“Well, I don’t know. I mean it was like she was hypnotized, fascinated. You know?”
“Why didn’t she cross the street, the light was in her favor?”
“Well I don’t know,” Mikey said again. “I mean then the light turned against her, and it was the driver who didn’t move. Then it was in her favor again and finally she just stepped out into the street.”
Druff’s eyes were squeezed shut.
“Next thing I knew there was this dull thump. I mean, that’s what it was. A thump. Su’ad was dead in the road but it made less noise to kill her than a fender bender, a little chip when a stone jumps up and breaks your headlight.”
Druff was drawing short, shallow breaths.
“And it wasn’t the Jews,” he said.
“Someone I recognized from the lecture, lined up along that path we took or in the parking lot, you mean?”
Druff was slow to answer. “That’s right,” he said finally.
“That’s right,” his son said. “But it isn’t as if I got a really good look. I was maybe seventy-five feet in front of him when he was stopped at that light. Then after he ran Su’ad down, she got like caught on his car somehow and he was doing these really wild maneuvers, throwing it into reverse, making wide swings, coming forward hard and braking. To shake her loose. You know? I was watching Su’ad,” Mikey said. “I couldn’t keep my eyes off Su’ad. Her wild ride,” he said, his voice breaking. “When he passed it was like a blur. I mean I couldn’t even tell what make he was driving. I was all blinded by my tears.”
“Hey,” Druff said, “Mikey, take it easy. It’s all right.”
“It isn’t all right,” Mikey said. “I loved her. I was going to go back to goddamn Lebanon with her. I was going to let them make me a hostage.”
Then, in the event, dread or no dread, thick tongue or no thick tongue, heart pressure or no heart pressure, angina or no angina, pills or no pills, this happens: You forget yourself, you forget you even have these things or that you need your medicine, and you make a MacGuffin-like leap.
“How,” he asked his son, “did she get money for the rugs?”
“She told me she borrowed it, Dad.”
Druff had no proof. He could have done it. She’d been screaming at him, bitching at him for some incompetence or other. She might still have been shouting when he threw her out of the car. She could have gotten his goat, screamed some devastating thing at him that just might have torn it. Maybe he was on steroids. Christ, he was big enough. Maybe he was on steroids and they had brainwashed his heart. So he could have done it. He’d never know, would he, not really know. He was a mysterious kid, had been a mysterious kid, was now a mysterious man. Mikey. Jesus Christ Jesus. Mikey! So it was conceivable. So he could have done it, the mysterious man-kid, thrown some sudden, thunderous tantrum, some killer snit. But he thought not. For love he’d been willing to go for a hostage in Lebanon, he’d said — some foolish fate. Only an innocent was capable of inventing something like that. He hadn’t run anyone down. He was innocent. As innocent as he’d been in not coming forward in the first place, everything mitigated by fear. His son hadn’t done it. The very terms of his telling it had cleared him. So that should have been a relief. A load off Druff’s mind. But his body was still doing its things. He was short of breath now, too.
It’s the excitement, he thought. I’m sound as a dollar.
“What’s wrong, Daddy? Is something wrong?”
“No,” Druff said, “nothing. Not a thing.”
“Are you feeling all right?”
“I’m feeling fine.”
“Shall I go get my mom?”
“Hey,” Druff said, “I’m fine. I’m fit as a fiddle.”
Because she would probably have had an inventory. Not many people would put out a few hundred bucks, let alone several thousand, for an expensive rug without having something to compare it to, seeing a selection. So she needed money up front. Forget the people working customs, here, overseas — guys guarding the borders, working the stony, sandy, various desert checkpoints where they inspected the crates or boxes or whatever the hell they came packed in — bribes, according to Druff’s hierarchical imagination, for the still-more-official officials at the ports and air terminals, some compounding, snowballing sum of cash to get them to look the other way. So forget whatever considerable consideration it took to do just the stiff, burdensome logistics of the thing. She needed it for the terrorists. Who would get it to the weavers, who would get it to their wool suppliers and dye manufacturers, and all the hidden, unseen, unknown rest of the backstage, baksheeshed personalities who contributed to the production of a smuggled rug. Where would she get such sums, a poor student who didn’t even have a green card and had had to enroll in a night-school art class in order to use its facilities and find and take on an accomplice or accessory just to have the use of his father’s paints and canvases? Well of course she borrowed it. From those bankers he’d been hearing so much about. Probably from the hardened Macklin himself until he was retired by his long illness and, then, the even harder Hamilton Edgar, the steely Dan, the adamantine Jerry Rector. Su’ad was killed when she couldn’t pay off her loans to the bankers of B’nai Beth Emeth. Well, it was only a theory. He didn’t know for sure, but dollars to doughnuts.
“It works for me.”
“What?”
“Oh boy,” Druff said. “A new symptom. Now I talk out loud even when I’m awake.”
“What?”
Cautious, tentative, like someone testing exactly how much weight he can put down on a bad ankle, Druff took short, experimental breaths.
Mikey hovered. “Are you feeling all right?”
“Terrific.”
Because MegGluffio had taken a few rugs off Su’ad’s hands. Almost certainly on some no-strings consignment. No different, surely, from her other arrangements with the trade — the nifty, voguish lamps and spiffy, à la mode furniture. The folding Japanese screens and futons. In keeping with all the other provisional terms of her life — her plastic cutlery, Styrofoam cups and paper plates — all that fast food paraphernalia of her get-out-of-town, one-night-stand ways.
“You’re, sure?”
“Your ma is rich and your daddy’s good-lookin’,” Druff said. He looked at his son, the wheelman, full on.
“I don’t like this much,” Mikey said nervously.
Because he’d said Su’ad hadn’t answered when he’d called to her. Because it was as if she hadn’t even heard him, he’d said.
“The rug’s still in my trunk, isn’t it,” Druff said. It wasn’t a question.
Mikey shrugged.
Sure, he thought, because he thinks Dick’s been watching him, that Doug has. No, Druff thought, I’m wrong. Because they’re watching me, Mr. Mayor’s deputized observers. No, because he simply doesn’t know who it is who’s supposed to take delivery. Because she never said. Because he knew she didn’t have enough confidence in him and wouldn’t have told him until they were already on the way. Because he figures there’ll be time enough to switch it if he ever finds out.
Oh, Mikey, he thought. Oh, oh, Mikey.
“Dad?”
“What?”
“Is something wrong?”
“Sure,” Druff said.
“Oh,” said his son. “Do you need a doctor? Should I wake my mom?”
“I heard from Scouffas and McIlvoy,” Druff said. “They’re not going to let us have the marathon.”
And watched as Michael closed his eyes, a voyeur to his son’s humiliation. Because as much as Druff had hurt and disappointed Mikey, he was up to here with the kid’s character, its rigorous, repetitious, lock- step ways. His son’s impervious shell of stunted, undaunted, familiar behavior. His peace-at-any-price conditions. Because he knew what Mike was thinking now — that there’d never been a Scouffas, that McIlvoy was an invention. That his father had lied to him.