She pushed the body’s pod over and it floated beside her, light as a moth’s wing. She placed her fingers on top of the pod and guided it down into the cargo bay. The body stirred gently.
The interior of Enyo-Enyo was mostly dark. Motionless. Not a sound. They were the last of the living on Enyo-Enyo, this turn. They usually were. The satellite was hungry. Always so hungry. Like the war.
At the airlock, she stopped to bundle up. Stiff boots, gloves, parka, respirator. The air here was breathable, Enyo-Enyo told her, but thin and toxic if exposed for long periods. She queued up the first phase of the release and waited for pressurization.
The vibrating door became transparent; blistering white light pushed away the darkness of the interior.
Ahead of her: a snow-swept platform. In the distance, a cavernous ruin of a mountain pockmarked with old munitions scars. A sea of frozen fog stretched from the platform to the mountain. As she watched, a thin, webbed bridge materialized between the mountain and the platform.
She waited. She had waited a full turn around the galaxy to come back here. She could wait a couple terrestrial turns more.
The moisture of her breath began to freeze on the outer edges of her respirator. It reminded her of the first time she had come to Eris.
Bodies littered the field, and Enyo moved among them, cloaked in clouds of blood-rain. The nits she had infected herself with collected the blood spilled around her and created a shimmering vortex of effluvia that, in turn, devoured all it touched.
“You must not fight her,” the field commander shrieked, and Enyo knew some of the fear came from the waves of methane melting all around them as the frozen surface of Eris convulsed. “You must not stop her. She is small now. You must leave her alone, and she will stay small. If you fight her she will swell in size and grow large. She will be unstoppable.”
But they fought her. They always fought her.
When she took the field, she flayed them of their fleshy spray-on suits and left them to freeze solid before they could asphyxiate, flailing in sublime methane.
There had to be sacrifices.
As she stood over the field commander, making long rents in her suit, the commander said, “If it’s a war your people want, it’s a war they’ll get.”
When it was over, Enyo gazed up at the thorny silhouette of the colonial superpod that the squad had tried to protect. Most of the Sol colonists started out here, from Eris. She would need the superpod, later, or she could never be here, now. Sometimes one had to start a war just to survive to the next turn.
Enyo crawled up into the sickening tissue of the superpod. She found the cortex without much trouble. The complicated bits of genetic code that went into programming the superpod should have been beyond her, but she had ingested coordinates from her squad commander’s jaw, during some long-distant snapshot of her life that the satellite had created. Now the coordinates were a part of her, like her fingernails or eyelashes.
She kissed the cortex and programmed the ship’s destination.
Tuatara.
Reeb worked on one of the harvester ships that circled the Rim every four cycles. Enyo was twenty, and he was eighty two, he said. He said he had met her before. She said she didn’t remember, but that was a lie. What she wanted to say was, “I remember giving birth to you,” but that, too, was a lie. The difference between memory and premonition depended largely on where one was standing. At twenty, on the Mushta Mura Arm, her “memories” were merely ghosts, visions, brain effluvia.
When she fucked Reeb in her twenty-year-old skin, it was with the urgency of a woman who understood time. Understood that there was never enough of it. Understood that this moment, now, was all of it. The end and the beginning. Distorted.
She said his name when she came. Said his name and wept for some nameless reason; some premonition, some memory. Wept for what it all had been and would become.
“The satellite is a prototype,” the recruiter said. The emblem on her uniform looked familiar. A red double circle shot through with a blue dart.
They walked along a broad, transparent corridor that gave them a sweeping view of the marbled surface of Eris. Centuries of sculpting had done little to improve its features, though the burning brand in the sky that had once been its moon, Dysmonia, made the surface a bearable -20 degrees Celsius during what passed for summer, and unaided breathing was often possible, if not always recommended. The methane seas had long since been tapped, leaving behind a stark, mottled surface of rocky protuberances shot through with the heads of methane wells. Beyond the domed spokes of the research hub’s many arms, the only living thing out there was the hulking mop of the satellite. Enyo thought it looked like a spiky, pulsing crustacean.
“A prototype of what, exactly?” she asked. Her debriefing on Io had been remarkably brief.
“There’s much to know about it,” the recruiter said. “We won’t send you out until you’ve bonded with it, of course. That’s our worry. That it won’t take. But… there is an indication that you and the satellite are genetically and temperamentally matched. It’s quite fortunate.”
Enyo wasn’t sure she believed in fortune or coincidence, but the job paid well, and it was only a matter of time before people found out who she was. The satellite offered escape. Redemption. “Sure, but what is it?”
“A self-repairing◦– and self-replicating, if need be◦– vehicle for exploring the galactic rim. It will take snapshots◦– exact replicas◦– of specified quadrants as you pass, and store them aboard for future generations to act out. Most of that is automated, but it will need a companion. We have had some unfortunate incidents of madness, when constructs like these are cast off alone. It’s been grown from… well, from some of the most interesting organic specimens we’ve found in our exploration of the near-systems.”
“It’s alien, then?”
“Partially. Some of it’s terrestrial. Just enough of it.”
“It’s illegal to go mixing alien stuff with ours, isn’t it?”
The recruiter smiled. “Not on Eris.”
“Why Eris? Why not Sedna, or a neighboring system?”
“The concentrated methane that will give you much of your initial inertia comes from Eris. The edge of the Sol system is close enough for us to gain access to local system resources at a low cost, but far enough away to◦– well, it’s far enough away to keep the rest of the world safe.”
“Safe from what?”
“There’s a danger, Enyo. A danger of what you could… bring back. Or perhaps what you could become.”
Enyo regarded the spiky satellite. “You should have hired some techhead, then.” She was not afraid of the alien thing, not then, but the recruiter made her anxious. There was something very familiar about her teeth.
“You came highly recommended,” the recruiter said.
“You mean I’m highly expendable.”
They came to the end of the long spoke, and stepped into the transparent bubble of the airlock that sat outside the pulsing satellite.
“The war is over,” the recruiter said, “but there were many casualties. We make do with what we have.”
“It’s breathing, isn’t it?” Enyo said.
“Methane, mostly,” the recruiter said.
“And out there?”
“It goes into hibernation. It will need less. But our initial probes along the galactic rim have indicated that methane is as abundant there as here. We’ll go into more detail on the mechanics of its care and feeding.”