The bay was not quite perfect. It was rather shallow from point to point, so that wind-surfing hotel guests who ventured more than a hundred yards out might find themselves abruptly in stronger seas. But that was a minor problem. Very few tourists would be able to stay on the boards long enough to go a hundred yards in any direction at all. The ones who might get out where they would be endangered would have the skills to handle it. And there was plenty of marine life for snorkelers and scuba-divers to look at. Ildo showed us places in under the rocky headlands where lobsters could be caught. "Plenty now," he explained. "Oh, mon, six year ago was bad. No lobster never, but they all come back now."
The hotel, I observed, had been intelligently sited. It wasn't dead center in the arc of the bay, but enough around the curve toward the northern end so that every one of the four hundred private balconies would get plenty of sun: extra work for the air-conditioners, but satisfied guests. The buildings were high enough above the water to be safe from any likely storm surf—and anyway, I had already established, storms almost never struck the island from the west. And there was a rocky outcrop on the beach just at the hotel itself. That was where the dock would go, with plenty of water for sport-fishing boats—there were plenty of sailfish, tuna and everything else within half an hour's sail, Ildo said. The dock could even handle a fair-sized private yacht without serious dredging.
While I was putting all this in my notebook, Edna had borrowed mask and flippers from Ildo's adequate supply and was considerately staying out of my way. It wasn't just politeness. She was obviously enjoying herself.
I, on the other hand, was itchily nervous. Ildo assured me there was nothing to be nervous about; she was a strong swimmer, there were no sharks or barracuda likely to bother her, she wasn't so far from the boat that one of us couldn't have jumped in after her at any time. It didn't help. I couldn't focus on the buildings through the finder of the Polaroid for more than a couple of seconds without taking a quick look to make sure she was all right.
Actually there were other reasons for looking at her. She was at home in the water and looked good in it. Edna was not in the least like Marge—tall where Marge had been tiny, hair much darker than Marge's maple-syrup head. And of course a good deal younger than Marge had been even when I let her die.
It struck me as surprising that Edna was the first woman in years I had been able to look at without wishing she were Marge. And even more surprising that I could think of the death of my wife without that quick rush of pain and horror. When Edna noticed that I had put my camera and notebook away she swam back to the boat and let me help her aboard. "God," she said, grinning, "I needed that." And then she waved to the northern headland and said, "I just realized that the other side of that hill must be where my old neighbor lives."
I said, "I didn't know you had friends on the island."
"Just one, Jerry. Not a friend, exactly. Sort of an honorary uncle. He used to live next door to my parents' house in Maryland, and we kept in touch—in fact, he's the one that made me want to come here, in his letters. Val Michaelis."
III
Ildo offered us grilled lobsters for lunch. While he took the skiff and a face mask off to get the raw materials and Edna retreated to the cabin to change, I splashed ashore. He had brought the Esmeralda close in, and I could catch a glimpse of Edna's face in the porthole as she smiled out at me, but I wasn't thinking about her. I was thinking about something not attractive at all, called "bacteriological warfare."
Actually the kind of warfare we dealt with at the labs wasn't bacteriological. Bacteria are too easy to kill with broad-spectrum antibiotics. If you want to make a large number of people sick and want them to stay sick long enough to be no further problem, what you want is a virus.
That was the job Val Michaelis had walked away from.
I had walked away from the same place not long after him, and likely for very similar reasons—I didn't like what was happening there. But there was a difference. I'm an orderly person. I had put in for my twenty-year retirement and left with the consent, if not the blessing, of the establishment. Val Michaelis simply left. When he didn't return to the labs from vacation, his assistant went looking for him at his house. When the house turned up empty, others had begun to look. But by then Michaelis had had three weeks to get lost in. The search was pretty thorough, but he was never found. After a few years, no doubt, the steam had gone out of it, as new lines of research outmoded most of what he had been working on. That was a nasty enough business. I wasn't a need-to-knower and all I ever knew of it was an occasional slip. That was more than I wanted, though. Now and then I would spend an hour or two in the public library to make sure I'd got the words right, and try to figure how to put them together, and I think I had at least the right general idea. There are these things called oncoviruses, a whole family of them. One kind seems to cause leukemia. A couple of others don't seem to bother anybody but mice. But another kind, what they called "type D," likes monkeys, apes and human beings; and that was what Michaelis was working on. At first I thought he was trying to produce a weapon that would cause cancer and that didn't seem sensible—cancers take too long to develop to be much help on a battlefield. Then I caught another phrase: "substantia nigra." The library told me that that was a small, dark mass of cells way inside the brain. The substantia nigra's A9 cells control the physical things you learn to do automatically, like touch-typing or riding a bike; and near them are the A10 cells, which do something to control emotions. None of that helped me much, either, until I heard one more word:
Schizophrenia.
I left the library that day convinced that I was helping people develop a virus that would turn normal people into psychotics.
Later on—long after Val had gone AWOL and I'd gone my own way—some of the work was declassified, and the open literature confirmed part, and corrected part. There was still a pretty big question of whether I understood all I was reading, but it seemed that what the oncovirus D might do was to mess up some dopaminexells in and around the substantia nigra, producing a condition that was not psychotic exactly, but angry, tense, irresponsible—the sort of thing you hear about in kids that have burned their brains out with amphetamines. And the virus wouldn't reproduce in any mammals but primates. They couldn't infect any insects at all. Without rats or mice or mosquitoes or lice to carry it, how do you spread that kind of disease? True, they could have looked for a vector among, say, the monotremes or the marsupials—but how are you going to introduce a herd of sick platypuses into the Kremlin?
Later on, I am sure, they found meaner and easier bugs; but that was the one Michaelis and I had run away from. And nobody had seen Val Michaelis again—until I did, from Dick Kavilan's Saab.
Of course, Michaelis had more reason to quit than I did, and far more reason to hide. I only made up the payrolls and audited the bills. He did the molecular biology that turned laboratory cultures into killers.
The lobsters were delicious, split and broiled over a driftwood fire. Ildo had brought salad greens and beer from Port, and plates to eat it all on. China plates, not paper, and that was decent of him—he wasn't going to litter the beauty of the beach.
While we were picking the last of the meat out of the shells Edna was watching me. I was doing my best to do justice to the lunch, but I don't suppose I was succeeding. Strange sensation. I wasn't unhappy. I wasn't unaware of the taste of the lobster, or the pleasure of Edna's company, or the charm of the beach. I was very nearly happy, in a sort of basic, background way, but there were nastinesses just outside that gentle sphere of happiness, and they were nagging at me. I had felt like that before, time and again, in fact; most often when Marge and I were planning what to do with my retirement, and it all seemed rosy except for the constant sting of knowing the job I would have to finish first. The job was part of it now, or Val Michaelis was, and so was the way Marge died, and the two of them were spoiling what should have been perfection. Edna didn't miss what was going on, she simply diagnosed it wrong. "I guess I shouldn't have dumped my troubles on you, Jerry," she said, as Ildo picked up the plates and buried the ashes of the fire.