Ward stepped into the room and sat on the other bed and stared at his wife.
She said, “Ward, I don't think you are responsible for the virus. I was just so angry that it happened I said things I didn't mean. Call it… displaced frustration. When I said you weren't the man I married last night, I was serious, but whatever else happens between us, I know that inside you are still that man.”
“I want to be him again,” Ward told her.
She looked at her hands, balled tight in her lap. “There's something else I haven't told you. Lately my hands have been shaking. It's probably nothing, but I'm going to see a neurologist and find out what's causing it. My colleagues have had to take over my surgery and I'm sidelined until I get it figured out. I'm sure it's just stress.”
Ward took her hands in his and held them. They trembled gently in his.
“See?”
“Why didn't you say something? Dear God, I…”
“It's all right, Ward. At the moment there's no point in wasting time worrying over that. If Dr. Edmonds tells me there's something to worry about, we can worry about it then.” She frowned. “I think there's some boxes we can put Barney's things into in the storage room.”
“When did it start?”
“Two or three weeks ago. Been getting worse.”
Ward said, “We can decide what to do with his things when we feel up to it. One step at a time.”
“Even the cars?” she asked.
“Even the cars.”
Ward knew that he had to do it before he had time to think about it, or he might change his mind.
Natasha bent over and picked up, from among Barney's clothes, a small black box about five inches long. When Natasha opened it, she gasped loudly, and dropped it to the floor and backed away as though it were a rattlesnake.
Ward knelt down and looked at the replica of a casket complete with gold handles fashioned from wire. Lying inside the casket was an effigy-a Star Wars action figure of ten- year- old Anakin Skywalker-with bold black lines crossing out each of its little blue eyes.
THIRTY-ONE
Ward's finances wouldn't allow him unlimited help from investigators and attorneys. His house was mortgaged. He didn't have a fortune in the bank. No gold bars, jewels socked away in a vault, or valuable paintings. He kept between ten and twenty- five thousand dollars in his bank accounts; at any given time he had maybe two hundred thousand in other stocks and bonds he could liquidate. The company had plenty of money in its various accounts, but corporate funds weren't his to spend as if those were his personal funds. The McCartys were comfortable, not wealthy. Ward thought about that when he thought about what it would cost to get his life back.
The FBI had left the storage room a wreck, but Ward quickly stepped over the debris scattered on the floor and found three boxes stored flat behind the shelves. He located a roll of clear tape and enough bubble wrap to pad the model cars.
Packing Barney's things was difficult for them both. Leslie sensed this, working in the other parts of the house, finishing up before the boxes were packed, taped up, and labeled. Ward put the small coffin in a shopping bag and that in the back of the pantry.
“Leslie lied to the FBI for you. How did you inspire such loyalty in an employee?”
“She's good people,” Ward said. “I do wish she hadn't done it, though.”
Natasha said, “She obviously admires you. This will all be straightened out and the fib lost in the shuffle. I'm not sorry she lied for you.”
“Would you lie for me?”
Natasha frowned at him and began taping closed the last box. “I suppose I would.”
Ward, Leslie, and Natasha finished straightening the rooms before they went to the kitchen, where Natasha cooked eggs, bacon, and toast. They ate a late breakfast for lunch. Ward had known Leslie Wilde for almost three years, but, as the trio talked and laughed, it was as if he was actually meeting her for the first time that evening. She and Todd seemed to have a comfortable relationship. He decided that, as soon as he could get back to work, he was going to give her a substantial raise.
THIRTY-TWO
Watcher held the knife up and ran his eyes over the curve of the gleaming blade. On a cold October night in Afghanistan, he had killed three men with this knife in the space of thirty seconds, give or take. They became notches on the hilt.
He thought about another day when he'd used the same knife.
Watcher crouched among trees, silent, listening. In the late afternoon light, he could see the lake, fractioned by the trees, and he heard the drone of speedboats. He had been sitting with his back against a pine tree when he saw the boy leave the tent and step out near the still-smoldering campfire. The boy picked up a stick, squatted, and began prodding curiously at the coals. The child was a beautiful creature-a tow-headed boy of three, and Watcher smiled as a shaft of sunlight illu minated the buttons of the boy's spine. Inside the tent a woman lay sleeping. Watcher was close enough that he could just hear the child's stick punching through the crusty bed of ash.
The boy wore a wrinkled red swimsuit and sandals. After a few minutes of poking, the child grew bored, and started to wander aimlessly around the campsite. Watcher stood and crept silently within fifteen feet of the boy.
The child turned his head and saw something that caught his attention. He approached curiously the rotting trunk of a fallen tree. The boy's excited laughter floated to his stalker. Holding the stick like a sword, the child began stabbing at something in the leaves beside the tree.
Watcher moved swiftly, using the boy's laughter to cover his footsteps, and he swept his way quickly around behind the child. Three paces behind the boy, Watcher reached down, unsnapped the knife from its sheath, and drew out the curved blade. In one fluid motion, he flipped the knife in the air, caught the blade with his fingers, and threw the knife hard.
The child squealed as the knife hit home.
Watcher grabbed the boy's arm and pulled him aside, looking down to see his knife pinning down a three- foot- long snake, its sleek body covered over with a light and dark copper- colored pattern. The inch- wide triangular head rose and the snake tried in vain to strike. Small sharp fangs curved from the roof of the reptile's open mouth.
“ ’Nake!” the boy shouted, laughing. “ ’Nake!” He raised the stick and swatted at the reptile, striking its thick body behind where the blade had it pinned to the exposed root of the tree.
The snake writhed futilely until Watcher stepped on its head and withdrew the Randall. Watcher pressed down hard, feeling the small skull give as he moved his boot as though grinding out a cigarette. He reached down in a swift movement and severed the flattened head from the copperhead's body. After wiping the snake's blood and dirt off onto his black jeans, Watcher slid the knife back into its leather sheath and snapped the strap.
He reached down, picked up the severed head, and cast it off into the woods.
Turning, he lifted the startled child into the air, raising him as high as his arms allowed. When he lowered the boy he kissed him on his warm soft cheek and hugged him to his chest.
“Snakes will bite you, and you can die,” Watcher explained. “You never mess with snakes.”
“Bad ’nake,” the boy said, throwing his small arms around Watcher's neck and squeezing as hard as he could.
“You have to be careful,” Watcher said. “The world is full of danger, and I won't always be here to protect you.”
THIRTY-THREE
Alice Palmer reached under her bed and took out the model car so her boyfriend, Earl Tucker, could see it. He took it in his hands and turned it in the sunlight streaming in through the window to get a better look.