A week passed, during which they ate and rested and gained strength for the journey ahead. Each day they left the monastery and walked together in the green valley, or sat on the banks of the river. Dorje-la seemed worlds away, a place of horrors unimaginable here. They were lovers in a world made for love. The rest was a nightmare or an illusion. But when she came from her talks with the abbot her eyes were clouded with sadness neither the sunshine nor his words of endearment could dispel.
“Do you love me truly, Ka-ris To-feh?” she asked.
“Yes, little Drolma,” he said.
“Please. I’ve asked you not to call me that.” Her face grew troubled.
“Why not?”
“Because.”
He frowned.
“Does she still live in you?” he asked.
She nodded. A shadow passed over the water.
“Yes,” she said.
“No matter what happens, she lives in me.”
“I see. Very well, I promise not to call you Drolma if you promise to call me what my friends call me.”
“What’s that?”
“Chris,” he said.
“Ka-ris.” She laughed.
“That’s all right. I’ll call you Ka-ris from now on.”
He smiled at her.
“And you,” he said.
“Do you love me truly?”
She bent forward and kissed him. In the sky a lammergeyer plunged.
They talked of his life: India, England, the war. It was all fresh to her, all beyond imagining. When he talked of cities, she could see nothing but gigantic monasteries, seething with people. When he told her of ships sailing the sea between India and home, she thought only of a vast expanse of rippling snow. The river beside which they walked was the first flowing water she had seen: the ocean was beyond all thought. When he spoke of tanks and aeroplanes, she shook her head in disbelief and closed her eyes.
Once, an early butterfly passed over their heads, bright-winged and doomed to die by nightfall. He watched it go and thought of Puccini’s opera, of Butterfly waiting year after year for the return of Pinkerton, of Oriental fidelity and Western treachery.
“My Butterfly,” he murmured, caressing her cheek with a thoughtful hand.
She smiled and looked at him, thinking of the painted wings that had passed her a moment ago. He looked away, remembering a painted stage and a woman in a kimono, dying for love, waiting for smoke to appear on a distant horizon.
In a cave above the monastery lived an old hermit, a gomchen who had been immured there at the age of twenty, forty years earlier. The cave had neither window nor door, but inside a spring rose up and flowed through a small opening in the wall before running down to join the river below. Every morning, the villagers would leave food in the opening; every evening they would collect the empty bowl. Otherwise, nothing passed in or out of the cave:
no light, no sound, no fragrance. If six days passed without the food being touched, they would break down the wall and take the old man’s body for burial.
They went up the hill to visit the cave.
“What does he think about?” Christopher asked.
“If I knew, I would be walled up like him.”
“Don’t you know? Doesn’t the Lady Tara tell you?”
She shook her head, irritated.
“I’ve told you. She tells me nothing. I’m just the vehicle. But it’s different anyhow. I have no choice about being a trulku. He chose to enter his cave. He will escape rebirth through his own efforts.
The Lady Tara will go on being reborn, in me, in others after me.”
“We have holy men,” he said.
“But they don’t wall themselves up like this. They pray, but not incessantly. They fast, but not to excess.”
“Then they cannot be very holy men,” she replied.
“Perhaps they may have the fortune to be reborn as gomchens.”
“I think it’s horrible,” he said, ‘to be walled up like that. To have no light or company or fresh air, year after year for forty years. It’s worse than prison. A man might go mad in there.”
“This world is a prison,” she answered.
“He is seeking to escape.
Light and fresh air and conversation are nothing but bars and walls. We are doomed to be reborn to them. In his cave, he is already free.”
He took her hand and held it tightly.
“Do you believe that?” he asked.
“Do you believe that when we make love, when I lie with you? Do you believe that now, here with me in the sunlight?”
She looked away, at the cave, at the little stream running from it, at the hillside.
“I don’t know what to believe any more,” she answered. She could hear nothing from the cave, not even the sound of the old hermit’s voice reciting prayers.
In front of them, the valley stretched out of sight. Smoke rose from the chimneys of the huts that made up the village. In a field, yaks were grazing. At their feet, the monastery glistened with gilded cupolas.
“I remember,” she said, ‘paintings on the walls of the Chqje’s room.”
She paused.
“Yes. Go on,” he said.
“They were bright paintings. I used to think they showed scenes from the next world, from hell. In one of them, a man was being held by a band of monks. His arms and legs were tied, and they were lifting him.”
She paused again. Beyond the valley, stark peaks rose into a sky of ice. She shivered.
“Yes,” he said.
“Go on.”
i “There was a hole. They were lifting him to lower him into the , hole.”
i “I see.”
“And in the next picture, he had been lowered through the hole and was standing in a dark room. I think .. .” She shuddered.
“I
think he was held there by a spider’s web.”
“I understand. And was there more? Were there any more pictures?”
She nodded.
“Yes. Another one,” she said.
“In it the man was lying down.
Perhaps he was not a man, but a boy. He seemed very small. And demons with several arms were attacking him. I tell you, I thought it was hell.”
“Yes,” he said.
“It was hell.”
But he thought though he could not be sure why of the photographs he had found in Cormac’s desk.
“Simon, Dorje-la?, 1916’, “Matthew, Dorje-la?” 1918’, “Gordon, Dorje-la?” 1919’.
“I think they must have lowered the victims into the room a few days before it was time to go down to the first chamber to bring up the Chqje’s things. The rest of the time, there would be some guardians to watch over the treasure; but while the treasure was needed, they would all be feasting at the other end of the tunnel.”
He shuddered. Had his father known what went on? Had Carpenter known to what uses the boys he sold were put?
“When was the last time the Oracle appeared in public?” he asked.
She thought briefly.
“About... a week before you arrived at Dorje-la,” she said.
He remained silent. It fitted. The fresh body. No traces of spiders in the treasure-chamber.
“I think we’d better go back down to the river,” he said.
On the fourth day, the abbot called for him. Chindamani took him
there, then left them alone. The abbot was old and stern, but
Christopher sensed that some at least of the lines that creased the skin round his eyes were laughter lines; he guessed that, at another time and under other circumstances, the old man might have shown himself less severe.
“You are the son of the Dorje Lama? Is that correct?” the abbot asked after tea had been served.
“I am the son of a man who was called Arthur Wylam,” Christopher answered.