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We imaginative people are base enough, heaven knows, but it is only

in rare moods of bitter penetration that we pierce down to the baser

lusts, the viler shames, the everlasting lying and muddle-headed

self-justification of the dull.

I would turn my eyes down the crowded room and see others of him and

others. What did he think he was up to? Did he for a moment

realise that his presence under that ceramic glory of a ceiling with

me meant, if it had any rational meaning at all, that we were

jointly doing something with the nation and the empire and

mankind?… How on earth could any one get hold of him, make

any noble use of him? He didn't read beyond his newspaper. He

never thought, but only followed imaginings in his heart. He never

discussed. At the first hint of discussion his temper gave way.

He was, I knew, a deep, thinly-covered tank of resentments and

quite irrational moral rages. Yet withal I would have to resist

an impulse to go over to him and nudge him and say to him, "Look

here! What indeed do you think we are doing with the nation and

the empire and mankind? You know-MANKIND!"

I wonder what reply I should have got.

So far as any average could be struck and so far as any backbone

could be located, it seemed to me that this silent, shy, replete,

sub-angry, middle-class sentimentalist was in his endless species

and varieties and dialects the backbone of our party. So far as I

could be considered as representing anything in the House, I

pretended to sit for the elements of HIM…

7

For a time I turned towards the Socialists. They at least had an

air of coherent intentions. At that time Socialism had come into

politics again after a period of depression and obscurity, with a

tremendous ECLAT. There was visibly a following of Socialist

members to Chris Robinson; mysteriously uncommunicative gentlemen in

soft felt hats and short coats and square-toed boots who replied to

casual advances a little surprisingly in rich North Country

dialects. Members became aware of a "seagreen incorruptible," as

Colonel Marlow put it to me, speaking on the Address, a slender

twisted figure supporting itself on a stick and speaking with a fire

that was altogether revolutionary. This was Philip Snowden, the

member for Blackburn. They had come in nearly forty strong

altogether, and with an air of presently meaning to come in much

stronger. They were only one aspect of what seemed at that time a

big national movement. Socialist societies, we gathered, were

springing up all over the country, and every one was inquiring about

Socialism and discussing Socialism. It had taken the Universities

with particular force, and any youngster with the slightest

intellectual pretension was either actively for or brilliantly

against. For a time our Young Liberal group was ostentatiously

sympathetic…

When I think of the Socialists there comes a vivid memory of certain

evening gatherings at our house…

These gatherings had been organised by Margaret as the outcome of a

discussion at the Baileys'. Altiora had been very emphatic and

uncharitable upon the futility of the Socialist movement. It seemed

that even the leaders fought shy of dinner-parties.

"They never meet each other," said Altiora, "much less people on the

other side. How can they begin to understand politics until they do

that?"

"Most of them have totally unpresentable wives," said Altiora,

"totally!" and quoted instances, "and they WILL bring them. Or they

won't come! Some of the poor creatures have scarcely learnt their

table manners. They just make holes in the talk…"

I thought there was a great deal of truth beneath Altiora's

outburst. The presentation of the Socialist case seemed very

greatly crippled by the want of a common intimacy in its leaders;

the want of intimacy didn't at first appear to be more than an

accident, and our talk led to Margaret's attempt to get acquaintance

and easy intercourse afoot among them and between them and the Young

Liberals of our group. She gave a series of weekly dinners,

planned, I think, a little too accurately upon Altiora's model, and

after each we had as catholic a reception as we could contrive.

Our receptions were indeed, I should think, about as catholic as

receptions could be. Margaret found herself with a weekly houseful

of insoluble problems in intercourse. One did one's best, but one

got a nightmare feeling as the evening wore on.

It was one of the few unanimities of these parties that every one

should be a little odd in appearance, funny about the hair or the

tie or the shoes or more generally, and that bursts of violent

aggression should alternate with an attitude entirely defensive. A

number of our guests had an air of waiting for a clue that never

came, and stood and sat about silently, mildly amused but not a bit

surprised that we did not discover their distinctive Open-Sesames.

There was a sprinkling of manifest seers and prophetesses in

shapeless garments, far too many, I thought, for really easy social

intercourse, and any conversation at any moment was liable to become

oracular. One was in a state of tension from first to last; the

most innocent remark seemed capable of exploding resentment, and

replies came out at the most unexpected angles. We Young Liberals

went about puzzled but polite to the gathering we had evoked. The