He allowed himself five twenty-nine hour Xandy days in Prescott City after his return from Rehfrak. On the sixth day, he awoke and walked to the open window to gaze out into the high summer of Xanadu's northern hemisphere. Imported elms mingled with native feathedeaf and falsepine across a well-tended lawn crystalline with dew, and creatures that weren't quite furry birds flew overhead in the early-morning light of a sun just too yellow to be Sol. He sniffed the cool air, already sensing the heat the day would bring, and there was a strange stillness in his heart.
He heard a stirring behind him as Miriam reached for him in her sleep and, finding his side of the bed empty, awoke. She smiled sleepily.
"For God's sake, Ian," she murmured.
"Put some clothes on if you're going to stand at the window. At least spare what little's left of my reputation." He smiled. Their affair was the worst-kept secret in the Zephrain System, if not the entire Rim. In fact, he'd been considerably relieved when he viewed the mischievous Sanders' wildly overdone HV chips (which had since mysteriously vanished) and found no mention of Miriam. He sat down on the bed and kissed her forehead gently.
"Go back to sleep," he whispered. "No need for you to get up yet. But I have to leave." She was fully awake now, and her smile departed. "I suppose it's useless to tell you again that any of your new-minted admirals--Desai, Remko, any of the rest--are competent to act as your in-space commander? Or to remind you of your importance to the Rim?" She caught herself before saying "the Rim Federation." He thought ruefully of his last conversation with her father. "My "importance" ends the day the rebels break through," he answered grimly. "The Rim lives or dies with the Fleet. I may as well do the same." "Ian," she smiled again, "you're full of shit, as usual. I'm a Navy brat, remember? I know the real reason you're going." Of course they both knew the unwritten (and therefore unbreakable) rule that required any TFN commander who could manage it to be in space with his personnel in battle. Howard Anderson had been aboard one of those twenty-third century battlewagons, now so quaint-seeming, at Aklumar. Ivan Antonov and Raymond Prescott had ridden their flagships into the meat-grinders of Lorelei and Home Hive III. And Sergei Ortega had flown his lights to the end in Krait at the Battle of the Gateway.
Miriam looked up at the swarthy, invulnerable face and ran her fingers through the close-trimmed, slightly graying beard. Few who knew him saw any reason to dispute the common judgment that he was hiscomplex" and "inscrutable" -comsome might even add "sinister." She alone had come to know his face lied, that his complexity, seen whole, re* ISURRECO solved xs61f inffcccentric rings of defense around the dull hurt at the center of him.
Miriam's lovemaking was no more passive than anything else about her, and she pulled him down to her, kissing him. "You don't have to leave just yet," she said softly, "and God knows how long you'll be gone.... "And, for a time, nothing existed for either of them except the other. Afterwards, she sat on the bed among the tangled sheets, hugging her knees and smoking as she watched him dress and groom himself meticulously. Yes, she thought, even the surprising personal vanity fits the pattern. It was a part of the fortifications.
Then he turned back to her, totally familiar and yet almost a stranger in his uniform. They kissed once more, lingeringly, And it was time for him to go.
"You realize, of course," she said with mock severity, "that while you're gone, in addition to being miserably horny, I'm going to have the Devil of a time keeping the Grand Council in harness." He paused at the door and grinned innocently.
"Well," he began, "in the words of a noted pre-space Chinese philosopher..." He managed to beat the hurled pillow through the door.
CONDUIT Kevin Sanders hardly noticed the Marines guarding the prime minister's residence. He hadn't been on Old Terra many hours, and he was far more concerned with smelling unreeyeled air and seeing more than a handful of faces in one place.
He glanced at his watch as the elevator whisked him to the penthouse. He was running slightly late, but political meetings, he'd learned long ago, were very like social gatherings; it was better to arrive latc cven by a large margin--than early by the smallest.
The elevator doors opened, and he stepped out to be met by a tall, fair-haired young man.
"Evening, Heinz. I take it they're awaiting me with bated breath?" "More or less, Admiral Sanders." Sanders sighed. Heinz yon Rathenau, Dieter's personal security head, was the only member of the New Zurich Delegation to follow him -comofficially, anyway--cominffthe prime minister's residence, and he seemed incapable of forgetting the titles people had once acquired--comor "earned," as he put it. Sanders suspected him of incurable romanticism. "Shall I go on in, Heinz?" "Of course, sir. Conference Room Two." ""thank you." Four people sat around the polished crystal conference table. Sanders nodded pleasantly to Sky, Marshal Witeinski and Chief of Naval Operations Rutgers and bestowed a special srhil@. on Susan Krupskaya, his successor at ONI, then half-bowed to the prime minister.
Dieter was the least impressive of them all, physically speaking, but his was unquestionably the dominant presence. Which was no small trick, given the wealth of experience his military subordinates represented. Either Sanders' first impression of Dieter had been sadly mistaken, or else the man had somehow grown to meet his moment. He suspected the latter, but he was none too sure his suspicion didn't stem from his own disrike of admitting mistakes.
"Mister Sanders." Dieter did not rise, but his courteous greeting gave the impression he had.
"I'm glad you were finally able to join us." "Thank you, sir." Sanders hid a smile@u "I'm sorry--I am running a bit late@u" He didn't mention that he'd walked rather than take a ground car.
"Quite all right," Dieter said@u "Man must walk before he can run, I suppose." He smiled pleasantly@u "But you're the man of the hour, after all--comor, at least, the man who's met him." He leaned back and waved at a chair@u "Let us hear your report, Mister Sanders. Please@u" "Yes, sir." Sanders laid his briefcase on the table and snapped its security locks. Reinforced titanium sheathing gleamed dully on its inner surfaces as he extracted a folder of holo chips and laid them on the table.
"Is it?" Sanders suddenly grinned impishly.
"Let's just put it this way, Susan--he puts Lance Manly to shame@u"
"So you're confident he can hold Zephrain?" Witcinski asked somberly.
"I am. More importantly, he is. Mind you, we couldn't talk openly on board an Orion carrier, but when I asked him ff he could, he answered with one word: 'allyes."" "That sounds like Ian," Rutgers said.
"Yes. The Governor-General does seem rather, ah, formidable,"" Sanders agreed. "And he clearly feels he has the firepower he needs.
.. plus the locals" full-blooded support.
At least," he chuckled dryly, "he defended them most vehemently against a few carefully dropped aspersions." "That sounds like him, too," Rutgers said.
"And it brings up another point," Witcinski pressed. "Forgive me, Bill--I certainly don't wish to impugn the honor of an officer who's accomplished what he has--but there has to be some temptation towards empire-building in his position." "I suppose so--comfor some," Sanders broke in before Rutgers' anger could find expression. "Sky Marshal, you no doubt know that Admiral Trevayne lost his wife and daughters on Galloway's World?" "Yes," Witcinski agreed guardedly.
"Well, sir," Sanders said quietly, "he's lost his son now, too." He watched the sudden pain in Rutgers' broad, face, then eyed Witcinski.