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curious and I think a very significant thing that since we had

become lovers, we had talked very little of the broader things that

had once so strongly gripped our imaginations.

"It's good," I said, "to talk like this to you, to get back to youth

and great ambitions with you. There have been times lately when

politics has seemed the pettiest game played with mean tools for

mean ends-and none the less so that the happiness of three hundred

million people might be touched by our follies. I talk to no one

else like this… And now I think of parting, I think but of

how much more I might have talked to you."…

Things drew to an end at last, but after we had spoken of a thousand

things.

"We've talked away our last half day," I said, staring over my

shoulder at the blazing sunset sky behind us. "Dear, it's been the

last day of our lives for us… It doesn't seem like the last

day of our lives. Or any day."

"I wonder how it will feel?" said Isabel.

"It will be very strange at first-not to be able to tell you

things."

"I've a superstition that after-after we've parted-if ever I go

into my room and talk, you'll hear. You'll be-somewhere."

"I shall be in the world-yes."

"I don't feel as though these days ahead were real. Here we are,

here we remain."

"Yes, I feel that. As though you and I were two immortals, who

didn't live in time and space at all, who never met, who couldn't

part, and here we lie on Olympus. And those two poor creatures who

did meet, poor little Richard Remington and Isabel Rivers, who met

and loved too much and had to part, they part and go their ways, and

we lie here and watch them, you and I. She'll cry, poor dear."

"She'll cry. She's crying now!"

"Poor little beasts! I think he'll cry too. He winces. He could-

for tuppence. I didn't know he had lachrymal glands at all until a

little while ago. I suppose all love is hysterical-and a little

foolish. Poor mites! Silly little pitiful creatures! How we have

blundered! Think how we must look to God! Well, we'll pity them,

and then we'll inspire him to stiffen up again-and do as we've

determined he shall do. We'll see it through,-we who lie here on

the cliff. They'll be mean at times, and horrid at times; we know

them! Do you see her, a poor little fine lady in a great house,-

she sometimes goes to her room and writes."

"She writes for his BLUE WEEKLY still."

"Yes. Sometimes-I hope. And he's there in the office with a bit

of her copy in his hand."

"Is it as good as if she still talked it over with him before she

wrote it? Is it?"

"Better, I think. Let's play it's better-anyhow. It may be that

talking over was rather mixed with love-making. After all, love-

making is joy rather than magic. Don't let's pretend about that

even… Let's go on watching him. (I don't see why her writing

shouldn't be better. Indeed I don't.) See! There he goes down

along the Embankment to Westminster just like a real man, for all

that he's smaller than a grain of dust. What is running round

inside that speck of a head of his? Look at him going past the

Policemen, specks too-selected large ones from the country. I

think he's going to dinner with the Speaker-some old thing like

that. Is his face harder or commoner or stronger?-I can't quite

see… And now he's up and speaking in the House. Hope he'll

hold on to the thread. He'll have to plan his speeches to the very

end of his days-and learn the headings."

"Isn't she up in the women's gallery to hear him?"

"No. Unless it's by accident."

"She's there," she said.

"Well, by accident it happens. Not too many accidents, Isabel.

Never any more adventures for us, dear, now. No!… They play

the game, you know. They've begun late, but now they've got to.

You see it's not so very hard for them since you and I, my dear, are

here always, always faithfully here on this warm cliff of love

accomplished, watching and helping them under high heaven. It isn't

so VERY hard. Rather good in some ways. Some people HAVE to be

broken a little. Can you see Altiora down there, by any chance?"

"She's too little to be seen," she said.

"Can you see the sins they once committed?"

"I can only see you here beside me, dear-for ever. For all my

life, dear, till I die. Was that-the sin?"…

I took her to the station, and after she had gone I was to drive to

Dover, and cross to Calais by the night boat. I couldn't, I felt,

return to London. We walked over the crest and down to the little

station of Martin Mill side by side, talking at first in broken

fragments, for the most part of unimportant things.

"None of this," she said abruptly, "seems in the slightest degree

real to me. I've got no sense of things ending."