“Oh, I know,” muttered Hendricks, keeping his eye on the oblivious Zal.
“Oh, so you two are talking now?”
“Yes. Can I help you with something?” he said, trying and failing to hide his irritation.
“Well, I just need to talk to him,” she said, trying her hardest to sound sweet and sane. “I mean, it’s just about a small matter, and yet an important one. It’s nothing big, but I think he should know. . about a friend of his. . a good friend. .”
“Um, I don’t think he’s around.”
That did it. Zal, as if telepathically charged — either that or he was an expert spy — darted upright. “Who?! Me?”
Hendricks sighed. “Hold on,” he said gruffly to Asiya, then put his hand over the receiver and said, wearily, to Zal, “It’s your old girlfriend. I don’t know what she wants. Something about a friend. . but, Zal, I can tell her you don’t want to talk, you know.”
Hendricks and Zal had barely discussed Asiya, so Hendricks had assumed things were pretty bad. Wishful thinking, he thought as he saw a strange look in Zal’s eyes, the look people on TV took on when they played the hypnotized, a dreamy faraway look that suddenly manifested itself in an outstretched hand.
“Really, Zal?” Hendricks whispered, holding the receiver like it was a dead mouse, like it was actually her, the worst thing he could wish on his son at that moment.
Zal nodded slowly.
Hendricks slowly passed the phone to him and did the only thing he knew to be right: he walked away and locked himself in his bedroom and put his fingers in his ears, should anything get to him. It wasn’t just Zal’s privacy; in some ways he simply just did not want to know, did not want to think Zal was anything but that little boy of just a few years ago who was all his.
Zal, meanwhile, for a moment felt catatonic. He held the phone to his ear and just listened for her breathing.
He didn’t hear a thing, as if she were holding it.
He breathed heavily to send her a sign.
She bit: “Zal, you there?”
“Hello,” he said, trying to sound almost computerized with professionalism.
She thought he sounded funny. “Hi, Zal, you okay?”
“Yes. I am. Are you?”
“Yes,” she said, and sighed. “Happy belated birthday. I tried to call then, but your phone was off.”
“Yes,” he said.
“Well, how are you?”
“I am. .” and Zal thought about how best to put it, “alive, for the most part.”
Asiya paused and then said, “Me, too.”
There was some silence.
“So why did you call?” Zal eventually asked.
“I miss you,” she said.
He said nothing.
“You don’t, Zal?”
“Don’t what?”
“Don’t miss me?”
Zal paused. There was so much politics involved in that simple question — that much he knew, that much he had learned about relationships. “I do in some ways. In some ways, I don’t.”
She sighed heavily. “I thought so. Well. .”
Zal could tell there was more. “Is that all?”
“No.”
“Okay, what then?”
“Please don’t hang up on me.”
“I wouldn’t do that.”
“You could.”
“It’s true. But I won’t. Why would I?”
“Because,” she said, sounding whimperish. “Because I could annoy you.”
“Hmm. Well, it’s less likely since we haven’t talked for a while.”
“I don’t know who else to tell. Willa suddenly won’t talk to me, and Zachary moved out. .”
“He did?” For a second, it made Zal contemplate going back there. If only to see Willa. He wondered if that was why she mentioned it, a trap of sorts.
“Yeah, he’s a mess. I think he’s doing something illegal. And Willa — I’m worried about Willa.”
“Why?” He heard a different type of urgency in his voice.
“I think she’s not well. I mean, I know she’s not well like us, but all bound up in that awful bed, I feel like she might need to break free, you know?”
“No, I don’t know.”
“I’ve been having dreams, Zal.”
He felt the urge to hang up, but then he remembered she had just moments before thought he was going to do just that. He was not going to let anything she said come true, not as long as he could control it. “Is there any reason to really worry about her or not?”
“I don’t know. I don’t want to say, really. I’m afraid for her life.”
“Aren’t you afraid for all of our lives? Isn’t that your point?”
“I have just been having some intense stuff. .”
“What do you mean by stuff?” He knew exactly what she meant, still well-versed in Asiya lingo.
“You know. . the stuff. Not just the dreams, the nightmares. But the. . visions.” She said it very quietly, as if embarrassed, or, more likely, as if someone eavesdropping could pick it up.
“Asiya, are you not taking medication?”
“That’s the thing! I am! And still. .”
“Maybe it’s the wrong one.”
“I’ve tried them all. This one has been the best. But it’s not stopping the visions.”
“Now you’re going to tell me about it, aren’t you?”
“Zal, can I?”
“Asiya, I can’t do this.”
“I’m only asking for you to listen. I just need one more person to know is all!”
“What would that do?”
“Well, if it is truly something to worry about, then you could tell someone. The authorities or something.”
“Tell the authorities that the world is ending, Asiya?”
“No, nothing like that. That’s silly.”
“That’s silly?” Zal was amazed. She had been predicting the end of the world for almost as long as he’d known her. This had to be good.
“Zal.”
“Asiya?”
“Zal, in six months, half a year. .”
“It’s coming?”
“Well, yes. Something is.”
Zal groaned. “Wow, only half a year till the world ends.”
“Stop saying that,” she snapped. “I mean, for some people it will, yes. But not the world. Just us.”
“Us?!”
“I mean, New York.”
“New York?”
“Manhattan only, actually.”
“Asiya, what are you talking about?”
“I think something is going to happen here.”
“Any specifics?”
“I can’t talk about it on the phone. Do you think we could leave within six months?”
“We?” He didn’t bother to tell her, Actually, Asiya, the one fantasy that has kept me going these days is the one where I leave New York for good. She would interpret that as a sign and suddenly he’d find himself married to her.
“Zal, can you meet me? Anytime soon?”
“No, Asiya,” he said firmly, thinking of everything — where he’d been, where he was now, where he was going. She was, he realized, what they called a sinking ship. He couldn’t blame it all on her, but he knew she had played the biggest part in the best and worst year of his life. He had no choice but to move on.
“You don’t love me?”
“No, Asiya.”
“Really?”
“I don’t think so.”
“But what about that stuff? You want to live, no?”
“Asiya,” he sighed. “If you had seen me lately, you wouldn’t be sure of that. Let it come. Let it get Manhattan, whatever it is. You won’t see me stopping it.”
And, for very different reasons, they hung up at that exact same moment, each thinking they had done the final cutoff. If a curtain could ever drop with true definitiveness, that was a way, one good way.