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while we talked all over them of the prevalent vacuity of political

intentions. Margaret was perplexed by me. It is only now I

perceive just how perplexing I must have been. "Of course, she said

with that faint stress of apprehension in her eyes, one must have

aims." And, "it isn't always easy to put everything into phrases."

"Don't be long," said Mrs. Edward Crampton to her hsuband as the

wives trooped out. And afterwards when we went upstairs I had an

indefinable persuasion that the ladies had been criticising

Britten's share in our talk in an altogether unfavourable spirit.

Mrs. Edward evidently thought him aggressive and impertinent, and

Margaret with a quiet firmness that brooked no resistance, took him

at once into a corner and showed him Italian photographs by Coburn.

We dispersed early.

I walked with Britten along the Chelsea back streets towards

Battersea Bridge-he lodged on the south side.

"Mrs. Millingham's a dear," he began.

"She's a dear."

"I liked her demand for a hansom because a four-wheeler was too

safe."

"She was worked up," I said. "She's a woman of faultless character,

but her instincts, as Altiora would say, are anarchistic-when she

gives them a chance."

"So she takes it out in hansom cabs."

"Hansom cabs."

"She's wise," said Britten…

"I hope, Remington," he went on after a pause, "I didn't rag your

other guests too much. I've a sort of feeling at moments-

Remington, those chaps are so infernally not-not bloody. It's part

of a man's duty sometimes at least to eat red beef and get drunk.

How is he to understand government if he doesn't? It scares me to

think of your lot-by a sort of misapprehension-being in power. A

kind of neuralgia in the head, by way of government. I don't

understand where YOU come in. Those others-they've no lusts.

Their ideal is anaemia. You and I, we had at least a lust to take

hold of life and make something of it. They-they want to take hold

of life and make nothing of it. They want to cut out all the

stimulants. Just as though life was anything else but a reaction to

stimulation!"…

He began to talk of his own life. He had had ill-fortune through

most of it. He was poor and unsuccessful, and a girl he had been

very fond of had been attacked and killed by a horse in a field in a

very horrible manner. These things had wounded and tortured him,

but they hadn't broken him. They had, it seemed to me, made a kind

of crippled and ugly demigod of him. He was, I began to perceive,

so much better than I had any right to expect. At first I had been

rather struck by his unkempt look, and it made my reaction all the

stronger. There was about him something, a kind of raw and bleeding

faith in the deep things of life, that stirred me profoundly as he

showed it. My set of people had irritated him and disappointed him.

I discovered at his touch how they irritated him. He reproached me

boldly. He made me feel ashamed of my easy acquiescences as I

walked in my sleek tall neatness beside his rather old coat, his

rather battered hat, his sturdier shorter shape, and listened to his

denunciations of our self-satisfied New Liberalism and

Progressivism.

"It has the same relation to progress-the reality of progress-that

the things they paint on door panels in the suburbs have to art and

beauty. There's a sort of filiation… Your Altiora's just the

political equivalent of the ladies who sell traced cloth for

embroidery; she's a dealer in Refined Social Reform for the Parlour.

The real progress, Remington, is a graver thing and a painfuller

thing and a slower thing altogether. Look! THAT"-and he pointed

to where under a boarding in the light of a gas lamp a dingy

prostitute stood lurking-" was in Babylon and Nineveh. Your little

lot make believe there won't be anything of the sort after this

Parliament! They're going to vanish at a few top notes from Altiora

Bailey! Remington!-it's foolery. It's prigs at play. It's make-

believe, make-believe! Your people there haven't got hold of

things, aren't beginning to get hold of things, don't know anything

of life at all, shirk life, avoid life, get in little bright clean

rooms and talk big over your bumpers of lemonade while the Night

goes by outside-untouched. Those Crampton fools slink by all

this,"-he waved at the woman again-"pretend it doesn't exist, or

is going to be banished root and branch by an Act to keep children

in the wet outside public-houses. Do you think they really care,

Remington? I don't. It's make-believe. What they want to do, what

Lewis wants to do, what Mrs. Bunting Harblow wants her husband to

do, is to sit and feel very grave and necessary and respected on the

Government benches. They think of putting their feet out like

statesmen, and tilting shiny hats with becoming brims down over

their successful noses. Presentation portrait to a club at fifty.

That's their Reality. That's their scope. They don't, it's

manifest, WANT to think beyond that. The things there ARE,

Remington, they'll never face! the wonder and the depth of life,-

lust, and the night-sky,-pain."

"But the good intention," I pleaded, "the Good Will!"