With a whistle that cut through the air like a whip, José called the dog. The tips of her ears lifted as if pulled by a fishing line, her eyes opened as if she’d smelled game, and she leapt from her spot as if to run after a hare. And she barked at the legs of the sheep. The sheep, startled, woke up to a nightmare which, in their not very intelligent sheep minds, they quickly forgot, falling into line and moving forward as a herd, always forward, since the legs of sheep can’t move backward. And the proud, haughty, almost human sheepdog proceeded to the farmstead at José’s side. It was earlier than usual when the sheep, goaded by barks that pierced the air, entered through the gate. It was summer, it was August, and the longer day still had a lot of afternoon to go. The air was sheer light. José crossed the courtyard, but only entered the house in his mind: he looked at his wife, who didn’t look back, and he wanted to tell her something that he didn’t say and that she didn’t hear. With the black sheepskin on his back and the sack slung over his shoulder by a rope, he passed by the closed door of old Gabriel and proceeded toward the town. He pictured old Gabriel and pictured Moisés, and both images splintered into a swarm of colors, an explosion of colors in the face and body of Moisés; both standing before him and saying things he couldn’t make out with his blind ears, his deaf eyes. And he wished he could have heard Moisés and old Gabriel now, and he wished that the world weren’t an irreversible fall, in which you just keep on falling, forever closer to the depths, forever farther from the light. He proceeded toward the town. Not because he wanted to reach it. Not because he wanted, but because of the afternoon, because of the sun and light, because of an overwhelming solitude.
The sheepdog followed him, with a gaze that looked up from her bowed head. A vast gaze, like a soft, brown sky. A child’s or a mother’s gaze that was nevertheless a dog’s gaze. They reached the town. José thought. My wife. The giant. José thought my wife, the giant, and the people who saw him pass by didn’t say good afternoon, because they all recognized his grief and condemnation, his suffering. He reached the square, and his shadow, sweeping the ground, was firm, for it was a shadow that knew where it was going. Dogs from many different directions came and surrounded the sheepdog, wooing her in a now courteous, now bestial fashion. José walked straight toward Judas’s general store and entered alone. The devil, at the counter, looked at him from inside a smile. José looked at him without smiling and advanced. Looking at each other squarely, intently, without veering their eyes, holding on to the iron bar of their gazing, the devil said two glasses of red. Two full glasses appeared on the marble counter. Drink up. And José, engrossed in the devil’s fiery eyes, didn’t budge. The devil, looking at him across the top of his glass, smiled as he drank and, after a studied pause, said your wife isn’t who you think she is. José, inwardly consumed by a shudder, remained impassive. And the tempter, smiling, said if you don’t believe me, go home and see for yourself, the shutters of the bedroom window are open, just take a look through the crack in the curtains. José walked past the tables and out the door, the men dropped their arms and gazes, the devil smiled broadly, and the brimming glass of red wine remained on the counter by itself, like a witness of that moment, like an orphan, like a lit candle. José crossed the square, and the sheepdog looked at him and whimpered, but despite her desperate attempts she couldn’t follow him, for she was surrounded by a number of suddenly disinterested dogs, and joined to a dog whose tongue hung out.
On the road to the Mount of Olives José’s boots stepped more quickly. They made the rough sound of shovels digging into a pile of sand, moving fast and hard enough to hurl grains of sand far behind them. Seen from the sky, José was a speck advancing along a furrow cut into the plain, or a dot with arms and legs advancing along a furrow that cut between two plains or between two diversely colored parts of the same plain. Seen from the sky, José was next to nothing, and he didn’t even think it can’t be true, it can’t be true, nor did he hurry. Seen from the sky, all that he thought and that for him loomed larger than the sky was less than the feather of a swallow among the clouds or the memory of a raindrop on a stormy day. He had almost reached the farmstead when the wagons of the men who work the fields passed by. They looked at him one by one without saying good day. They looked at each other and said nothing, maintaining a respectful silence. José, continuing his solitary march under the sun, reached the fence that bounded the farm, and for the first time since leaving the general store he thought of not going on. He stopped at the fence, turned toward the sun, and stared right at it. Motionless on the road, he walked in the tunnel of light. And he remembered hearing, like a voice inside a dream, your wife isn’t who you think she is. He remembered if you don’t believe me, go home and see for yourself, the shutters of the bedroom window are open, just take a look through the crack in the curtains. He wiped the light from his eyes and walked on. Through the gate that was always left open. The sight of the rich people’s house struck him like a bitter memory or premonition, or the memory of a premonition. He walked past the waterwheel. Past the unwatered garden. Toward the bedroom window. Half a dozen steps away: the bedroom window. Its old but well-preserved wood; its old but spotless panes of glass. A square hole in the cream-colored wall, its edges rounded from coat after coat of whitewash. José’s cautious steps, long with growing old over and over. And yet the steps, once taken, were short and scarcely real in his memory. He leaned forward, the shutters were open, there was a crack between the curtains, and his wife lay under the giant. José felt like an already dead man dying over and over. His wife lay under the giant. Their son slept in his crib. And there was a very dark night, a box or a sack, in which José was enclosed, in which he gasped for air, in which he had already died and merely waited to breathe his last feeble breath of self-will. He looked at his son, at his peaceful face, his eyes, his tiny clenched fists next to his head, his slumber. He looked at his wife, and his wife looked straight at him. For the first time in a very long time, lying under the giant, his wife looked straight at him. Her gaze expressed sincere grief, suffering. And her gaze was José’s. Mourning. Blackness. Death. They looked at each other and understood each other. And from inside the bedroom, underneath the giant, José’s wife saw José draw away and felt in a flash his infinite absence, his eternal loss. And José, drawing away, realized that his wife wasn’t to blame, and he realized, in that moment, how much he loved her.
He walked under the wide sky to the sheep pen. The sheep ignored him. He walked behind the feed troughs, lifted his sack from his shoulder and strung it on a nail in one of the pinewood posts that held up the roof, then took off his black sheepskin and hung it on another nail. He dropped several armfuls of hay into the troughs. He changed the water. He grabbed the rope that was coiled around a gatepost, slipped his right arm through the coil, positioned it snugly on his shoulder, and took the road to Gallows Tree Hill.