‘What a sad story,’ he says. ‘You’re only eight. Why don’t you write a story with a happy ending?’
‘It’s just a story,’ Echo says.
She stuffs The Watcher back in her shoulder bag. Seeing he has hurt her, Wang says, ‘The illustrations are really good. I don’t know where you get your artistic talent from. Not from me or your ma. .’ Echo shrugs and pushes her half-eaten kebab away. ‘Look, Echo. . I know we are going through a rough time right now,’ Wang says, ‘but don’t worry too much about it. Things will get better soon. Don’t upset yourself.’
Echo winces and puts her hand on her stomach. ‘My belly hurts,’ she tells her father. ‘Can we go?’
Not sure how to put things right, Wang calls the waitress for the bill.
Morning. Wang is woken by the slammed door and beer bottles clinking in a bag. ‘Off!’ orders Baldy Zhang, kicking the mattress. Wang drags himself up and rummages through his bin liner of clothes for a crumpled shirt. He is so exhausted after his night of sleeplessness, that if he had a gun he’d put himself out of his misery. He’s so exhausted, even Baldy Zhang notices.
‘Sleepless night, eh, Wang Jun?’ he says, grinning with sulphur-coloured teeth. ‘Still angsting about your wife and kid, eh? Forget ’em, I say. You’re better off without them!’
Wang goes into the bathroom, throws water on his face, and drags a toothbrush about in his mouth. He knows he should take the day off work, but can’t think of where to go. At least driving the taxi will be a distraction from his wretched state of mind.
‘Don’t crash the car today,’ Baldy Zhang calls from the mattress, as Wang picks up his keys and walks out the door. ‘You’re paying for the damage if you do!’
Behind the wheel, buzzing with nicotine and caffeinated energy drinks, Wang barely feels the steering wheel in his hands or the pedals under his feet. His driving is shaky at first, but autopilot soon takes over, controlling his steering and braking. Wang works on automaton too, picking up fares and driving them to their destinations, as though in a surreal dream of a working day.
By late afternoon, he can’t remember one thing about the ten hours he has worked. He can’t remember where in Beijing he has driven to, or any of the passengers he has had. So when he sees Zeng through the windscreen, in the crowds outside Beijing West station, he thinks he must be hallucinating. He swerves over to the kerb anyway, and slams on the brakes, sending the man in the passenger seat lurching to the dashboard. Wang then snatches up the keys and bounds out the door. ‘Where are you going?’ his passenger calls, aggrieved. Wang ignores him. He runs past construction workers digging up the roadside and fights his way through the station crowds, determined not to lose him. ‘Zeng Yan! Stop!’
Zeng Yan, backpack on his back, turns around, and Wang is shocked for a moment that he is not a trick of the light or the mind, but flesh and blood and real. He stares at Zeng and his stomach turns over with the sense that this is no coincidence. But how did Zeng know where he would be driving his taxi that day? How had Zeng timed his movements so he would be in Wang’s line of sight at that moment in time? Who is Zeng exactly? Smoker’s wrinkles deepen around Zeng’s eyes, dazzled by the sun. Then he shades his shrinking pupils with his hand.
‘Wang Jun? Is that you?’ Zeng breaks into a wide smile. ‘I just got off the train from Guangzhou. Forty-eight hours in a hard seat. What are you doing here?’
Wang doesn’t smile back. ‘I’ve been looking for you.’
Travellers leaving Beijing West station push past them, fatigued from long journeys on trains with strangers and now stumbling out on cramped legs into the traffic-honking chaos of Beijing. They have reached the point of exhaustion where other people are no longer people. They bump against Wang and Zeng. ‘Stop blocking the way,’ says an old man, hunched under heavy bags. Zeng looks strung out too, and gaunter than the last time Wang saw him. He nods, Wang’s hostility chasing away his smile.
‘Feifei said you were looking for me at the salon. I was back in my hometown for a few weeks. Wang Jun, my mother died. She had ovarian cancer. .’
My mother has cancer. . Zeng had used this story on the CEOs when he was a nightclub host, to con them out of money for ‘hospital fees’. Wang doesn’t waste time on his deceit.
‘Why did you send the photos to my wife’s phone?’
Zeng looks confused. ‘Huh?’
A man pushing a cart of wholesale clothes cuts between them. Zeng backs out of his way, only to be shunted by someone rushing for a train. He holds on to his backpack straps, swaying on his feet.
‘The photos you took with the hidden camera in the back room. The photos you sent to her phone.’
Zeng looks at him blankly. ‘What are you talking about? What photos?’
‘You know what photos,’ Wang says. ‘The ones you sent to my wife’s phone!’
Zeng stares at Wang as though he is speaking another language. He rakes a hand through his jagged hair. ‘I have no idea what you are talking about. I never sent any photos to your wife’s phone. I don’t know her phone number. I don’t even know her name.’
Horns beep and a pneumatic drill starts up in the road, shattering concrete. As Wang stares back at Zeng, he feels a pulsing in his temple and tension mounting behind the eyes. Somebody treads on his heel, and he glares over his shoulder. But the offender has merged back into the masses streaming around them; chattering, smoking cigarettes, squinting up at the train timetable or down at their phones. He turns back to Zeng.
‘Because of your photos, my wife and I have separated. She threw me out.’
Zeng frowns as though concerned. He reaches out the arm he scarred by punching out a window many years ago, to comfort Wang, his hand hovering near his shoulder.
‘Do you need somewhere to stay?’ he asks. ‘You can come and stay with me. You can stay as long as you like. .’
Wang sees the longing in Zeng’s eyes and his heart quickens in spite of himself. He resents Zeng then, for the complicated feelings he wrings out of him. The jackhammer continues to break up the road, and the tension behind Wang’s eyes sharpens into pain. ‘Are you crazy?’ he says. ‘Do you really think I want to stay with you at the barber’s? After you broke up my marriage?’
Zeng shakes his head at this. He opens his mouth and hesitates for a second. Then he takes a breath and says, ‘Your marriage was broken long before your wife saw any photos. Your marriage was broken from day one. I see men like you all the time, Wang Jun. Men who are living a lie. Men who think they can get away with hiding who they are. But we are born this way, and to deny it is to betray yourself.’
Though Wang can feel his own pounding heart and panting breath, there is something disembodying about his rage, knocking him out of himself. Though he can feel the thud of Zeng’s flesh and bones beneath his knuckles, he hovers above them, watching one man striking another, throwing punch after punch, as his victim fends off his blows. When it is over, Wang stumbles back from Zeng dizzy and out of breath, shaking out his numb and tingling hand. Zeng is bending over with both hands on the bright mess of red streaming out of his nose, splashing down his chin and vest. Though it had lasted only a few seconds, Wang’s fit of rage had attracted a crowd like a magnet pulling iron filings. Those standing around them stare at Wang in shock and fear.
‘Are you okay? Do you need to go to the hospital?’ a boy in a KFC uniform asks Zeng.
Zeng shakes his head.
‘Someone should call the police,’ says a girl with a fake Louis Vuitton bag over her arm, looking nervously at Wang.
‘No no no,’ Zeng says. ‘Don’t call the police. He’s my friend. He didn’t mean it.’