“I know.”
Had her hair been red? Blonde? Coldstone hadn’t said.
Had she been young? So many of the girls who came and went through the doors of the Queen of Argyll tavern near the head of the wharf seemed, to Abigail’s eyes, barely children. Others had the bitter faces of crones, though probably no older than her youngest sister Betsy, who was barely twenty-three. Despite her decent upbringing and wary loathing of drunkenness, Abigail felt her heart contract with pity at the sight of them. You could not open yourself to six or eight or ten men a day, she thought, without the assistance of alcohol—of something to keep your mind from what you did and what you’d become. Her thoughts went back to Mrs. Kern and her daughters, hanging gentlemen’s shirts on the stretched lines, their hands red with lye. The youngest one—whom Mrs. Kern had sent without a second thought to fetch Mr. Ballagh from the tavern—had looked barely six.
More men loitered on the wharves, waiting their time to take a shift at guarding the Dartmouth’s cargo to prevent it being unloaded. She crossed Ship Street, pattens clanking on the bricks, to the short wooden platform that stretched out over the salt-smelling waters, and behind her caught the words “liberties of Englishmen . . .” “. . . Parliament . . .” “. . . make us slaves, sure as if we was Negroes ourselves!”
From the head of Scarlett’s Wharf the Dartmouth was hidden by the weathered buildings erected on the quarter mile-plus of the Long Wharf and the clusters of masts beyond; by the shoulder of Fort Hill and the gray stone mass of the Battery. “You think the Governor’s gonna call the soldiers, to get that tea ashore, m’am?” asked Surry, when Abigail’s eyes turned in that direction. And what did they make of it, Abigail wondered: the Scipios and Surrys of the world. Men and women who not only could not vote, but whom the law permitted to be bought and sold, as if they were truly the cattle that Virginians sometimes called them. What did they make of all this furor among the whites, over three-pence a pound on tea?
“I shouldn’t like to be the commander of the regiment trying to implement the order.” She nodded toward a group of newly arrived youths, making their way along the quay under the watchful eye of a bearded older man. “I understand that the Dartmouth’s captain has offered to take his cargo back to England, but Governor Hutchinson has ordered the vessel to remain until the tea is unloaded and delivered to its consignees.”
“I will purely like,” remarked Surry, as they turned south and started to walk along Fish Street toward home, “to see him try.” She had, Abigail reflected, been with Sam Adams a long time.
Abigail pulled her cloak tighter about her shoulders as the gray wind cut at her, tucked her chin into the layers of scarves that swaddled her neck. At any other time, I would be rejoicing.
At any other time—ten days ago—I would have cried out against anyone who tried to stop any of the Sons of Liberty from their endeavors, for any reason. Our liberties—our rights as English citizens—take precedence over the misdeeds of any individual.
In her mind she saw the little black cat on the windowsill, washing itself philosophically with the stump of its paw.
. . . deacon at the New Brick Meeting . . . a-poundin’ on the Fishwire’s door and screamin’ at her . . .
Surry strolled beside her, half a pace behind as behooved a slave, but commenting now and then on this or that ship, this or that group of countrymen . . . Comfortable with Abigail, as with a member of the family. And so she was, reflected Abigail, glancing at her: plump and quite pretty in her spotless white head-wrap and calico dress. She had long ago guessed that Cousin Sam used this woman as a concubine, and that Sam’s wife, Bess, if not precisely delighted by the arrangement, had accepted it. They were both good-natured women, they were both dearly fond of Sam, and both would rather work together to keep the household comfortable than rend it with recrimination and jealousy. Had she been white, and a free man’s wife, Surry would have been precisely what Bess was—as respectable a housewife as she was an “honest” slave.
Thus it was no good asking her if she knew anyone who might have known Jenny Barry. The gulf that divided the respectable from the raffish was deep, and cut across both slave and free. Even a woman as poor and as slatternly as Hattie Kern would feel deeply insulted, had Abigail asked her about the dead prostitute’s friends, enemies, clients. What makes you think I’d know a woman like that?
A man could cross that gulf, of course. As Jeffrey Malvern obviously did, coming to the North End taverns to play cards and drink—it occurred to Abigail to wonder if he, like Abednego Sellars, had a “ladyfriend” with “rooms” somewhere among these anonymous little rear buildings and yards. No man—anger prickled behind her breastbone at the thought—would suffer ostracism from friends and fellow members of the Congregation, merely for speaking to a publican, a whoremaster, a thief.
Paul Revere could help her there. But Revere was still away, carrying pamphlets and broadsides to every town in the colony, bidding all men who loved their country to come to Boston and stand against tyranny.
As they passed Hitchborn’s Wharf, Surry pointed to the whaleboats that were putting out for Castle Island, carrying the families and property of the tea consignees, seeking protection from the Crown against the mob that was growing larger by the day.
Knowing that in all probability she would be immured within her own house for the rest of the day, making dinner and performing the belated tasks of housewifery, after parting from Surry by the town dock Abigail made her way to Hanover Street. She found the shutters up at Orion Hazlitt’s shop, but, hearing voices down the narrow passway to the yard, went back and found him endeavoring to explain to his mother why he was going out, yet again.
She was weeping pitifully, her arms around him like a lover. “But why, son? You’re always leaving me alone now. You didn’t used to. How have I angered you?”
“Mother, I’m not angry. I could never be angry with you. I’ll be back this afternoon.” He tightened his arm around her, bent his head, to kiss her full on the lips. “I would never abandon my best beloved.”
She laid her head on his chest. “But you have,” she whispered. “You have left me, over and over. Please tell me, how I can win back your love.”
“Mother—” he said desperately.
“What if it should rain?” she begged, in a small voice like a child’s. “What if the rain should pour down, and the waters rise, and the house begin to float away? All the high hills, that were under the whole heaven, were covered; fifteen cubits upward did the waters prevail; and the mountains were covered . . . and all that was in the dry land died.”
“I won’t let that happen.” Over her starched lace cap his eyes met Abigail’s, and there was a haunted flicker in them—wondering if I saw that kiss?—as if begging her to understand. He looked as if he had neither eaten nor slept properly in many nights. “I didn’t leave you alone the other night, did I? When it started raining, and you were so frightened, I came back.”
“You did,” she whispered. “You held my hand. All flesh died, that moved upon the earth, both of fowl, and of cattle, and of beast, and of every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth . . .” And she clasped his fingers now, and kissed them with a passion that made Abigail cringe. No wonder the poor man did not feel able to bring a wife into his house. “I could not live without you, now that we are outcasts, exiles, wanderers upon the face of the earth . . .”