Comfort soon grew used to her mother rocking her in the chair, and would wake and cry when Honor tried to transfer her to the quilt-lined basket Belle had lent her. Honor herself became tearful from exhausted frustration. Mother would know what to do to get her to sleep, she thought. Or Judith Haymaker.
Belle watched her struggle with the crying baby. “She needs a cradle,” she remarked pointedly.
Honor pressed her lips together and said nothing. The day after Comfort was born Belle had sent word to the Haymakers, and Jack had come to visit.
Honor was surprised by how glad she was to see him. When he held his daughter in his arms, gazing proudly on her sleeping face, Honor got that feeling she had when she was sewing together patchwork pieces, and saw that they fit. “She has thy hair, and thy eyes,” she said. They were the first words she had spoken to her husband in months.
Jack smiled, looking relieved. “It is good to hear thy voice.”
Honor smiled back. “And thine. I have missed thee.” At this moment, she meant it.
“I have made the baby a cradle. Mother says-” Jack stopped. “She can sleep in it when thee comes back to the farm.”
Honor felt her shoulders rise, and as if in response, Comfort began to cry. Jack had to hand her back, and the feeling of being a family was broken.
“Honor, why did thee run off?” he said. “I was so worried. We all were.”
Honor was positioning Comfort so that she would latch on to her breast. The initial sucking was so painful she caught her breath.
“It was irresponsible,” Jack continued. “What if the baby had come when thee was out in the woods, alone and far from anyone? You both could have died.”
“I was not alone.”
Jack frowned at the reminder of the runaway.
Though tempted to retreat back into the silence of the past months, Honor resisted. “I would like to name her Comfort,” she said. “Comfort Grace Haymaker.”
“Why didn’t you tell Jack to bring the cradle here?” Belle demanded when he had left. She must have been listening.
“It is his mother’s bargain. The cradle is ready for her, but only if I return to them.”
Belle looked as if she wanted to say something, but didn’t.
Various customers mentioned cradles as they watched Honor struggle to get Comfort to sleep. “Pretty baby. Where’s her cradle?” “Don’t that baby have a cradle to sleep in?” “You need to get yourself a cradle, young lady.” Then one morning a customer’s son brought in an old cradle carved from hickory, with faded cherries painted on the tiny bedboard. “I slept in this when I was a baby,” he said. “Now Ma’s holdin’ on to it for her grandchildren. But I’m headin’ west and don’t need no cradle yet. Can make one out there. So you can have it.” He left before Honor could even thank him.
The cradle was old and rickety, but it rocked, and Comfort immediately fell asleep in it. Then Honor could move it with her foot and still sew.
When Judith and Dorcas Haymaker visited, bringing with them a basket each of cheese and apples, Judith frowned at the old cradle. But her face softened and her smile was genuine as she took her first grandchild into her arms. Fighting the urge to snatch Comfort back, Honor sat very straight and clutched her hands in her lap. The baby flailed her tiny arms and moved her head from side to side, searching for her mother’s breast, blue eyes blurred and unable yet to focus.
Honor was more at ease when Dorcas took the baby. Rocking Comfort in her arms, Dorcas appeared more content than Honor had ever seen her. “A new family has moved to Faithwell,” she remarked. “From Pennsylvania. They’re dairy farmers too.”
Judith grunted. “They are restless at Meeting. The father speaks as if preaching.”
They were sitting in the tiny back kitchen, and Honor caught the amused looks of customers at the three Quaker women in their sober dress, contrasting with the bright feathers and flowers of the shop.
Then Comfort began to cry, and Honor reached for her daughter.
That evening, when the Haymaker women had left and the baby was sleeping, the two women worked, Honor sewing white rabbit fur around a green bonnet for winter, Belle lining a gray bonnet with light blue silk.
“How old is Dorcas?” Belle asked, holding up the bonnet and frowning at the rim. “Is this lopsided?”
“No. She is the same age as me.”
“It is lopsided. Damn.” Belle began to unpick the seam. “Why’d she mention the new family in Faithwell, do you think?”
Honor did not pause in her rhythmic stitching. “People often fill silence with words.”
“No, honey, these were pointing at something. You just didn’t notice ’cause you were fussing over the baby, but Dorcas was smiling to herself after she talked about ’em. And it made your mother-in-law look like she’d eaten a sour apple.”
Honor stopped sewing, looked at Belle, and waited for her to explain what she had clearly already thought through.
“There’ll be a husband in there somewhere for her,” Belle declared.
Honor began stitching again. She did not want to indulge in speculation. She was glad, though, that she had finished the quilts she owed Dorcas. She had five more quilts to make for her marriage, but before that she thought she would sew a quick cot quilt for Comfort. She did not yet know what the design would be; she would need to get to know her daughter first.
Once she was stronger she took Comfort out for short walks around Wellington. Since most of the townswomen bought their bonnets and hats at Belle’s, and went there often to browse if not to buy, Honor found she was already acquainted with many of them, and they nodded and said hello as she passed. She suspected they spoke about her afterward, for a Quaker with a quarrel with her husband’s family was gossip few could resist. However, Honor would not let herself turn around to witness the heads leaning toward each other, the lowered voices, the gleeful, horrified looks. To her face the women of Wellington remained pleasant, and that was the best she could hope for.
Often she took Comfort down to see the train pass through Wellington on its way to Columbus or Cleveland. At first she could not bear the size and noise of the metal monster puffing and panting into the depot, and it made Comfort scream. However, she could not deny that it was thrilling to see all the different people getting on and off, the goods being unloaded, the simple possibility of movement and change, of going away and of coming back. Eventually both mother and daughter grew used to the disruption, and looked forward to it.
Occasionally Honor ran into Donovan, coming from the town stables or talking to other men in the street. He tipped his hat at her but did not speak. The sight of Comfort clearly made him uneasy.
“Thy brother does not like babies,” she remarked to Belle as they passed him one day, sitting outside Wadsworth Hotel.
Belle chuckled. “Most men don’t-babies scare ’em, and take all the mother’s attention they don’t get. It’s more than that with Donovan, though: that baby reminds him you’re married. He’s been havin’ fun this past year pretending you don’t have any attachments. Now he’s got a real live reminder that a man’s already been where he wanted to be.”
Honor flushed.
“Got yourself a family now, honey, not just one you married into. Donovan knows he can’t compete. He don’t like that much. Notice how he’s stayed away since you’ve been here?”
It was true that, when her waters had broken, after Donovan had roused Belle and helped to get Honor inside, he’d backed off and left her alone. He did not ride up and down the street in front of the millinery shop as he had when she’d last stayed-though one evening when he was drunk, he sat at the Wadsworth Hotel bar across the street and stared through the window at Honor while she was rocking Comfort. Then he spat out his plug of tobacco, an action he knew Honor did not like. She closed her eyes, and when she opened them, he was gone.