"Do you want me there?"
"I don't want me there."
"Maybe you need backup. Unless you don't want me to come."
"You're welcome anywhere I go."
"What should I tell them that I do out here?"
"No one'll ask that sort of thing."
"But if they do?"
As they enter the newsroom, he releases her hand, then wishes he still held it. He sees in the glances of his colleagues a thirst to know what connection he could possibly have with this much younger woman: she, in a purple frock and green-and-black striped tights, a smile so spontaneous it seems almost to surprise her; and he, in a blue oxford shirt and brown corduroys, pudgy despite the weekend sit-ups, a horseshoe of chestnut hair around a bald dome that glistens when he is agitated, and glistens often.
Hardy catches sight of them, waves a little too exuberantly, and comes over. She and Annika chat for a few minutes and agree to sign up for yoga classes together, though both know the pledge is hollow. "Well," Hardy says, "I should probably go save my man." Her boyfriend, Rory, was last spotted with a bottle of wine in hand, trying to engage a frowning Herman in a debate on the factual accuracy of the James Bond series. Hardy trots off to the rescue.
Other staffers approach Menzies, their gazes shifting between their dreary news editor and this curvaceous young woman. "So, Menzies my man, you going to introduce us?"
Once home, he tells her, "You were very"-he pauses-"very popular with everyone."
She smiles. "Popular? What is this, ninth grade?"
"I know, it sounds ridiculous. I'm saying it in a good way, though-I'm impressed."
She kisses his eyelids and gooses his behind.
He wakes early the next morning and lies a few extra minutes in bed, alive to the softness of her back, the scent of her hair. She feels unreaclass="underline" the tide of her breathing against him in the dark.
He walks to work and hesitates at a boutique window. That turquoise bracelet? What about those earrings? Are they part of a set? He can't assess jewelry, can't tell if it's pretty, if she'd like it. He needs her opinion, but that defeats the purpose. He checks the opening hours. Perhaps he can sneak back between editions. Does she need earrings? Is "need" the point? What is the point? To make a point. Which is? He doesn't know, only that there is one. He's always catching her hand, then letting it go. His every effort to make his point flops. He'll buy those earrings. But the shop is closed.
At dinner, she chats about the office party, comments on his colleagues. "Herman's adorable," she says.
"That is not the word I would have chosen."
"He's sweet," she insists. "And so insecure."
"Herman is? Herman Cohen?"
"And it was interesting talking to Kathleen. She loves you."
"Kathleen loves that I do all her work."
"She clearly has a lot of respect for you."
"Really?"
"All those interns are so young. Made me feel ancient. Actually, I already feel ancient."
"If you're ancient, you must think I'm prehistoric."
"Not at all-it's only age in myself that seems old."
"Twenty-seven is not old."
"Depends what you've done. My sister says everyone who's gonna make it is already on their way by thirty."
"That's not true; it's just the sort of thing your sister says. Anyway, you've still got three years-then we'll talk about what a failure you are. Okay? And, for the record, I hadn't achieved anything by age thirty."
"What were you doing then?"
"I was in Washington, I think. Working on the copydesk there."
"So you had made it."
"I'd hardly call that making it."
"But you had a career, a professional skill. Not something pointless like taking artsy pictures, which any loser with a digital camera and Photoshop can do nowadays," she says. "All the hours I spent in darkrooms, inhaling fixer fumes, fiddling with stop baths and plastic trays and tongs! What a waste."
"Nothing's a waste."
"Some things are. Like, let's face it, I'm not exactly taking advantage of my time here. I'm still not even fluent in Italian. And even though I live with a hard-core newshound, I don't know the first thing about what's going on in the world."
"Yes, you do."
"Maybe I should start reading the paper. Everybody at the party was so authoritative about stuff."
"About what stuff?"
"I don't know-parliamentary voting procedures and arms races in South Asia and U.N. tribunals in Cambodia. Then they turned to me and I'm, like, 'Hi, I used to work as a photographer's assistant, but now I hang out at Craig's place.'"
"Our place," he corrects her. "If anything, your place. And my colleagues are forced to know that stuff-it's their job."
"Well, exactly. I don't have to know anything."
"You want to restart the job hunt? I can put out feelers again."
"Do you think I should?"
"Well, you don't need to." This seems not to be the correct response. "But there's no harm in looking. Again, I'm happy to help. Just tell me what you'd like. Or did you want to get back into photography?"
"I don't know."
"What were you talking to Hardy about at the party-yoga classes, right? Would that be fun? I'm not saying it's the answer. I just don't want you to get sick of me, stuck in the apartment, washing socks."
Her birthday arrives and he gives her the turquoise bracelet and earrings, along with a subscription to an Italian photography magazine and a set of yoga classes.
She immediately makes friends in the class. They are all locals, artistic types who smoke too much, paint their bedrooms orange, and smell of damp wool. She is particularly sympathetic to a clumsy kid called Paolo. "I've never seen anyone more uncoordinated than this guy," she says. "Poor Paolo-can't even touch his toes. Totally incapable."
"Can I touch my toes?" Menzies attempts it. He groans, straining for his shoe tips.
Annika leaps up and hugs him.
"Thank you," he says, laughing. "What's that for?"
Her yoga friends urge her to bring in her portfolio to show around. But when she considers her old photos she is ashamed; they'll think she's an amateur. So she embarks on a new series. Her subject is the graffiti blighting historical buildings around Rome. They love the pictures and urge her to exhibit them.
With Annika out shooting or with her yoga friends, Menzies often returns to an empty apartment. Oddly, the place seems louder without her: motor scooters buzzing outside, footfalls pounding across the apartment overhead, the wall clock ticking. He prepares a sandwich for dinner and descends to his basement workshop, a room he rents to conduct science projects, his hobby since boyhood. He fiddles with balsa-wood models, browses back issues of science-and-technology magazines, and he daydreams. It is always the same daydream: about earning a patent.
If only he'd studied sciences at college! Then again, he'd not have ended up in D.C. and not have met her. He could still invent something, of course. A creation so remarkable it would force MIT to admit him. He'd earn his doctorate in record time. And he'd have Annika with him. If she wanted to come. But would she? Here in Rome, he has something to offer her: a desirable place to live, the romance of Europe. If all he had was student housing in Boston and debts…? But these are absurd thoughts. He's not an inventor, he doesn't have the qualifications, and he's far too old to obtain them now. He has a different life, a newsman's life, like it or not.
She's knocking at the door that leads down to his basement workshop. "I'm coming up now," he calls out. He finds her on the landing, leaning against the wall, wincing. She has done something to her back and must skip yoga for a while.
Over the next few weeks, she hangs around the apartment, drinking herbal tea, watching Italian variety shows. She is crotchety with him, then apologizes. Once healed, she resumes her photography project on graffiti but does not return to yoga.
One afternoon at the office, Menzies is reworking an awkward headline. He tries a few different versions, settling finally on the plainest, which is always his preference. "76 Die in Baghdad Bombings," he writes.