Sometimes she thought that the sheer dishonesty involved negated the honor they were supposed to embrace, but then Congress couldn’t be expected to be as progressive as the military.
All of which was not Cassie’s problem.
I hope you’re finding the work rewarding. I know that when you’re in a starting position, not directly in the field yourself, it may seem like you’re not really doing anything. But you are, even when you can’t see it yet. Even if you’re not the one out there working with kids directly, the work you do makes the field work possible. There’s nothing wrong with learning the ropes in a support position.
Ok, she had more or less bitten Jacob’s head off for saying the same thing, back when she was flying a Warthog around Saudi Arabia while Rotsy boys like Sheppard who barely graduated from state universities were flying vipers under enemy fire. Why yes, Dad! I should totally appreciate the chance to back up guys with half the brains and half the hard work because they’re men.
Jacob had been reasonable then, even if he’d overestimated Congress too. Just a couple of years, Samantha. Just a couple of years, and you’ll rise to the top. You’ll pass them and leave them in the dust.
Now she was a full bird colonel with the Hammond in her hands, and Sheppard saluted her. She’d make field grade, if she wasn’t killed, and he never would.
I know you want to make a difference, and you already are even if it doesn’t feel like it yet. You are, and you will. And as far as the conventional wisdom that an undergrad anthropology degree doesn’t lead anywhere, look at your Uncle Daniel. Sometimes you can’t imagine the places things can lead you when you begin.
Of course Sheppard didn’t want to make field grade. The last thing he wanted was a star on his shoulder and an apartment in DC, a desk job far away from Atlantis. He might not know it yet, but this was his last post. If anyone was ever stupid enough to try to transfer him out, he’d resign first. She’d make sure nobody was ever that stupid, if she could.
We’ve got a lot going on here, as I’m sure you can imagine. It’s gotten kind of hairy, but nothing as bad as we’ve seen.
That was circumspect enough. It sounded like she was in Iraq or Afghanistan, which she reasonably might be.
I want to ask you a favor, seriously, Cass. I know you’ve got a lot going on with your friends and your life, but can you look in on Jack for me? Drop in on him and keep him busy? Get him to help you with something. There could be something wrong with your car or your apartment or something. Give him somebody to take care of. I know you can handle that stuff on your own, and that you’re grown, but it’s good for him to be needed.
If she knew Cassie, her car barely ran and her shower had water leaking in the ceiling from the upstairs neighbor. Nonprofits paid receptionists even worse than the Air Force paid second lieutenants, and Cassie was sharing a falling down townhouse with five roommates in a fairly terrible neighborhood of DC. But she’d never ask Jack for help unless she thought it was for him.
Sam smiled, imagining Jack with his shirt sleeves rolled up, fixing the showerhead in a mildewy bathroom, while Cass sat on the edge of the sink and told him all about refugee kids in the Sudan, both of them feeling so good about helping each other. Then he’d take Cassie out to dinner somewhere she couldn’t possibly afford, smirking as everyone looked at his gray hair and three stars and the radiant girl with him. Dirty old man, they’d whisper, and Jack would soak it up until Cass said nice and loud, “Dad, this is just so swell of you!”
Take care of yourself too, and be careful. I wish I could say I’ll see you at Thanksgiving, but I probably won’t make it home by then. Maybe, if I’m lucky, and everything calms down here. It would be nice.
It would be nice, but unlikely. Cassie wouldn’t be alone, not unless she wanted to be. She’d have Jack, and maybe they’d go home to Colorado and there would be Daniel too, and Cam and Vala and maybe Teal’c if he made it. And Vala would pocket the rolls and Daniel would get tipsy on one beer and they’d talk about how they missed her. She and Janet would be the ghosts at the feast.
“Absent friends,” Daniel would say seriously, his glass lifted, and everyone would say it too, except Jack who never did, just silently touching his glass to theirs.
I love you, Cass.
Sam
It was the best seafood in DC, or at least the best in a place that wasn’t pretentious and full of power meetings. Jack O’Neill rolled up the sleeves of his plaid cotton shirt and waved as his guest came in the door, looking around cheerfully before he wound his way among the tables and sat down opposite.
“A fine idea,” said Konstantin Nechayev, tossing his jacket into the other side of the booth. “We are cold warriors again, meeting in some out of the way place where we will pretend to be fishermen.”
“I never did that,” Jack said, deadpan. “I really did work on a trawler out of Gdansk.”
Nechayev laughed as the waitress came over. “I will have whatever beer he is having. And I was on a shrimp boat just off Key West.”
Jack waggled a finger. “I thought there was something Forrest Gump-like about you, Konstantin.”
Nechayev flipped open the laminated menu. “So this is on your expense account or mine?”
“Whichever,” Jack said.
Nechayev looked at him over the menu. “It is sad, is it not? The things you do for your country. Dinner with an IOA member — what could be more dismal?”
“Dinner with a system lord,” Jack replied. He looked up at the waitress. “I’ll have the Fisherman’s Platter with the clam strips.”
“I will have the same with the shrimp,” Nechayev said. “I am yearning for my old shrimp boat days.”
The waitress duly sent off with instructions as to baked potatoes, coleslaw and other such, Nechayev spread his hands around his beer bottle. “So what is this about? You know that I cannot dig Dick Woolsey out of the hole he has dug himself. If he had kept quiet for a few months this would have blown over, but he did not. And now we do not know what is happening, which makes everyone imagine the worst.” He looked at Jack a little too keenly. “Including you. Are you sure Woolsey even has a command to return to?”
Jack shrugged. “It’s a communications problem. Stuff happens. You know that as well as I do. Civilians panic.”
“Yes, civilians. And we are old soldiers, you and I. I do not think this expedition is safe or will be accomplished without a great many casualties. It’s part of the cost. But most of the member states are not willing to explain how they even lost five men, much less many more. We will lose thousands if we see this through. And that is the thing you cannot say, not even to your president.”
Jack carefully examined the label on the beer bottle. “I don’t know.”
“You know as well as I that there is no such thing as a cheap war.” Nechayev took a long drink of his beer. “Nor should there be, in my opinion. It is when people think it is cheap that they get cavalier. Why not do it, if it can be accomplished with so little risk? Why not do it, if all it will cost is a few dozen sons of the poor?” He put the bottle down. “Or if it can all be kept secret.”
The waitress returned balancing a tray full of fried seafood, and it took a few moments to sort it all out.
Jack shook the ketchup over a spare corner of plate. “I won’t deny Dick’s dug himself a deep hole,” he said. “There may not be a way out.”
“So now we come to it,” Nechayev said, picking up a calabash shrimp and popping it in his mouth. “Will I support your candidate to replace him? Your Colonel Sheppard, I assume?” He chewed thoughtfully. “He seems like a good man, and I’ve no doubt he’s a good soldier, or they would not have held so long. But he’s military. They will not do it, not most of the other IOA members. They did not like Carter, and they slapped down the idea of Caldwell as though it burned them. They won’t buy Sheppard, no matter how you paint him.” Nechayev looked at him keenly. “They only swallowed Carter because they were terrified of the Replicators.”