Only then did she feel her way along to where she had seen the outer wall crumble. Fine dust particles still hung in the air, making her cough. She could feel it in her nasal passages, in her throat, abrasive, choking. If she looked upwards, she could catch glimpses of stars where once there had been a windowless wall. The outer side of her room no longer existed.
She stared into the darkness at her feet and could just make out a slope of rubble extending downwards. It was steep and unstable, and she couldn't be sure how far it went or where it went or how safe it was, but she held on to the image she had in her mind of her shadow on a wall on the thirty-sixth. She would escape unhurt. She must. Gingerly she slid a foot outwards onto the tumble of mud-brick blocks.
She could not see more than a few paces, and if there were holes she could fall into, if the debris was precarious, if one small misstep meant a fall to instant death-well, she had no idea.
Don't think about it, you sun-shrivelled idiot. One step at a time. Don't think.
Most of the time she crept backwards on all fours, hampered by her pack, feeling with hands and feet for secure places that would take her weight. Once she started a landslip and almost went with it, whimpering in terror; only a piece of firmly wedged stone pillar kept her from a worse fall. All the while, she imagined that there would be a hue and cry, that guards would loom up out of the darkness to catch hold of her. But there was no one. She could hear shouts and screams and cries for help in the distance, but close by, there was only the silence of an eerie solitude. Sandblast it, what had happened?
When she finally scrambled upright on flat ground, she could see a little better. The dust had mostly settled, and there were torch flames and lamps casting light from doorways at the bottom of a set of steps going down to the next level. She continued on, to find herself not far from the sun tower of the Sun Temple on Level Three. It must have lost a few bricks from the top because the edge silhouetted against the sky was jagged.
There were people about, but no one paid attention to her. A woman staggered past with blood in runnels down her face; a man stood, dazed, covered in dust; two or three people grouped around someone lying on the ground. Further along, a family sat huddled together, rocking to and fro like one entity, crying in one voice.
Terelle started to jog, her bundle bumping on her back, intent only on distancing herself from Scarcleft Hall. Speed was not possible; the street was littered with the debris from fallen walls and buildings. A few homes were on fire, the flame-lit scenes a cameo of tragedy and destruction-but Scarcleft's mud-brick structures were strongly built, and with walls as thick as a man's arm was long, most had suffered no more than overturned furniture and broken dayjars. In less-fortunate dwellings there had been deaths. She saw the body of a boy crumpled in his mother's arms. The woman sat in her gateway, rocking back and forth, and her cries skirled through the smoky night air.
Terelle averted her eyes and hurried on.
On the twentieth, water was flowing out of a break in the level's cistern. Reeves and their enforcers were organising people with water jars and other containers to salvage what they could. Terelle ran through a puddle, wetting her bare feet, and shuddered at the waste.
The thirty-sixth level was ablaze long before she arrived. Many people had fled the city altogether, and she glimpsed them standing about in the groves beyond the open gate, waiting for the flames to die down. Within the walls, a few hardier inhabitants tried to salvage what they could-whether their own belongings or other people's was not clear-and a few had simply decided to stay put in order to guard the little they had. The number who fought the fire was smaller still. There was not much point. The larger mud-brick buildings would probably not burn, no matter what happened, while the lean-tos and shanties made of woven palm leaves could never be saved.
Terelle hesitated a moment. The sensible thing to do was follow the exodus and leave the city. To wait out the end of the fire. Yet something turned her feet the other way, towards Russet's room. She had no idea of what she would find and no idea why she felt the need to be there right then. Her feet were leaden, yet they moved of their own accord, past the pot-seller's stand where pots lay in shards, past the corner where the whores usually advertised their wares with deft glimpses of leg or breast, past the rag-pickers' lean-to, which was now no more than ash, to the building where she and Russet had lived. A group of looters ran by, wearing pilfered clothing over their own garments and carrying a cooking pot; by the smell, they had lifted it straight from the stove.
Ba-ba the humpback and his wife, Fipiah, Lilva and her family, Cilla the mat weaver, Qatoo the madman and his son-all were grouped together at the foot of the stairs that led up to the top rooms. Ba-ba looked furious, his wife resigned. Qatoo was naked, as usual, but for once his son was not nagging him to wear his clothing. Instead the lad sat, shaking and wide-eyed with fear, with his arms wrapped around his thin body. Their lean-to-ignited by a flying spark-was burning; a few meagre belongings were piled at the foot of the stairs. The son sat between their most precious possessions: their two dayjars. The rest of the group, still shocked by what had happened, watched the lines of flame consume the sinucca leaves Ba-ba had hung out across the street to dry. The main building remained untouched.
It was Cilla the mat weaver who saw and recognised Terelle first. She gave a toothless grin and said, "My, look who's back. You wanna watch it, girl, you and that old man. You are bad smells to the enforcers, and they'll come sniffin' around at your stink again before long."
"Is he here?" Terelle demanded. "Russet?"
"Oh, ay, he is that," Lilva said with a shudder. "Poor Vato died, flattened when part of a building fell on him over there"-she waved her hand at some rubble down the street-"but that bastard of a waterpainter came sneaking back tonight, as untouched as can be, first time we seen him since you left. Came in just after the shaking stopped."
"Vato died?"
"Squashed as flat as a bab fruit sat on by a pede. Saw it happen."
For a moment Terelle could not move. Vato.
No, it's just a coincidence. I mean, it's been almost half a year since I painted him and Shale trod on his likeness.
She went up the stairs, her cloth clamped to her nose to filter out the flying ash. Her feet were driven by an urgency she couldn't comprehend, and her mind was mired in incoherence.
Only once she was outside Russet's room did she come to a halt. Only then did her understanding flood back and her thoughts become her own.
Her shadow was cast on the wall. She had thought to paint herself in the light of dawn, but it wasn't the sun that cast the shadow, it was fire. She had painted a picture illuminated by flame. In reality, her shadow danced on the wall, writhing in tune with the burning of a palm-woven building behind her.
Sweet waters, she thought, and panic saturated her mind. I did this? I caused the buildings to fall, the fires to start? This is what I drew! Oh Sunlord, forgive me, how many people did I kill tonight?
Her panicked horror brought her to her knees. No. No.
The door in front of her opened, and Russet was standing there, framed by the dim light in the room behind. "Well, don't just be grovelling there like a sanctimonious waterpriest," he said irritably. "Come in. Safe enough here. For now, anyway."