— By making it happen. New criteria for raising loans. Small grants to broaden the base of the sector, instead of huge grants to the few: all those who didn’t really have to worry whether their crops grew or not. You could always be bailed out by the Land Bank.—
— No more automatic compensation if the crop fails?—
— Fails? That means there’s been poor farming.—
— Natural disaster? Floods, drought?—
— Ah, failure may be compensated for; it won’t be rewarded. — She laughs with him at her own brusqueness.
— Excuse me — someone’s calling for me. We must talk about these things again, Mr Lindgard. The housing aspect, from you … — She has her father’s beguiling flash of warmth; the dop of brandy.
Motsamai’s children — at last, they too have professions; economists, prospective doctors, and lawyers and architects, God knows, there are other children of his in the room. Their grandfathers and fathers having survived so much, does this mean they’re safe; these will not bring down upon themselves something terrible.
Where was Claudia?
Claudia was dancing. Someone had replaced the children’s rock and rap with music of the Sixties, changing the rhythm of the room, and he followed the familiar, forgotten twists and pauses of her body, the skilful angles of her feet in response to her partner’s as if the arms and thighs and feet of the man were his own. Where is the past. Obliterated by the present; able to obliterate the present. What brought Claudia out among the dancers, was it a heavy, downcast woman who had been sitting alone, who now danced by herself in self-possession, stomping out on swollen legs the burdens within her? Or was it the music that was the metronome beat of student days when she boasted to her friends with excitement and bravado that she was pregnant, his happy wild love-making with her had evaded the precautions of the know-all young doctor-to-be. Or was it Hamilton’s libations. Or all these at once. Claudia had been found by a man who came from a different experience in every other way but this one: the music, its expression in body and feet, of the Sixties, it didn’t matter where he had performed its rituals in shebeens and yards, and she had carried them out in student union halls, they assumed the form of an assertion of life that was hidden in each. The impromptu straggle of dancers wove about in relation to one another with the unconscious volition of atoms; she disappeared and reappeared with her man — or was this a new partner — and passing near, lifted a hand in a small flutter of greeting. When they drove home she did not say, Why didn’t you dance with me, although he was asking it himself. He had had only to go over and take her hand, his body, too, knew that music which did not, like César Franck, reach into the wrong places. Remarks surfaced here and there, between them — Hamilton’s family connections: who was what? — impressions of the house, whom might it have belonged to originally; giggles at what the first owners would think of how it was inherited outside their dynasty now; at home, they shed clothes and were asleep in mid-sentence.
In the morning Claudia stood, dressed, in the doorway. You know I was drunk last night.
I knew. God bless Hamilton.
It wasn’t a manner of speaking; coming from Harald.
When the girl failed to arrive on the appointed day on two occasions, Senior Counsel Motsamai took over the telephone call made by his secretary for the third one and made clear to Ms Natalie James that she was expected without fail. This time she came, and sat herself down on one of the chairs facing the broad and deep moat of desk without waiting for the formality of his inviting her to do so. She was in charge: he read. For his taste, he did not regard her as beautiful, but he could feel how her manner of confrontation, distancing and beckoning at the same time — those yellow-streaked dark eyes with the pin-point gaze of creatures of prey which fix on you steadily without deigning to see you — was a strong attraction: male reaction to which was, Here I am.
Here he was; but he was in charge, in the chambers of the law. He had his notes before him. He went over with her once more the events of the Thursday evening in January. She had the ability, unusual in his experience of witnesses, of repeating exactly, word for word, the replies she had given before. There were no interstices to be taken advantage of in the text of testimony she had edited for herself. She and Duncan had not quarrelled — not that day, though they often did.
— So there was no particular provocation that perhaps led to your behaviour that night?—
She paused, slight movements of her head and twitch of lips in puzzled innocence. Her reactions, calculated or not, were inexplicably contradicted by her words, as if someone else spoke out of her. — I don’t do what I do because someone provokes me.—
It was while they were continuing in this way, the rally of his questions and her answers that he was enduring with the undeflected patience of professionalism, sure of her faltering to his advantage in the end, that she simply let drop the subject of the exchange, and made a remark as if reminded of something that might not be of interest to him.
— By the way, I’m pregnant.—
If she expected some sudden reaction she should have known better. Counsel conceals all irritation and anger in court — a discipline that serves to control the reception of any unforeseen statement. The art is to be quick in deciding how to use it. He nudged his back against the support of his chair. Ah-hêh. And simply asked another question.
— Is the child Duncan’s?—
She smiled at the accusation behind the question.
— It doesn’t matter.—
— Natalie … why doesn’t it matter? — He tries the fatherly approach.
— Because then they won’t be able to make any claim. It could be from that night, couldn’t it. They won’t claim.—
— What d’you mean, they won’t claim?—
— They’d want something of him. If something terrible happens to him.—
— The Death Penalty is going to be abolished, my dear. Duncan will go to prison and he will come out. Surely, for yourself, it must matter whose child it is you’re going to have. You must know, don’t you? You do know.—
— We made love — Duncan — that morning before we went to work, it was all in the same twenty-four hours. So who can say. It doesn’t matter.—
— No? You don’t care?—
Oh she is in charge, she is in charge. — I do care; it’s going to be my child, that’s who it is, mine.—
It was Counsel’s task — everything was his task, no wonder his wife complained that he had little attention to give at home in the fine house he had provided — his task to tell his client and the parents what might or might not be a new element in their life as people in trouble.
On their next half-hour in the visitors’ room Harald referred to it as a fact, without mention of any circumstances the girl related. — Hamilton has told us Natalie James is expecting a baby.—
Duncan faced them kindly, as if looking back at something from afar. — That’s good for her.—
Do you love her.
I suppose so.
And now.
Change the subject.
Claudia is talking to him of other things, she’s telling him what a nice boy Sechaba Motsamai is to have around helping at the clinic on Wednesdays, Claudia is able to feel herself close to her son, these last days before the trial, she looks forward to the visitors’ room, now, they’ve found the communication is there, all along, in just seeing each other between the barriers of the unspeakable.