad you did,’ Jed said. ‘It’s a good job.’
‘I don’t know. I may’ve got you into something.’
‘How do you mean?’
Vasco swirled his brandy around. ‘Creed,’ he said. ‘He’s doing some pretty weird stuff.’
‘That’s nothing new, Vasco. We’ve always done —’
Vasco cut him off impatiendy. ‘I’m not talking about that kind of weird stuff.’
‘What then?’
‘Him and the Skull. They’re in it together.’
‘What kind of weird stuff, Vasco?’
‘It’s pretty sick.’ Vasco stood up. ‘I don’t want to talk about it, I just wanted to warn you, you understand?’
‘Oh sure,’ Jed said, ‘sure. I understand.’
But Vasco wasn’t listening. He’d gone to the window and parted the curtains with one hand, and now he was staring out, out into the darkness of the garden.
Jed drove home that night feeling like a man who’s been told he’s going to die but doesn’t know when.
Hard Water
Nathan had only been living in town for a couple of months when he met India-May, but he’d seen her around and he knew what they said. She smoked too much grass, she slept with black men, she wore a silver chain round her ankle that tinkled like the bell-collars you put on cats to stop them catching birds, but it had never stopped her catching anything, that was what they said. The town was called Tomorrow Bay, which was a strange name for a town that didn’t seem to have a future. But it was also the reason why Nathan was there; he’d seen the name on a map and liked the sound of it. So one afternoon he walked into a bar on the south side, one of those dive bars where the air smells singed and all the stools are painted black and smoke curls through their legs as if a dragon’s just breathed out, and there was India-May with her hand round a double gin and when she lifted the glass to her lips the rim hit her teeth and her bangles spilled down her freckled arm and her pale hair dripped into her eyes. She looked reckless and weary. She looked as if all the stories about her were true.
One of the stories happened to be standing right next to her. An old black man whose name, if Nathan overheard it right, was Twilight. He called himself Twilight, he was saying, because that was about where he was in his life, and she stood up and threw her arms around him and told him he was the fine high sun of noon to her, and he just looked at Nathan over her shoulder and rolled his eyes, much as to say she doesn’t know what time of day it is at all.
Twilight left soon afterwards, though she didn’t seem to want him to, and as she turned back to her gin she caught Nathan watching, and called across to him.
‘What’s that you’re drinking?’
‘Coke.’
‘You want a real drink?’
He smiled and shook his head. He told her he drank beer now and then, if he was thirsty, but that was about it. Mostly he stayed clean.
She seemed to be gathering him with her eyes, and then she took a spare strand of her pale hair and threw it over her shoulder, like it was salt or something, like it was lucky.
‘You’re unbelievable. How old are you?’
‘Twenty. Almost twenty-one.’
‘Most people your age, they haven’t even started getting dirty yet,’ she said, ‘and here you are, clean as a goddamn whistle. Unbelievable.’
‘I’m not that clean.’ He moved up the bar, took Twilight’s stool. He told her that he’d been so drunk once that he’d almost lost his teeth. He showed her the scar on his top lip where it hit the streetlight. She bought him another Coke.
India-May wasn’t her real name, it turned out. Nobody in that place seemed to have a real name. She’d changed it to India-May when she was seventeen. Just another way of leaving home, she said. Just another line drawn down the past. Talking of lines down the past, he said, he’d drawn his own. He told her about Moon Beach. How he’d left a year ago. How that place was dead for him. How it looked like a heap of rubble to him now.
She watched him with those blurred eyes of hers. ‘Where are you living?’
‘In town. A few blocks east of here.’
She began to tell him about a house she owned, it was an old farm, out past Modello. She said she had a spare room on the third floor. ‘If that’s any use to you.’
He hesitated. ‘Past Modello?’ Modello was north-east of Tomorrow Bay, about twenty miles inland.
‘Way past. You interested?’
‘Maybe.’ He’d been sharing an apartment with a surfer and the surfer’s girlfriend. Everything was like, totally intense. He wasn’t sure how much more he could take of it.
‘That black guy you saw, he stays there sometimes. A lot of people stay there sometimes, I guess.’ Then she seemed to tire suddenly, all the light and muscle spilling out of her, and she folded round her drink.
Soon afterwards he said he had to be going. She told him to think about it. Even gave him a number to call. He thanked her and walked out into heat and sunlight and stood laughing on the street. He’d forgotten it would be like this. So hot, so bright. Sometimes one world’s so new, it wipes the old one out.
Ten days later he called her and asked if the offer was still good.
‘I don’t say things I don’t mean. When d’you want to come out?’
‘As soon as possible.’
She didn’t miss a beat. ‘OK, this is how you find the house. It’s like I told you. It’s in the hills, north-east of town. Get on the highway going north, then drop down on to the Modello road. It starts off straight, then it gets to twist a bit, but there’s no cars and it’s real dreamy on the right, like you’re the only one alive. Just real dreamy. How are you coming?’
‘Bike.’
‘OK. Look for a tight bend about seven miles out of Broken Springs. You’ll know it when you see it because there’s a white cross there with BABY BOY SOPER painted on it. Some kid blew a tyre on the hill a few years back, the car flipped over, caught on fire, there was only his teeth left and a ring he’d just bought for his girl. So the story goes. Anyway. So right after the cross there’s a couple of trees. One of them’s deformed because of Baby Boy’s car tore a lump out of it on the way down. The track’s right there, no sign, just a track looking like it’s going nowhere. And it sort of is.’ She laughed from deep down in her throat. He thought she was probably stoned. ‘Five miles along that track you’ll see a grey roof. It’s the only house around. Kind of tumbledown. But there’ll be smoke in the chimney and beds with springs and dogs to keep the bogeyman away. But look, babe, you sure it’s what you want? It’s lonely as a grave out here and only the wind moaning and moaning all the time and you look like a city boy to me.’