And in this glow the girl wanted to see Achilles and Hector, Agamemnon and Odysseus — characters for whom a world controlled by the whims of the gods was the source of acute anguish and even greater joy. This was the joy of the great Game, part of which was an acceptance of whatever each throw of the dice would bring, when one never knew whether it would fall on its black or its white side. An unhappy throw of the dice — a revelation of divine animosity — meant anguish for sure, but this anguish was part of a joy greater still, the joy of the Game. The girl believed this world called for the calm light she had known first in her dream, then on the walls and floor of her room; she longed for the bodies and objects of the world of the great Game.
The voice behind the wall
The girl was a student and her Iliad vision had come to her at the beginning of the summer vacation. So she was able to sit at home day after day, looking through the window at the Pankrác hillside or watching the play of the light on the furniture, all the time imagining one scene or another from her film. She said nothing to anyone else about her ideas because she thought people would laugh at her about them; indeed, the film seemed pretty ridiculous and nonsensical to her, but she couldn’t stop thinking about it. On top of everything else she had no experience of making a film and didn’t know anyone who had.
Curiously enough it was her dream-soaked lounging in the Michle apartment that produced the encounter that gave her the courage to start making her Homeric film of light. So rich was this encounter that it inspired her to find people with the right experience and level of enthusiasm to work with her. The apartment was quiet at all times of the day and night. The sounds of the relatively busy Michle streets did not reach it: all its windows faced the Botic brook. This was one of those city spaces with a brook or a railway line at its heart that might have belonged to another world…
“It was so quiet that I could hear hushed voices from behind the walls, above the ceiling and under the floorboards, the practically inaudible music of the neighbouring apartments,” the girl told me. When she fell silent for a moment, I, too, heard the quiet voices like fine sand falling on the bottom of a time-glass. The girl went on to explain how she would hear — from early morning till late afternoon — a monotonous male voice from beyond the living-room wall. The voice took a great many short pauses. She imagined that it was dictating some kind of long text, and sometimes she had the impression she was hearing the quiet clack of a computer keyboard. She was curious about this endless dictation. If she pressed her ear against the wall, she could hear a little better, but to begin with she could still make out no more of the voice than its melody. But after she had concentrated hard for a while, she began to distinguish words, although all she really heard were fragments and hints from which she figured out whole words. Then she experimented with these probable words in likely sentences, which she completed with words she had heard nothing of. With great effort the girl’s sentences came together to form fragments of a plot. It was a long time before the girl was competent at this strained eavesdropping. But eventually a remarkable story began to emerge.
The girl was quite shocked by what she heard. Several times she saw the writer and his typist in the corridor — he a fair-haired young man in rollneck sweater, jacket and moccasins (and always carrying a black attaché case), she a well-groomed older woman in a suit. The girl marvelled that these two people — whose appearance suggested they had stepped out of a newspaper advertisement for a bank — could day after day roll around in the palpably sick images and utterances she heard through the wall. She had never even known that literature like theirs existed. She had read Maldoror and The 120 Days of Sodom, but her neighbour’s text seemed to her more fantastical, more brutal and more perverse. It was a novel about the life of Amélie, a prodigal daughter. In the beginning Amélie obeys her parents and wishes to be a good daughter, but the parents reproach her constantly for not loving them enough, sighing that she has fallen short of and offended their great love for her. One day they tell her they can no longer stand idly by as witnesses to her degeneracy — what pain it causes them! — so they intend to denounce her to the police.
This is a strange police force whose members are summoned from the pattern of the wallpaper, whither they return after they complete an assignment. The police and the parents take Amélie away from the town, to the place of a stinking cesspit connected to a nearby factory by a pipe from whose mouth there issues a violet dribble. There they force the wretched girl to undress before tying her to a post next to a cave where there sleeps a giant monster, whose chops protrude from the opening, showing teeth that in and of themselves are creatures of great cruelty. The teeth taunt Amélie, describing how they will sink themselves slowly through her flesh and into her guts, how they will greedily chew her up. From the damp, stinking depths beyond them, the tongue speaks up, shouting out in ecstasy its obscene vision of what it will be like to fondle the bloody flesh of the chewed-up girl; then it tries to force its way between the teeth in the hope of touching with its restless tip the flesh of Amélie’s body. The police officers have to leave because they are beginning to be transformed back into wallpaper, but the father and mother remain by the cave and converse with the teeth and the tongue about the great misfortune suffered by parents of naughty children. The teeth offer their commiserations while the tongue bursts into tears, so moving does it find their fate. Amélie is shaking with terror, pleading with her parents for mercy. The parents tell her it is too late now for tears, while the teeth declare that what is about to befall her should be the fate of all disobedient daughters.
Amélie hears a pounding which gets stronger and stronger, as if a hammer striking the pipe leading from the factory were getting closer and closer. Then a metal robot — a mechanical dog — leaps from the mouth of the pipe onto its back legs and pounces on the mother before biting into the arteries of her neck. Before he can so much as cry out, the father, too, falls to the ground with his neck violated. The metal dog bites through the chains by which Amélie is bound and bears her away. The furious teeth try to raise the dragon with their screaming, but the dragon remains lost in sleep. The tongue flies about in its dark hideaway, desperate to find out from the teeth what is going on. After this, the mechanical dog becomes Amélie’s guru. The book dictated by the voice behind the wall describes how the two of them wander across several countries and how the dog initiates Amélie into his anarchistic and amoral philosophy of life. It is not clear whether he has been programmed to think these thoughts or whether they have formed of themselves within his electronic networks. But after the dog’s batteries run flat and he stops suddenly on a boulevard pavement in the midst of one of his aphorisms, Amélie walks the towns and country alone. The text becomes a picaresque novel describing Amélie’s fantastical and erotic adventures…
The girl from Michle was scandalized by the eccentric imagination, brutality and amorality of the author, but she was also attracted by them. The more stories she heard from the life of the unprincipled heroine, the more she envied the author’s imagination, his fidelity to his vision and his courage in disregarding the opinions of others. Quite unexpectedly, her encounter with the voice behind the wall woke in her a similar kind of courage: she found the strength to commence work on her Iliad, no longer concerned that others might laugh at or scorn her. She convinced herself that in the light of her neighbour’s bravery in writing a novel that contravened all aesthetic and ethical norms, she would be committing an act of cowardice were she to abandon the calm light of her Iliad. And the courage that now burned within her shone a light for others; there was no need for her to look for anyone because all the right people suddenly presented themselves. As to those she had imagined mocking her ideas, they were asking her if they could be involved in the film.