A line of dominos, spinning plates, a house of cards. Pick a cliché. He had realised what I’d known about Mummer for a long time — that if one thing gave way, if one ritual was missed or a method abridged for convenience, then her faith would collapse and shatter.
I think it was then that he began to pity her.
***
Father Bernard went off to clean himself and Hanny and I went into the dining room to wait for him. Everyone was sitting around the table watching Mr Belderboss. He seemed in a brighter mood than he’d been in the previous night with Father Bernard, though I got the impression he was deliberately distracting himself from thoughts of his brother with the object he was examining. It was a small, brown earthenware bottle with a cork stopper in the end and a gargoyle face crudely scratched on one side.
‘It was on the windowledge, you say?’ said Mr Belderboss.
‘Yes,’ said Farther. ‘Stuck between the bars.’
‘Oh, put it down, Reg, it’s absolutely hideous,’ said Mrs Belderboss. ‘No one wants to see that at the breakfast table.’
He looked around at the others and then went back to studying the face on the jar.
‘I don’t see anyone complaining, Mary.’
Mrs Belderboss made a noise of exasperation that Father Bernard caught as he came in through the door.
‘My, my, Mrs Belderboss,’ he said. ‘That sounded like a soul in distress.’
‘Oh, you tell him, Father,’ she said. ‘He won’t listen to me.’
‘About what?’
She gestured to the bottle Mr Belderboss was looking at.
‘He’s obsessing again.’
‘It was in the quarantine room, Father,’ said Mr Belderboss. ‘Between the bars on the window. There’s definitely something inside it.’
He shook the jar and handed it to Father Bernard.
‘Sounds like liquid of some sort. What do you think?’
Father Bernard put it close to his ear and listened as he moved it from side to side.
‘Aye,’ he said. ‘There’s definitely something in there.’
‘Ugly thing, isn’t it?’ said Mr Belderboss.
‘Aye, it is that.’
‘What do you think it is?’ asked Farther.
Father Bernard passed it back to Mr Belderboss and laughed and shook his head.
‘I’m afraid I’ve no idea.’
‘Father Wilfred would have known,’ said Mrs Belderboss. ‘Wouldn’t he, Esther?’
Mummer handed Father Bernard a plate but didn’t look at him.
‘I’m sure he would,’ she said.
‘He’d a doctorate from Oxford,’ said Mrs Belderboss, leaning towards Father Bernard, as he began buttering a slice of toast.
‘Cambridge,’ said Mr Belderboss, without taking his eyes off the jar that he was now turning round and round in his hands.
‘One of those places, anyway,’ said Mrs Belderboss. ‘He was a very clever man.’
‘And so well travelled,’ said Mr Belderboss, shaking the jar gently next to his ear.
‘Oh, yes,’ said Mrs Belderboss. ‘I’d have given my eye-teeth to have gone to some of the places he did. You were very lucky, Joan.’
Father Bernard looked confused. Mrs Belderboss leaned towards him again and smiled at Miss Bunce across the table as she explained.
‘Miss Bunce was lucky enough to accompany Father Wilfred on his trip to the Holy Land last summer. As his personal secretary no less.’
‘Really?’ said Father Bernard, looking at Miss Bunce. ‘Well, well.’
Miss Bunce flushed slightly and scraped off a clod of butter from the block in the middle of the table.
‘Mrs Belderboss makes it sound grander than it was, Father, but it was a wonderful experience,’ she said.
Mummer suddenly remembered there was something she had to do and went out of the room.
It was still a bone of contention with her that Miss Bunce had been picked to go to Jerusalem with Father Wilfred. It wasn’t because she hadn’t been asked herself — she could hardly have accepted anyway, what with the shop to run — but because it was Miss Bunce who had.
She put on a front but had soon become utterly sick of the endless talk about the trip and had sat sour-faced through the slide show that had done the rounds of people’s houses during the autumn of 1975: Father Wilfred coming out of the tomb of Lazarus. Father Wilfred standing outside the Church of the Holy Sepulchre. Father Wilfred walking along the Via Dolorosa. Father Wilfred in Al Bustan, waist deep in a crowd of poor, grinning Palestinian children wanting sweets as he tried to find the garden where King David set down the Psalms.
After a while, she came back in with a tray of tea cups and during the silence as she set them out on the table, there was a knock at the front door. Everyone looked up. Father Bernard wiped his mouth and went to see who it was. We heard him speaking to someone in a tone of surprise and then the door to the dining room opened and Clement’s mother appeared, dressed in a long coat — the hem of which met the tops of her wellingtons — and carrying a sack of firewood. Everyone watched as she moved backwards across the room, dragging the sack towards the nook beside the fireplace.
‘Don’t you want some help, Mrs Parry?’ said Mr Belderboss, looking towards Father Bernard, who shrugged in a way that suggested he had already asked her and she had declined.
‘Nay,’ she said and looked up at us. She wasn’t wearing her glasses anymore and her eyes were a bright blue.
‘Where’s Clement?’ asked Mrs Belderboss.
‘He’s out,’ she said, dusting off her hands.
‘Oh,’ said Mrs Belderboss. ‘Well how did you get here?’
She lifted her wellingtons in turn. ‘Shanks’ Pony,’ she said.
‘On your own?’
‘Aye,’ she said.
‘Oh.’
Clement’s mother put her hands in the pockets of her coat and looked at the wood she had brought in.
‘That should be enough for now,’ she said. ‘As long as it dunt get any colder.’
She went to the door and Father Bernard opened it for her.
‘It’s alright,’ she said. ‘I’ll see me sen out.’
Father Bernard watched her as she went down the hallway and out through the front door.
‘I thought she was blind,’ Mrs Belderboss said quietly to her husband.
‘Well, perhaps she had an operation,’ he replied. ‘They can sort out cataracts nowadays can’t they?’
‘Is that what you think it was? Cataracts?’
‘I don’t know. Probably.’
‘That’s astonishing,’ said Mrs Belderboss. ‘It was so quick. We only saw her the other day.’
‘You see what I mean about this place,’ said Mr Belderboss looking around the table. ‘A constant surprise.’
***
After breakfast, I went upstairs and fetched the envelope of money from under the mattress. Mummer was still annoyed about Mrs Belderboss bringing up the Jerusalem trip and was so distracted by all the preparations she needed to make for the visit to the shrine that she agreed we could go out for a few hours.
Hanny wanted to take the tandem. I told him it was broken and pinched the tyres until my fingers met, but he still didn’t understand.
‘Father Bernard said he would mend them,’ I said.
Hanny grasped the handlebars and rocked the bike back and forth, looking at me expectantly.
‘No, Hanny. We can’t ride it yet.’
As a compromise, I let him push it from the kitchen out into the yard, but he was soon distracted by a hare running off down the lane and he left the bike against a stone wall and chased after it. I went into the outbuilding and took a box of bullets out of the drawer. The box was too big, so I took out one of the clips and pushed it deep down into an inside pocket. I would stow it away in the pillbox when I got a chance. And then I could fire the rifle. Send a bullet out over the sea. Practice my aim in case Parkinson and Collier came.