Everthing depended on memory —
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The cottage comforted him even more, it was so photographically exact. The years had added a few feet to the slow-growing holly-trees, and to the magnolia which had struggled bravely annually with the English winters and the late spring frosts, just as his own did at home. And the Porsche's fiercely-glaring headlights yellowed the Cotswold stonework and turned the moss black on the slates of the roof while taking out all the colour from the autumn flowers by the porch. Yet every difference served only to confirm his memory of the place.
For a moment after he extinguished the car's lights the darkness engulfed him again, and the newly-loosened knot in his stomach tightened again. Then the porch-light snapped on before he reached the door.
As he stepped into the circle of light he heard a chain jangle on the other side of the door, then the snap of a bolt. Then the door opened as far as the chain would allow.
'Can I help you?'
'I hope so, Mrs Kenyon.' She had spoken so softly that he didn't even try to recall the voice. And she was standing at such an angle to the porch-light that he couldn't see her face while she could see his. 'Is it Mrs Kenyon?'
'What d'you want?'
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lunch. Your husband was in hospital at the time. You were busy planting the garden — begonias and petunias. It was in May . . . My name's Audley — David Audley. You remember me, don't you?'
She breathed out: it was as though she had held her breath as he had re-created his day in May long ago for her. 'I remember you, Dr Audley.'
'Then you know what I want, Mrs Kenyon. Can I come in?'
Sophie Kenyon chewed on that for a moment. 'I remember you. But I'd still like to see your identification.'
'Of course.' He waited patiently. 'Very sensible.'
'Thank you.' But she remained unmoving. 'Is there anyone with you?'
'No. I am quite alone, Mrs Kenyon. I have been very careful, I do assure you.' He smiled at her. 'Quite alone. Quite unarmed. And quite cold.'
She unchained the door. One step down, he remembered.
And then mind the beams (although that did not call for any special memory-trick: the old English had been a stunted race, and he had learnt to stoop automatically in parts of his own home from his fifteenth year onwards).
The smell of the house refined remembrance further. Every house had its smell, but old-house smells were more individual and distinctive, mostly derived from the working of damp on their building materials. And in this house the damp had been memorable; although now there were hints dummy1
of wood-smoke and hot cooking added to it, as one might expect in October. And also, just possibly, dog (he wrinkled his nose at that: dog he couldn't recall from that last time, as he surely ought to if there had been one: it would have barked its way into his memory then; and, as an after-dark visitor now, it ought to have barked even louder at his arrival this evening).
'You know where to go?' There was a curious intentness in the question.
'It's this door, isn't it?' There damn-well was a dog-paw scratch mark on the lowest corner of the door, all the same —
he caught himself staring at it.
'Yes. What's the matter?'
Warmth and more pronounced wood-smoke greeted him.
The curtains and the chair-covers and the carpet were different, but the room and the major things in it were the same.
'Have you got a dog?' In spite of himself, he couldn't resist the question.
'Yes.' She stared at him, for a fraction of a second incredulously, but then with a slow smile. 'So it is true, then.'
'What's true?'
'He said you'd come. Would you like a drink?'
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before yesterday: a good square English home-cooked dinner
— preferably with cabbage. 'Thank you. A very small scotch?'
In the full light of her sitting-room he could study her for the first — or, more accurately, the second time. 'What's true, Mrs Kenyon?'
She poured two very small scotches and handed one of them to him. The years, he thought, had been kind and not-kind to her: she still had her figure and the natural grace to go with it. But fifteen Cotswold winters, at least some of which must have been lavished on her dying husband (and the rest of which had presumably been wasted on loneliness and good works? But now he was making pictures!) . . . those fifteen winters had added Cotswold grey to her.
'He's not here at the moment, Dr Audley,' she said simply.
'No?' He took comfort from the lack of emphasis on "here".
'But not too far away, I hope?'
She considered him and his question together across her small untouched scotch. 'You really are alone, Dr Audley?'
'You called me "David" once — after Peter had introduced me, Mrs Kenyon. And I then called you "Sophie" over lunch, I remember.'
The smile, slow as before but gentler for the memory, returned. 'And what did we have for lunch . . . when we were
"David" and "Sophie" . . . David?'
'I don't remember. Salad, was it?'
'So you're not perfect!' She nodded, nevertheless.
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She was not an enemy. But she was something much more worrying than that to a man running out of time. 'Not quite perfect. But alone.' He felt time at his back. 'I do need to see him very badly, though. And the longer you delay our meeting, the less certain I can be that either of us will be able to stay out of trouble.'
She raised an eyebrow. 'What sort of trouble?'
It was always the same: to get more he had to give more. 'He told you what happened on Capri, did he?'
The eyebrow came down. 'Yes. But he doesn't know why it happened, he also told me.'
'He thinks he doesn't, perhaps.' He shook his head at her.
'But he does.'
She stared at him for another over-long moment. 'What he thinks ... is that you are a very dangerous man, David. You were in the old days. And you still are.'
Audley sighed. It was not unreasonable on Peter Richardson's part that he should think that — however unjustly. 'I don't know about dangerous. More like endangered, I would say.'
Another long stare. But for that ailing husband and her Catholic scruples she would have been Peter Richardson's woman long ago, not just his friend and his friend's wife. So now she was more than all of that.
'But you get people killed.' It was a statement, not an accusation.
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He had to correct it, nevertheless. 'When I make mistakes, people get killed sometimes. Peter was a soldier — he should understand that.' He felt the iron entering his soul. 'And now, if I don't get to talk to him very soon, more people are going to get killed.' He could almost taste the iron: it was because, if he let himself be, he was tired as well as hungry. 'Almost certainly, whatever we do, I think that more people are going to get killed. But it may be within our power . . . how many.
Or whether they're the innocent ones or the guilty.'
She didn't reply. But this time she nodded, and then reached down into the hearth. Audley watched her as she lit a candle with a thin wooden spill and placed the brass candlestick on the ledge of a tiny window to the right of the stone chimney-breast.
Then he met her eyes. 'Did he go out as soon as he heard the car?'
'No.' She shook her head. 'He's been indoors all day —ever since I collected him late last night, in fact.'